Journals
Sunday,Dec 22 2002, 06:54:00 AMCalm? Yes, much more calm I am now. I...
Calm? Yes, much more calm I am now.
I suddenly went to cut my hair short today. Hate long hair, though somebody told me my hair is good.
(at least 7 ppl. asked if I have made tl, I wonder, if it really looks like.)
(Sei Connie keep sayin' that I looked like tl in F4 lor)
(btw, when I saw those dance contest photos, I thought I really looked like H tim.........@wYAnn oh, ߲z@Τ߲z@)
Saturday,Dec 21 2002, 10:26:00 PMThis is not a logical diary, so if you don't...
This is not a logical diary, so if you don't understand, don't asked me.
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Just 1 more step to lose myself.
I know I was forcing myself to feel, cuz I am not sure if I could really feel it, and it was not the right time to be emotionless. But, it's all over now.
Being simple is the hardest thing of all.
Once I loved to draw the eyes of people.
A girl that was used to be my favourite model, told me, she was trying hard to be herself. She was pretending what she thought she was in these few years. To run away from the reality? I don't really understand. But the real her was different from the one she was pretending to be. The harder she tried, the more obvious the differences.
Then one day, she went to saw a competition with me. Seeing a boy's performance, she recalled one time, long long ago, when she was on the stage, a bit nervious, but confident as the boy.
She found herself.
Then I suddenly realize, the boy's eyes, his pupil, has the same shading as the girl.
Thursday,Dec 19 2002, 11:31:00 AMLast day of normal school be4 the christmas...
Last day of normal school be4 the christmas holidays...bad news bad feeling bad mood
Kaka will not agree with what I think, but, who cares. I don't wanna argue over this anymore. Hate to hear someone commenting my memories. "You wanna say I am not involved, so I dunno what your feeling right? But why do you have do recalled? It's useless."
You are not involved. That's exactly what I wanna say.
(continue to write after lunch)
(hate it!! It doesn't display!! I've written so much (an hour!!)!! I am not gotta write it again!! T_T)
(DAMN, I wanna K the computer #*$&#%)
Wednesday,Dec 11 2002, 08:05:00 AMSleepy sleepy sleepy.........................
Sleepy sleepy sleepy...........................
Dunno wt happens, but I am really sleepy these days..............anywayz, i am always sleepy.........ZzzZzZzZzZZ....
I 've tried my best to reduce my recreation time these days. But actually it's not so difficult, as no games are available:) Though I do really like Dark Angel, but I really don't used to those kind of action games that the characters won't upgrade from time to time. Don't even hav weapons......Geezzse.......and Harry Pottter is almost finished............
Ai......my mind is clearer now. I thought I got sth wrong this morning on the way school, as everybody is staring at me. Don't understand why the man was trying to stand facing me ( I was at the back of the elevator )
Mmmm..........I was a bit upset not to be chosen the representative, but I think I hav joined to much things from the start. Good that I wasn't chosen as I wanna dance. (but, 4 hours a week, is it too much?) And Chem Yuen almost wanted to rejected our proposal. How can we find evdience for the presence of cyanide? If there is evdience, then why we need to do research?........gao chor.......Gotta come back in new year holidays for the experiments, ai.......................
Kaka said my cha-cha got jazz feel, haha. I remembered the jazz of Wong Wing, got chi-dance feel, hahahaha. Can't believe there's such kind of mix dance. Dunno if there will be a team for the dance contest this year?
Wednesday,Dec 11 2002, 05:42:00 AMJune : Melody 仲未請食飯!! Flor : 係...
June : Melody 仲未請食飯!!
Flor : 係 lor!
Melody : 你地都未約時間叫我~
June : 你點可以咁唔唔負責任 ga! 係我地付出時間 bor!!
Flor : 係 lor! 我地付出時間俾你請wor...
整死 Melody ;P