Friday,Jun 18 2004, 01:06:42 AMhmmm...hi...im sleepy rite now..ahakz...got...

hmmm...hi...im sleepy rite now..ahakz...got 2gether wif didi yesterday...phew..i was lucky..met him thru msn...@ first he was kindda quiet...until i pestered him thoroughly..hehe....then we cleared the air...soo after tat i called him @ 10.45pm...talked till 12 am..ahaha..can say 20 mins..he had 2 wait 4 me...it was kindda scary coz my dad n sis was outside n they cud here every thing tat i said...i sang 4 didi...a ska song...ahakz...his cuzin...hakim..was k...he provided background music..ahakz..im meeting didi @ bishan again todae @ 2pm...hope niki n zareena can make it....i wonder if syaza wud like 2 go 2..:D..

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Thursday,Jun 17 2004, 01:59:27 AMi read his(didi)email juz now....he seemed...

i read his(didi)email juz now....he seemed angry tat i waited 4 zareena's surprise(naqiah)tat coz me 2 b late....soo he asked me who was more important???!!!!gawd how should i noe??!! every1 is important 2 me....im a loyal fren.....im new 2 BGR...wat dya xpect from me....HE got 14 ex...i got ...2 b real....none...xcept 4 tat damned once!!!!ways wrong wif every1!!!@!!!he should understand wat....the most important thing next 2 my studies n life is FRENS!!!!B4 he came....n nowadays...i can't even c him online since my bro is always using the comp!!!!!!f**k him r!!!!shit!!!y m i sooo angry wif 1 damned mail!@!@!n f**k!! im hammering on the poor keyboard.....i wonder if we need 2 repair it later....sianzzZZzzzzzzugh watever r...im gonna chat @ irc n hope my mood will b ok later/.......fcuk tis goddamned world!!!!!

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Monday,Jun 14 2004, 01:13:47 PMhey...kindda moody todae coz when i went up...

hey...kindda moody todae coz when i went up 2 bishan...2 meet didi..i was late 4 15 mins..i tot i saw a glimpse of him..but when i looked 4 him..he wasn't there..soo..im a bit dwn..when i called his hse..his mom answered...i asked his mom 2 tell him 2 call back zareena's hp..if he returned home...but then ...his mom told me kindly tat i should ask her of a favour politely....hell..i dunnoe  tat i was impolite..i didn't mean it...i'm not usually like tat...*sigh*..damned...i've taken a dozen courses gotta do wif etiquette n speech n public relations...hell!! where did it all disappear....haiXXXX...i was mad @ myself 4 being stupid...i've lost all my confidence now...sianZZz...n im no longer self-assured...why??!!WHY!!!...i dunnoe r...im stupid sia...its no wonder if his mom doesn't like me...or he himself dislike me...i deserve it...didi doesn't deserve an impolite,blur, not confident gerl like me.....he deserve some1 better 2 take care of him...n no else should deserve me...im undeserving of luv, care, concern n especially respect....haiXXX...wats wrong wif me....i can't even 4get the 3 ppl i luv....syaza,farhan n didi....wats wrong wif me....im sorry didi..im sorry bcoz of the way i spoke 2 ur mom...it wasn't on purpose...im not always like tat...i dunnoe wats wrong wif me...i hope u'll gimme another chance..coz i think im falling in luv wif u...although its slowly...but its there.....:(...i dun feel right now...i dunnoe anything anymore....gawd!! how i miss u already....it was a damned bad impression i made on ur mom 4 the first time...SHIT!!!!...damned!!!f**k tis suay day...

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Saturday,Jun 12 2004, 05:20:43 PMhehehehehehe....todae im soo happy coz i...

hehehehehehe....todae im soo happy coz i stead with ishadi or didi.....he's 17,takin n's tis yr...o's next yr wif me..:D...he lives @ bishann i mizz him already..met him @ anakmelayu...n we r gonna meet 4 the 1st time tis mon...haiXX..can't wait....im calling him papa...:D..haizzz..dunnoe if i can slp or not...ahaha

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Saturday,Jun 12 2004, 06:34:01 AMwassup!!todae i have no religious skool...soo

wassup!!todae i have no religious skool...soo im free....yeah man!!...shit!!..i juz noticed the time n tat i had juz missed my fav. chi. cartoon....haizz...sianzz....but still....i have the whole day..muahahaha...yesterday @ zareena's hse...i had n emmotional breakdwn...scary sia....haiya..tis days i feel soo insecure ...dunnoe wats happenin...soo lonely now.....found out syaza was ma 1st luv...haiya...still hurt....tot abt farhan though....missing him rite now....but he's juz a fren rite...sooo who cares....*shrugs*

k r.. i dun wanna cry...cried enuff yesterday until ma eyes feel swollen...wakakakakaa

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