Journals
Thursday,Apr 29 2004, 03:58:01 PMTime is not a river but a sea, Holding all...
Time is not a river but a sea,
Holding all that was and is to be.
It is the mind that moves across the story,
Racing with the wind upon its glory,
Tracing through the will one's destiny.
Years shimmer in their drowned eternity.
The problem is, of course, identity,
Having the impression we are free.
Remember that the Earth does not seem round.
Each eve the sun sinks slowly towards the ground,
Even as we choose to take our tea.
Wednesday,Apr 28 2004, 08:45:43 PMweDnesday evening, it rained un famishly...
weDnesday evening, it rained un famishly down. spent the day shopping for groceries near my house, accompanying my fren. bought alot of stuff, so lent a helping hand to her..
lifes' like this when you know you are getting freakingly old day by day. u dun watch TV for hours. or maybe tcs5 sucks a whole lot, and watching shits like american idol. is just a waste of time, or a sad pathetic way to scrutinize some arse singing what they cant sing. moved away from the tv to finish up some coding.. it seems like a whole lot aint it.? yeah i think so too..
Midnite, watch bUffy the vampire slayer as i always watch it when i do have the free time, which is like nowsdays. quality shows that entertain the mind seems, to be decipating into the outermost realms of space whereas shows that doesnt give any fortitude of entertainment whatsoever is being aired every wednesday & thursday.
after that ~ since i had tnuthing to do... caried some weight while staring at my computer for no apparent reason... sitting there to see whats happening in cyberspace.. did the usual crunches 20 at a go.. every now and then until abt 4 plus in the morning. i think ive rested a couple of times, and then when to the laptop to play some game... mind ya its called star craft.. the most fiersome game ever built in 1999 which is bleddy outdated . but what to do, i dun have any games to play rahter no new games to play nowadays...
oh yeah one wierd thing that happen to me was that i smoked my sister's ciggy. it was PALL MALL... it was light, cool, refreshing, leaves a cool sensation when u breathe in an breathe out.. it was damn lighter then the usual marlboro. the point of this little story was that i smoked it while drinking tea... tea as in lipton tea.. luke warm.. 2 suga cubes, and a dash of honey... and it made me damn woozy. crap.. felt like i was high.. dizzy.. felt like shit for the rest of the half hour after i smoked that joint.
now my thesis is u shouldnt drink tea aka my conconction smoking or that ciggy was actually dashed with some vodka to the side of it and while it burnned,,,... i in haled some serious vodka fumes.... hah! i wouldnt know... now my lesson of the day is DUN SMOKE OR DRINK.. ull feel like shit the next day but u feel high the moment you are on it...
i dun care if u listen or not.. or whether u read my crap.. its just for my own personal amusement. free writing is like free speech.. everybody listens, but people dont give a damn.. as 5% is idea... 95% is work.. what the fcuk am i blabbering about? i dunno abt me sometimes, i like to cook and bake stuff,.. but never really actually tried doing that.. the best is ive come up to my most expertise cuisine is my white sauce pasta and the bolognaise pasta..
as pasta is my one favourite dish... with meat and stuff.. i can make it to damn perfection to my standards of course.! voila~ si vou plait as my mom is a chef of culinary indo cooking... i couldnt get slightest idea whether i get the liking to cook from my genes or by personal involvement...
my mission is to bake something.. brownie? choco cake? panjacks~ ooh yummy. and my meal is as per 1 meal a day. consisting anything atleast one meal and MAX one meal a day.. aint that a bitch trying to loose weight and building for this service to the nation crap... i would just wish that they would take me in earlier... so that i dun have to waste my bloody time... dun like to find a job man.. hehe rather stay at home create websites and codes them with skill...
so anihoooo god damn ya and SALUT! 445am time to go rest my dainty eyes
Wednesday,Apr 28 2004, 12:01:33 AMits been a bitch nowsadays..... lifes taken...
its been a bitch nowsadays..... lifes taken a toll on me. been waiting for my national service since i have no idea when. just wondering when will the government take its favourite son of theirs into action.
today i didnt get to sleep as i was coding a client invoice thingy in php. the admin side got it to work magnificiently enuff to get praises strutt down my throat. only need is the client side.. so naturally i have to think like a client viewing to the invoice login as an amateuralist.
the best abt me getting into this non profit kind of projects, is that i get to learn how to do stuff in php, learning what i ald know, do it in a faster more efficient manner, and learning what i do not know. i think myself as an uber php coder hahah... thats just me in my own world. i have always been in my own world. i make my own rules and those rules do not apply to those not in my world of course.
yesterday i woke up abt 6.. dreaded i say. PM not am. cos the day before i slept at around 5.. so naturally i take 12 hours to get good rest. and then i took a fast run down my usual route around jurong. which is kind far... gee why do i even do it in the first place. its this thing called getting fit. for service of the nation. at the end of the month i will go back to cmpb and weigh myself again. to reassess my PES. currently at a pathetic PES BP. aint gonna cut it. i am given that category by a small margin.
my bmi currently is at 27.2 i need to reach 26 and less...according to normal bMI im 3kg overweight.. i think i ate before going there..oh.. no ididnt.. think my balls was heavier that day.. 1.5kg on each side... so have been working out alot.. gymming not so recent but running every day if i could mostly on 2 days basis... dunno if i changed or not.. we will soon noe end of this month.. or maybe 3rd of May.. long holiday and shit on the 30th april.. like i freaking give a damn abt the day that pass by.. its like a normal day....
ive learnt that u never get to be a virgin in ur life. cos life screws you whether u like it or not... haha things that i would like to accomplish before going to ns
1. learn how to make brownies.
2. learn how to cook some famous dish or somehting..
3. get myself fit enuff
4. dunno yet.. keep ya arses updated.
Friday,Apr 23 2004, 01:42:08 PM[IMAGE] Fight Club! What movie Do you Belong...
Fight Club!
What movie Do you Belong in?(many different outcomes!)
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this shit pic wont load up~ aniwae im in fight club