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dinastry's Homepage http://www.zorpia.com/dinastry Tue, 29 Dec 2009 09:27 EST Tue, 29 Dec 2009 09:27 EST Zorpia.com Reason for Loving http://www.zorpia.com/dinastry/journal/1937944 I'm married to you because you were a woman willingly living modest with me, be a mother of my children, and be a sholihah wife, in all effort Will I need anything more than that? I don't think so =)  Personal http://www.zorpia.com/dinastry/journal/1937944 Fri, 23 Oct 2009 09:36 EST Haven't I thankful enough? http://www.zorpia.com/dinastry/journal/1926777 As a mother, haven't I thankful enough?   Perhaps it's my clumsiness and ineffectiveness of time and energy managements   Perhaps I would blame the unsupported supports surrounding   Perhaps I would give up everything and just being proud staying home, as a mother   Perhaps if I ever have grandchildren, and their parents are ambitiously working or obligated continuing their studies, I would dedicate my rest of my life to help raising them, I don't need anything more, right? Perhaps it's a whole wrong idea, the need of self-actualization, the need of achieving more success and wealth, when you have your child(ren), it's your utmost properties that actually your whole-life duties are them, taking care, educating, cherishing life with them....   And I'm still here, whining, sometimes crying, sometimes blaming others, sometimes wishing changes happen....   Haven't I thankful enough?   I am a mother and I have my treasure - I hope I could guard this treasure well, aammiiin (still struggling for a better me-a better mother for her....) Personal http://www.zorpia.com/dinastry/journal/1926777 Wed, 02 Sep 2009 00:53 EST Little Touchy Things http://www.zorpia.com/dinastry/journal/1924105 Been a very busy schedule of my sports medicine studies. I barely concern some 'obligatory' chores which were actually already a routine, that I nearly neglect them.   But there was him, willingly to help in every way he could. Even in the past, he purposely learned how to do any tidbits of doing my daily tasks as a working-studying-mum.   When I looked at the baby diaper bag-already stuffed completely. The diaper laundry-checked. The difficulty in preparing my power point presentation-overcame. The dirty slubber-done.   Such a super-husband-daddy, and he's here, with me, hopefully, ALLOH keep him forever with me, aammiin.   -lovingly written dedicated to him, kisses from Bunda and Chelsea =)- Personal http://www.zorpia.com/dinastry/journal/1924105 Wed, 19 Aug 2009 12:04 EST Days of Blaming Myself http://www.zorpia.com/dinastry/journal/1916393 After more than 10 months of being a mum, I remembered these days of blaming foolish myself of conditions happening to my daughter   12nd May 09-the first sub-fever my daughter had, 37.6 Celcius, with mild runny nose. It was sucessfully handled only by breastmilk, thank GOD. Apparently her upper front teeth were growing painfully (those cute shiny big teeth!)   18th June 09-the first (hopefully last one, aammiin) falling from the bed, with around 50cm height, landed on her backbone (ouch!!!) on the wooden floor, miraculously, no visible wound, not even any redness. After 48 hours, everything seemed normal, hopefully forever, aammiin. It was my clumsy watching for her playing on the bed, I was stupidly careless =(.   11st July 09-another fever, this time from 37.9 Celcius, rising to 38.2 Celcius in an hour, tried to breastfed her more and more, added water and pear puree, but she was so cranky, crying and crying that she was sleepy but not being able to sleep, poor dear =(. Finally I gave her antipiretic oral drops, it was done twice since the temperature was still 37.5 Celcius and only down for 37.4 Celcius maximum. Right now she had reached 36.5 Celcius in the morning but stull rised until 37.2 Celcius at noon. I hope she doesnt need anymore medicine, she was asleep for quite long, hopefully it made her better and better, aammiin. No idea what made her hot, but I hope it was only teething again, for she put her finger in her mouth several times before she had the fever.   Oh how sad to watch your treasure unwell, may Alloh get her well soon...aammiin   The added concerns: Few days after 1st year birthday (beginning of september), there were days of runny nose, poor child, it needed twice antiblocked nose and antihistamine one time.   Few days after coming back from Jogja, 30th September 2009: another fever in the midnight just right next morning my 2nd journal presentation =(. One dose of antipiretic, and gladfully she was fine although left home with her auntie (Thank you Madina...)   Almost a month passed, 25th October, a day after a movie time all day at the theatre: another runny nose, lasted for few days, once antiblocked nose. Thank God it wasn't followed by any other symptoms.   Not yet a month, 20th November, another fever...lasted almost 48 hours, accompanied by watery runny nose, some vomits after medication (vitamin, antipiretic and antihistamine drops), and so glad before she recommended by her GrandPa antibiotics the fever was gone, alhamdulillah....   25th November, half eye redness with some mucous....twice artificial tears wasn't enough, so next day the antibiotic eye drop introduced. After twice the mucous was gone, but it should fulfil the course until 2 days more....God please forgive me for letting her feeling those sickness....I am so sacrifying her, in the name of my reasons of education, or laziness....Please don't make her feel any pain anymore...aammiiin Personal http://www.zorpia.com/dinastry/journal/1916393 Sun, 12 Jul 2009 00:12 EST Hidayah http://www.zorpia.com/dinastry/journal/1898831 I'm grateful that Alloh gave me hidayah to cover myself years ago, and I'm grateful I'm still doing it, hopefully forever, aammiin. I'm not a sacred and the most religious woman in the world, flawless of any sins and mistakes, but I feel pity for they who don't do this hijab constantly. I mean, it's the basic rule to do. If you don't do the basic well, how do you expect you will do others well? I don't know, maybe I'm just don't get it why people easily take off and put on the hijab, but I wish they realise its true meaning before easily take it off without regrets. Because it shows you are a muslimah, a woman with high dignity Alloh put you by wearing hijab.... Alloh keep this hidayah with me forever, and please make me die if I ever try to break any of YOUR rules, because I can't bear more sins to add to taste the hell....(aammiin) Personal http://www.zorpia.com/dinastry/journal/1898831 Tue, 21 Apr 2009 05:41 EST The First Times http://www.zorpia.com/dinastry/journal/1883564 In this still of the night, when my daughter is awake due to the enough sleep before...just remembering the feelings of first times of my life. The one yet still very clearly in my head and my heart, is when I first saw my daughter's face...the first USG image, the first sleepy face at the OR (continue till now-sleepy head unfortunately mostly at noon =P hehe but still, very cute), and the first expression when she nursed on me.... Such an amazing first times of me. Now I still cherish many first times after she grow and develop. Each milestone, each new kind of cry, new babble and coo, new laughter...oh how I love her so much =). Personal http://www.zorpia.com/dinastry/journal/1883564 Wed, 25 Feb 2009 14:37 EST Life So Far http://www.zorpia.com/dinastry/journal/1882877 After more than one year marriage, being a wife and a mother, I continue to understand why some people wait so long to be hitched, and some just don't have any doubt to do it. It's no simple tasks of woman as a wife and mother but nothing too impossible as well since it's the nature of a woman. Everyday there's always a challenge of the tasks and everyday it's a training, to be a better you (depends how to face it), to maintain this noble responsibility in your marriage. And before marriage when you realize you're not perfect, now you join to another imperfect personality, bringing this new life in the most perfect way we could achieve, hopefully forever (aammiin). I'm still too dependent and spoiled to become a superMum, and I try day by day to conquer all the negative sides of myself, that in my past have led to self-destruction. I've been there and I knew how to survive. I hope I am still a survival and a fighter to keep going this life, a life that is so wonderful with ups and downs challenging, a life that once I thought not as good as the others but then again I thought, others life may not this great as ours =). We just tend to see the greener others than our own plant of life, when, actually there are so many things to be grateful of, many things to cherish as your limitless happiness.. Love my little family so much. Personal http://www.zorpia.com/dinastry/journal/1882877 Mon, 23 Feb 2009 05:28 EST The First Year Marriage http://www.zorpia.com/dinastry/journal/1856143 Monday, 17th November 2008 Our first year wedding anniversary. And my husband is away in the ocean. So serendipity that our daughter's name (Chelsea) means: sea port ^^, when we picked the name it wasn't meant to do so =P. Well, it's our first year of together's life...how wonderful, GOD has given a gift to take care and responsible of forever. And I know how much her father feel long of her far away there.... We've been through bumps on the road, we've shared laughter together as well, and we learned together what family means, and what love's truly meaning =) Happy 1st anniversary dear...   Romance & Relationships http://www.zorpia.com/dinastry/journal/1856143 Mon, 17 Nov 2008 10:05 EST My Recent Life http://www.zorpia.com/dinastry/journal/1853333 It's been quite a while I haven't recorded anything here. Even I still have my Scandinavian journal, unfinished and unpublished yet (don't know if I still can continue). It's because after I came back from Scandinavia I met someone whom in 4 months later became my husband, and almost a year now that we have gone through magical moments together as husband and wife, with a beautiful daughter =). It's impressive how life suddenly changed. And how we can change it again. But this change is something I always remember to thank GOD, for I become more understanding in loving and being loved, and how I realise how much love my parents give me, since now I become one of them. Thank you Mum and Dad. Personal http://www.zorpia.com/dinastry/journal/1853333 Sat, 08 Nov 2008 21:49 EST Pleasant Hours http://www.zorpia.com/dinastry/journal/1716598 There were fine days occuring in my life. The moments are so pleasing and comforting that I actually am afraid, if it's just something blur and merely naive dreams.But perhaps I just seize the beauty of them to rejoice some sore and tearing spirits in the past.That'll do =).  Personal http://www.zorpia.com/dinastry/journal/1716598 Tue, 14 Aug 2007 03:25 EST Unspoken Expressions http://www.zorpia.com/dinastry/journal/1713881 It was just a simple good deedIt was probably only your natural kindnessBut you put on your shoes back for meI could never be more touched that time I'll never forget the time I saw your graceThe firm tone of your instructionsSomehow gave me strength in the airAnd helped me find the grip to land back in balance I always treasure that momentFor I know it's the only thing I can doThe only chance I could be with you Just there  Personal http://www.zorpia.com/dinastry/journal/1713881 Tue, 07 Aug 2007 05:27 EST My Longest Birthday Scandinavian Summer Trip http://www.zorpia.com/dinastry/journal/1711091 This is a review of my last 'scientific' as holiday trip to Scandinavian countries, on 8-17th June 2007. Bangkok, the Transit Point We had few hours to have dinner in the highest building in Bangkok, which is called...Baiyoke tower From the 76th floor we could see a beautiful view of the city, with sunset background. Then there were some time to go to the Suan Lum Night Bazaar. Stockholm, The Nobel Award City My 26th Birthday! It's the longest birthday of my life since I went from the Eastern part of the world across the continents to the Western part so it's more than 24 hours birthday =), about 6 hours more so it's more or less 30 hours birthday of my own, how nice ^^. It was a very warm morning air in Arlanda Airport Stockholm, Sweden. We went directly to the City Hall, where most of important events of the city held, including the great Nobel award receptions. There was some "willow tree pollen" (is it the tree???) raining along the sidewalk from the bus park to the hall. It was a beautiful building with some beautiful mozaics on the wall, the river view on the front, and high ceiling with upside down viking boat skeleton (as if in human-forgot the exact phrase =P) architecture. Had lunch in a Chinese resto then met Mira, my friend who studied in Groningen, Holland. She came there to meet her parents who will join the EAACI in Gothenburg (I planned to join it onsite as well).  From lunch we bumped into a parade of graduate high school children on trucks and buses. They wore paintings on their bodies, singing and spraying water and perhaps some cokes or champagne (?) everywhere. We arrived at Apple convention hotel Gothenburg at dinner time. We had fish with some seasonings and delicious dessert (nicely garnished). Later on will be described about the EAACI congress and the rest of the journey, if I still can make it hehehe. Hobbies & Interests http://www.zorpia.com/dinastry/journal/1711091 Tue, 31 Jul 2007 03:37 EST The Greatest Treasure http://www.zorpia.com/dinastry/journal/1703341 Thank God it was just temporary. I can stand upright again after a week of viral infection (suspiciously Dengue). And now I'm in computer lab of my campus, trying to deal with this Epi info program and luckily the connection is on so...Then I'm just reminded of this one greatest treasure I have. Shameful to complain, I know.   Personal http://www.zorpia.com/dinastry/journal/1703341 Tue, 10 Jul 2007 05:06 EST Unbearable http://www.zorpia.com/dinastry/journal/1701927 I'm writing while I am still able to. It's not just my starting term of Sports Medicine Specialistic Degree or other tight schedule. It's something going on with these limbs. I have yet to know what it is, I just hope it's not permanent. I start to understand and think about deeply of what people say "my body isn't just like mine used to be". It's not easy. But it's reality. And shouldn't I be thankful I can still write this? Personal http://www.zorpia.com/dinastry/journal/1701927 Fri, 06 Jul 2007 19:19 EST Exclusive (and expensive) Cruise http://www.zorpia.com/dinastry/journal/1693540 I'm using 40 DKK per hour service, with Mira we shared each 30 minutes. It's a cruise on Crown of Scandinavia Ship, departed from Oslo to Copenhagen. It was nice, only I realise that our currency towards Danish Krones is getting low so...not so nice maybe =P It's 11 PM and the sun has just set beautifully.... Personal http://www.zorpia.com/dinastry/journal/1693540 Fri, 15 Jun 2007 16:08 EST