okay i haven't logged into this site for quite awhile and  haven't posted anything since God knows when... 

 reading my previous posts, i kept telling myself "i don't remember posting that!" 

hahahahahahahaha! anyway anyone there who wants to add me just do it

 till the next

it's honesty time folks... why here? why now? i don't know... it's just been a chip on my shoulder... do you wanna know why i've been such a miserable failure when it comes to women? my friend asked me once why this is so when my being a deep thinker and a guy who somewhat is a source of knowledge (tangina feeling ka edu! feeling ka talaga!!! you're so full of yourself!!)... i'll tell you why... because all this time, more often than not i stand on my own fuckin paranoia... almost every girl that i've gone for (the others placed me in a position which disabled me) has been a failure... this is what deep thinking does to you... you assume situations that have little or no basis at all and create scenes in your head that make you pessimistic and lose all hope and thus give up! everything just rolls along in this train of thought! and guess what? i'm here again in the same situation... here's a girl i like but again i'm getting too fucking paranoid to risk everything i've got... i keep telling myself stop thinking that way but how can i not! it's part oif my fuckin persoanlity to do so! putangina lang! fuck!!!! consider me a loser if you wish coz when it comes to courtship (not love coz love is universal and i know where i stand from there!) well that's fine coz i probably am a loser when it comes to this fuckin thing! laugh at me if you wish i probably would laugh with you! fuck i'll just listen to good ol frankie (sinatra) and just relax my fuckin head! i can't stop thinking! a curse if you would call it that! but i cannot just throw away this trait of mine coz it's what gets me through my life and i've been right a couple of times when it comes to the women i've gone for (although i've also been wrong!)

sige yun lang sa mga tao diyan hi na lang! kung may kailangan kayo sa akin send me a message or text me! yun lang! sa susunod adios!!!!

i pass the test, i will diminish and go into the west, remain Edu... hahahahahah! LOTR rip off!

okay so this is my first blog/journal entry/whatever the fuck you wanna call it... i'm just this bored i guess... i already have a myspace account wherein it too can let me post my blogs but i'm here coz... well i don't know probably coz of curiosity... i'm supposed to do my storyline for my the screenplay i'm making for one of my subjects (CREAWRI) but i haven't even begun... it's due tomorrow and it's almost 2 am... i'm thinking maybe i could do it tomorrow, it's just a storyline i'm confident that my writing skills will be able to do the task... but then again i'm merely justifying my own laziness... for heaven's sake i just hope that i'll have the drive to accomplish my task tomorrow... i'm tryin to be in the dean's list this sem but it's not even midterms and already i'm losing my drive... if i lose it, i might feel empty once again coz right now it's all i've got (and LOTR cards of course but then that alone won't let me able to pull away my attention from my own despair) it's funny i know that by nature i am an optimist... but then there's another side of me that's... nope not pesssimist... more of realist... blah!!!! i can't stop thinking... think think think... i really need to have myself checked, i may have ADD (attention deficit disorder to those unaware)... i think so much that i feel that somewhere inside my head wander the secrets of the universe... hahahaha! that seems a rather bold statement to say... i don't know maybe i'm just this guy who's just so full of himself that he thinks he knows everything.... you may think i'm this you may think i'm that... perosnally i don't give a fuck what you think! if only you could comprehend what inside my head you'd probably say the same things that i've already said... well shit that's it... i don't wanna keep rambling coz i may never stop... and just so you know i'm not usually like this you should meet me... i'm quite the character, it's the truth ask those who know me... sige adios!!!