Sooo this shit is gay

havent been on here in like a year. literally.

so my boyfriend is in North Carolina. He was in Florida, now he's stationed in NC. soo yeah. sucks.

we broke up a few times cuz things get hard when your boyfriend is in the marines. we fight alot. but i love him to much to let him go... just ughhh wish things were perfect like they were when we first got together.

now he's posting new pics of his sexy self and all these lil bitches are gonna be looking at him. but whatever. he doesnt care so why should i?

hmm whats new... nothing lol

yeah this is retarded. im done writing.

bye

Sooo it's been awhile since I have wrote in this bitch. So I thought why not now? Hmm where do I start?

Kevin, my man, went to boot camp for the marines last month, August 15th.... I miss him soo much. He hasn't wrote me yet, but I found out why. His dad wrote me an email tellin me that he lost my address when he was movin into boot camp or something. Anyways, I miss him so much. I just want him to come home so I can go see him. ugh....

Next thing... my best friend commited suicide right in front of me last week. I'm still shook up about it. I shoulda took the chance and got shot myself and pulled the gun away from her but all I could do was look at her and scream "NO" and then run towards her... her last words.. "Kay, I love you, you were and always will be my best friend... tell everyone I had to... " then bam... Oh my gosh, I'm crying again. This shit is not normal. I'm a bad fuckin friend. Her mom don't think it's my fault that I didn't stop her I was in shock.... but a couple of her old friends, which were or are my friends say its my fault, that I coulda stopped her. I still blame myself, cry myself to sleep... all of that.

Soo yeah it's been hectic. On top of that, I'm on probation for battery and assult for fights and they are wanting to put me on house arrest. Ugh I hate this stage of life, where everything goes wrong. I'm gonna go... please leave me lots of comments.

Kay

Today is my effin sweet 16!!! SO, if you love me at all, leave me lots and lots of comments!!!

kayla