Journals
Tuesday,Oct 26 2004, 12:35:46 AMbutterfly a lot of them is flying today .....
butterfly
a lot of them is flying today .......
travelling ......
alone is good for some time
with friends is good for some time
with gf is good for some time
cant be so perfect .....
chicago .... nice architect .... very nice
still my favourite is the NBA game .....
would I be able to get a ticket for the baseball world series in st louis .... ??
dont want to study anymore
want to read other kinds of books
......... still have a midterm ......... hell ....
Wednesday,Oct 20 2004, 07:12:08 AMit is nothing to do with my own love...
it is nothing to do with my own love situation for my previous post ar ha
i m very fine
just I want to develop my love economics jeh
I go to eat buffet in a casino -- ameristar; i have long leg crab
then go to play ma jong and I win after 4 circle
then i was interviewed by someone who need to finish an essay abt a person who just arrive in US
and it was 2 am .....so good today .....dont wanna study lu
Tuesday,Oct 19 2004, 03:41:35 AMsometimes people will get really tired.......
sometimes people will get really tired..........
will be tired of being so hardworking all the time
tired of talking with ppl
tired of doing the same thing regularly
tired of having the same life
tired of love
may be that is the seven year itches........
will everything come to an end finally ??!!
it is like the business cycle ....
and the great question is
how to slow down inflation and make a moderate and long term growth ......
tax cut?? -- spend less time on each other
increase interest rate?? -- make yourself more pretty
spend more ?? -- find some new excitement e.g travelling
i dont know .... ...... may be it was too much tax ......
and people want to spend their income on something else
may be the interest rate is too low than people dont put money on you again
may be the life is too regular and when new things come... it attracts away investment
how to growth ??!!
if love @ everywhere can sustained
it should be a long term growth i believe ...
so i believe excitement is needed
yes ..... u will be so happy with me
you know i know what to do to be happy
and what to do to make the other sad
yes ..... the reverse of adam smith's free hand
when ppl are looking at other interest.... they will be both better off
but the reality is
ppl only look at their own interest.... so when one side break the balance
the balance will never balance again ..
can love be balanced ?
in the long run, the average of love should be balanced.....
man variablity in love is much larger than a woman
and a woman's love will rise slowly when she received the confidence to give more
so what a man should do is hide its downside and smooth out the downside with the upside before it is too late to do so, that's why man buy present when they did something wrong.
since man's variability is so high, may be that's why most of them could turn it off faster than a woman
what to do when a man wanna breakup ??
coz man dont listen, there is simply no way to manipulate their thoughts and dont even try to say them wrong coz it is no use and would worsen the case. if they start to think they wanna get away in the relationship, it should be only a matter of time as they should think it over and over again for a long time. love still exist, but they have made up their mind, so what should be done ? may be try to grab the sympathiness that a man didnt say break up to his gf, try to be the little and sad one, there may be a chance that the man would come back, but it depends on if you want the new him, cause now he should have his new rules and new style, you need to continue to be little and sad and dont be annoying.
in the whole process, he still loves you if he had ever spend any time thinking if he should break up with you. may be it is just a little problem between you two, but in a man's world, he dont wanna fix it or not sure if he cant fix it, so he decide to walk away, coz he dont wanna see his failure.
So if you mean it, you should hold the relationship and be a little girl. he wouldnt want to see you cry, and dont ever try to argue with him or bargain .... coz in the long run, if he is with you, you will have a larger say in anything .... this is just a trough in the business cycle.... as you have invested in it so much, and couldnt pull it out, you can just hope for a better future
but when i decided to pull out from a relationship, i cut all my connection with her, may be i dont wanna see her cry, and let emotion ruined my decision. Coz i believed that when once it is connected, there is a connection forever, so if ever you want a clean cut, just do it and never look back.....
but when you are sure you can be insulated, you can start looking back geh..... .
a happy memory but short, or long term business cycles with the one if you can???
i m sure i will face this, and i m afraid any sad things come out will ruin it all
coz when ppl are used to growth, they will lose hopes easily in regression ......
like if i lose my ring, there will be a mark in our relationship, and may be later sometime, the mark will make another mark and so on ...... so what should one do ??
forgive and forget.....?? the most genuine answer, but how many people could do this ??
haha.......can i say i use merger and aquisition to substain growth in my love ??
may be still, it is timing .... for example, if your bf order is not the same as now .?? what do u think who are you with now ?? say when someone get to 30, the more inelastic will it love will be, so elasticity drops as age increase, em... we should define the axis first, let say price is an aversion attributes and quantity is the quantity of your love. when the bad things goes up, your quantity will not drop too much when your love is inelastic
ooops.. forgot that not many ppl have a lot of historical data tim .........
nvm .... it stills apply.....
how about four years relationship compare with a new one ??
I personally believe that a four years relationship is more vulnerable than a new one in my age (remember it is important with age, although the age that lead to increasing inelasticity seems rising as many ppl got divorced). coz i believe most people dont know how to manage their love cycle..... and often in four years, the had already get passed the peak and on a stagnated position, any external factors could easily start the regression and then kill the relationship.
so an external factor is also important in time, for the same sexy girl, you may not see her the same at your different stage.
So no one wants to go to regression, they tries every method to stimulate growth before any external factors arrive, like if 911 comes in during the growth, it is nothing or may even stimulate the growing economy.
and here is an important point that how we see our love cycle, do we really need a lot of excitement to grow it ?? no, i think it really depends on the balance of trust and new impact(other things apart from love). Coz i think you need new impact to produce new excitement to the other half, but usually the process would create a lot of suspicious activities.... so you need trust to overcome this fear.... of coz the management of trust and new impact is a difficult science which i m also learning, but one couldnt have his trust or new impact equals to zero or else love will stop growing. here, wat i mean for stop growing is that the potential of love, there is boundary for one's love which is constrainted by a lot of things ( shittt... boundary ....too difficult tim) but you can grow your boundary to make your love growth to an even larger extent.
people always afraid, so their boundary of love is not big.... but when trust grows with new impact and can be balanced, the boundary will become larger... of coz, trust and new impact can be dont grow at the same time.... ususlly new impact grow first and then trust.... if trust dont grow with new impact, there will be a a case that the love boundary of the two ppl is not the same....... and it is dangerous if the difference countinues to become larger.
and the reality is you cant stop the new impact, so the trust level is the must to increase... but of coz it couldnt and shouldnt increase indefinitely. There is an optimal point that i believe it is different for different couple. Everyone wants to go to their optimal point, so that's why people are saying they need to find the right one, what i believe, the critical point of mr right should be something about this optimal point.
I believe that if once this optimal point was over reached by someone (beyond the temptation that one gets) it started to lower the trust level of both of them and the boundary shrinks. So never tried to break this optimal point. Human made mistakes but they could avoid when it is not necessary
love, trust and new impact.......... you cant choose one, you need to balance all of them with your other half. That's why ppl say love is difficult
we do not have a lot new impacts now, and that's why i am afraid more when we are in HK, we even do not come across much with your circle and my circle...... i dont know where my trust level can go. God bless me, strengthen my love and trust and dont let that lazy fat but little girl who prays to you usually tempt me, tell me when she do bad things.
Sunday,Oct 17 2004, 03:51:15 AMfcuk l........ wat do they want ... screw...
fcuk l........ wat do they want ... screw up my nite
just received a phone call from my parents
why do they only ask abt my academic things...... I am bad, i know i am bad.......
they bring me back to the reality.
they dont know how to teach me and talk to me .............
they never use a supporting position to speak with me .........
so i dont like talking to them
everytime it is like arguing ............
fcuk fcuk fcuk ............ wtf.........
i dont like it ........
i know they care about me, but it is really in a wrong way, may be i give them an impression that i just know going out to play ............ or flirt with girls .......
fcuk ....... why cant they think in my perception ..... why dont they think wat to say before they are going to say ...........
treat me like a boy that dont know abt the real world ........
fcuk
i should calm down but it is really fcuk, the longer i m not in home, the more difficult i can speak with them ........... so fcuk up ..........................
i want to improve the situation but can they just say something a bit off the academic or related thing .........
Sunday,Oct 17 2004, 12:20:20 AMstarted my muscle training........ already...
started my muscle training........ already 2 days ... good , keep it up
play b ball with the US ppl, haha, they just win me because they are tall .... i m still so skillful ....... then go to weight room, good, dont be lazy .........
finish the paris book...... may be go back to my case first ... dont know what kind of book should i read next.,,. may be the one abt boeing