Journals
Friday,Apr 30 2004, 06:01:51 AMwaiting........... when can a man wait ??? ho
waiting...........
when can a man wait ???
how long can a man wait, is there a certain answer to this question..
it depends on how much a man values his time...
if he was prepared to wait, or if he didnt intent to wait at all
i can wait for my friends to come because i know they will come. in some circumstances i will have a book in my hand when i expected to wait for that friend.
but i am sure i cant wait for love, it is too obvious from my first love to now.. waiting, the feeling that need to wait has already stopped me from loving ...why ?? am i value myself too much or do i have not got enough faith.....?? i want someone who can be always available for me before, yes i have changed a bit after this one. however, i still dont understand why i am such a person... do i just need a companion and do i really know what is love?? i dont
so i decide to get away from love, to get away from the constraints that put on her and also those those that put on me
Thursday,Apr 29 2004, 01:03:20 PMsummer... is also a good time for people to...
summer... is also a good time for people to gather together....
i need to gather all the lsc guys that i know ..... everyone to me seems close but still far .... i know everyone are missing each other... but just no one gather them ... i'll try my best to do this ... coz we all have been in the same community for at least 6 years.... watever good or bad .... we are still a family
so i phone donald again today, he'll finish exam next week, same as me. haha, i wouldn't have an affair with another unless i finish one... that is my rule.... you are so bad ...
but how can you do this, i dont think you are so attractive to girls ..........
Thursday,Apr 29 2004, 12:41:23 PMToday, is a change in my world. "I lost my...
Today, is a change in my world. "I lost my passion for many things, and i need to find them back";"i will be on my own, see you" . That is my last few sms to her. I won't hear any of her again, at least for a year.
Yes, i cant love her again after these many things. I am not doing her good at all. Many times i would like to say to her, but everytime i turn the words to a joke. It is my fault. it is 1 and a half year's time with her, of coz, we couldnt easily let go. But i believe, she could feel it for a long time. i havent kiss her for so long time, didnt want to say i love her.....
I am in a dead end, i need to find myself again, the one that would smile every second in life. the one that is full of energy....
i would say sorry to the books that i have left them alone, to the promises that i would finish all the dvd in ILC, to many things that i want to have a look. ..............I need to get them back..
Tired of loving someone, no effort to make someone happy again, is it ?? a part of it. Want to have some new excitement ?? may be, but definitely not another gf ( someone must object this ) .
I want to have a free body to do some free things.
I believe people had a good and also an evil face. i think no book is about a diary of someone good and evil face.. so i would try to write down my everyday good and evil thoughts ..... haha...may be become the best selling book of the year
good for the day
i need to re enter the world of knowledge. bought three books
evil for the day
except staring at girls.....em.....no special for this day, may be want to sent something to another girl in England, just after breaking up with gf
wants for the day
a book which is about power in chinese history, how people manage their power especially for emperor and high position people
Wednesday,Apr 28 2004, 05:50:40 PMThis journal will be something that is crazy...
This journal will be something that is crazy and out of mind ....
dont take so much serious about the thoughts of me.
A place for my free thoughts; only some could have a look of it(certainly too close is not very good and may have danger in see this)
Today is 28/4, will something different happen to me after this day??? Actucally i see something big will happen, but i am not sure should i let it go...
Will An open diary change your friends attitude to you? An open life is easier to make more closer friends?? i doubt ?? may be it works but certainly i believe i couldnt freely express my mind. HAHA, that's why i am here,.