Journals
Thursday,Oct 30 2003, 01:33:00 AMMessage: Okay, here's what you do. Copy this...
Message:
Okay, here's what you do. Copy this entirely,
and paste it into a new bulletin. Change all of
the answers so that they apply to you. The
theory is that you will learn a lot of little
facts about your friends. It is fun
and easy.
1. WHAT IS YOUR Middle name?
Ching
2. WHAT kind of PANTS ARE YOU WEARING
CERF shorts (some cheap HK thin shorts...)
3. WHAT ARE YOU LISTENING TO RIGHT NOW?
Miriam Yeung's "Hei Hak" (Rare Guest?) (played by my roommate Sally~)
4. WHAT ARE THE LAST 4 DIGITS OF YOUR PHONE?
2401/1516
5. WHAT WAS THE LAST THING YOU ATE?
Harvey's Burger...
6. IF YOU WERE A CRAYON, WHAT COLOR WOULD YOU
BE?
grey... maybe
7. HOW IS THE WEATHER RIGHT NOW?
windy, chilly
8. LAST PERSON YOU TALKED TO ON THE PHONE?
Jo~
9. THE FIRST THING YOU NOTICE ABOUT THE OPPOSITE
SEX?
face... hair... ~_~
10. DO YOU LIKE THE PERSON WHO SENT YOU THIS?
yeah!!!! >v<
11. HOW ARE YOU TODAY?
fine... dint sleep much cus of SOMEONE and then had linguistics tutorial... (dint hand in the homework but i understand what the TA said) then had Political Science lecture... as interesting as always~ ^o^ then went to the zoo with Elsie~~ observed Common Marmosets for like 1 hour... and u know what!!!
ME AND ELSIE GOT $7.75 from a VENDING MACHINE!!!! >v< cus we saw the money stuck in the vending machine... and managed to get 1 loonie, 3 Toonies and 3 Quarters out!!!! OOOooohhh YEAH!!! Hahaha... we were like SOOOO excited when we got the first few coins!!! >v<
12. FAVORITE DRINK?
too many to tell man... hm... Fruitopia Strawberry Passion awareness... hm... orange juice... milk... soyabean milk (sweet ones) etc... etc... etc gum la... :P
13. FAVORITE ALCOHOLIC DRINK?
uh... i dun drink alcohol... YUCK
14. FAVORITE SPORTS?
...does sleeping count?
15. HAIR COLOR?
Kuro desu.
16. EYE COLOR?
brown lor... typical Chinese man
17. DO YOU WEAR CONTACTS?
nah...
18. SIBLINGS AND THEIR AGES?
1 dead brother, if he had lived he would have been... maybe... 15-16 i guess;
ah and i have one very close cousin, in HK, hes now... 14-15 i think :P
19. FAVORITE MONTH?
Jan/Feb--> my bday, chinese new year=red pockets!!!and holidays... and yummy turnip cakes!!! >v<
July/Aug--> Summer holiday!!!
Sept--> school starts, i get to see my friends again! (that only happens in HK though)
20. FAVORITE FOOD?
too many...sashimi (toro), egg-plant ground beef... dunno how to say (in chinese its like... fish-aroma egg plant "Yuu-Heung-Ke-Ji")
21. LAST MOVIE YOU WATCHED?
Chocolat... JOHNNY!!!! >///<
22. FAVORITE DAY OF THE YEAR?
first day of summer holiday
23. ARE YOU TOO SHY TO ASK SOMEONE OUT?
iono... probably... it really depends... how DESPERATE i am... hehehe
24. DO YOU LIKE SCARY MOVIES OR HAPPY ENDING?
BOTH
25. SUMMER OR WINTER?
Summer la
26. HUGS OR KISSES?
urgh... iono... in any case... hugs la.
28. CHOCOLATE OR VANILLA?
USED to be choco... now... i am not sure...
29. DO YOU WANT YOUR FRIENDS TO WRITE BACK?
DUH!
30. WHO IS MOST LIKELY TO RESPOND?
no one cus i m not sending this to anyone
31. WHO IS LEAST LIKELY TO RESPOND?
......
32. WHAT BOOKS ARE YOU READING?
TEXTbooks... havent been reading a lot of other books lately... :(
33. WHAT'S ON YOUR SCREEN SAVER?
Pirates of the Caribbean: The Curse of the Black Pearl (JOHNNY!!! >o<)
34. FAVORITE BOARD GAME?
....scrabble
35. WHAT DID YOU DO LAST NIGHT?
chat... eat... watch TV...
36. FAVORITE SMELLS?
chicken soup... gong jai min (instant noodles)... perfumes - "Beautiful"
37. WHAT IS THE FIRST THING YOU THINK OF WHEN
YOU WAKE UP IN THE MORNING?
"What time is it??"
Have fun, and reply back!
Tuesday,Oct 28 2003, 10:11:00 PMok ok ok... so he asked. and i said NOT YET..
ok ok ok... so he asked. and i said NOT YET... bcos...
1) he is too far, would it work at all?
2) bcos of the distance, does it make a difference to be together or not anyways??
3) he still likes ANOTHER girl!! altho he said hes not gonna chase her but... so what... he is flower hearted... ><
4) and most importantly, i am not ready for a relationship... as i have said before... i feel sick whenever i think of going into a relationship. mentally, physically, i am uncomfortable at the mere thought of it. no. i am involuntarily escaping from relationships... i am afraid to start anything...
damn, so i said no... what can i do? i like him YES, but i just cannot make myself go into any relationship...
ANYBODY HELP!!! >o<
Monday,Oct 27 2003, 04:17:00 PMgood. now WHAT? are we in an arguement?? O_O...
good. now WHAT? are we in an arguement?? O_O i dont care, i HATE it!!
why do people not TREASURE themselves? why do they not TREASURE THEIR OWN LIVES?? damn! Damn!! DAMN!!! they are just SOOOOOOOOO StUpId!!!
if you dont treasure your life, OK. but THINK about the people who love you... your family, your friends, etc, etc... if u die, people WILL FEEL SAD! Dammit!! if u dont treasure urself for ur own sake, at least treasure ur life for THEIR SAKE!!! Dammit!!!! THEY SEEM TO NEVER THINK ABOUT THE PEOPLE WHO CARE FOR THEM AND LOVE THEM WHEN THEY ARE TALKING ABOUT SOME SELF-DEGRADING(??) STUFF...
i got SOOO angry when he was like that... DAmn! he talks about it as if its just another meal... (huh?) WHAT DIE YOUNG?? I DUN WANNA BE BY HIS SIDE IF HES GONNA DIE YOUNG!!! I DUN WANNA FEEL LIKE DYING TOO!!! but then when i think again... yes maybe i should be there if he really dies, so that i can scold the CRAP out of him and see him GO!!! >_< i so HATE it when he doesnt even understand that people actually CARE about him and just not treasure themselves!!!
AHHHH I DUNNO HOW TO SAY!!! I AM JUST
FCUKING ANGRY!!!!!
ah, and, by the way, we are NOT together!!!
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Took another test today:
| Personality Disorder Test Results
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| Eccentric Personality Disorders: Paranoid, Schizoid, Schizotypal |
Paranoid Personality Disorder - individual generally tends to interpret the actions of others as threatening.
Schizoid Personality Disorder - individual generally detached from social relationships, and shows a narrow range of emotional expression in various social settings.
Schizotypal Personality Disorder - individual is uncomfortable in close relationships, has thought or perceptual distortions, and peculiarities of behavior.
| Dramatic Personality Disorders: Antisocial, Borderline, Histrionic, and Narcissistic |
Antisocial Personality Disorder - individual shows a pervasive disregard for, and violation of, the rights of others.
Borderline Personality Disorder - individual shows a generalized pattern of instability in interpersonal relationships, self-image, and observable emotions, and significant impulsiveness.
Histrionic Personality Disorder - individual often displays excessive emotionality and attention seeking in various contexts. They tend to overreact to other people, and are often perceived as shallow and self-centered.
Narcissistic Personality Disorder - individual has a grandiose view of themselves, a need for admiration, and a lack of empathy that begins by early adulthood and is present in various situations. These individuals are very demanding in their relationships.
| Anxious Personality Disorders: Avoidant, Dependent, Obsessive-Compulsive |
Individuals with these disorders often appear anxious or fearful.
Avoidant Personality Disorder - individual is socially inhibited, feels inadequate, and is oversensitive to criticism
Dependent Personality Disorder - individual shows an extreme need to be taken care of that leads to fears of separation, and passive and clinging behavior.
Obsessive-Compulsive Personality Disorder - individual is preoccupied with orderliness, perfectionism, and control at the expense of flexibility, openness, and efficiency.
Sunday,Oct 26 2003, 06:35:00 AMThe following is an email that i got...
The following is an email that i got recently. Those of you who can read chinese, please read it.
One of my secondary school classmates is, I think, a public affairs analyst
in Hong Kong. He's emailed to me a short commentary (I'm not sure whether
it's his own or not but at least it is something which he endorses) (and
unfortunately the commentary is in Chinese only - If you have
Chinese-viewing software and still cannot see the Chinese characters, you'll
need to click on and open the file attached to the email) regarding the
clever (or improper) use of statistics by the U.S. Administration regarding
a public opinion poll in Iraq. If you've been through college or
university, you'll remember that this might make a classic example in the
book "How to Lie with Statistics".
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Pls forward the attached story to everybody so that all can understand the
truth.
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各地不少報刊日前報道了一項民意調查, 指美軍在伊拉克其實很受歡迎,
而切尼副總統也大讚這個民調澄清了不少誤解. 然而,
這只是美國當政者又一次欺騙公眾的鐵證.
筆者最先是從新保守派大本營美國企業學院(AEI)獲得有關的「好消息」.
這是AEI委托調查公司Zogby International在伊拉克各地進行的民調, 不過,
AEI沒有發表民調細節, 只是綜合介紹一些數據.
切尼接受NBC電視台訪問時說, 「若你問他們(伊拉克人)喜歡哪種政府模式,
有五個答案揀選, 結果美國模式勝出, 若你問他們想美國人留在該國多久,
超過6成受訪者表示他們想美國人至少留多一年.」
七成半伊民不喜美政制(小題)
民調每每有傾向性. 例如, 喜歡哪種政府模式的問題便很取巧,
五個供選擇的模式包括美國式、沙特阿拉伯式、敘利亞式、埃及式和上述以外的模式.
在大多數人眼中, 上述三個阿拉伯國家的政治模式都是「官大民小」,
因此理應有較多人如切尼所說會選擇美國模式,
但錯了, 原來最多人選的是「上述以外的模式」(佔被訪者的37%),
其他依次的得票率是美國式(23%)、沙特式(17.5%)、敘利亞式(12%)和埃及式(7%).
正確的結論是, 「超過七成半的伊拉克人不喜歡美國政治模式」.
美軍在伊拉克很受歡迎? 民調問題是, 你希望美英部隊留在伊拉克多久,
半年、一年、兩年. 結果, 31.5%選擇半年, 34%選擇一年, 25%選擇兩年.
正確的結論應該是「超過六成半伊拉克人不希望美英部隊留駐超過一年」.
就這個民調, 切尼和AEI沒有提到的問題及答案有很多, 因為不利於美方. 例如,
美國幫助還是傷害伊拉克. 50%答傷害, 35.5%答幫助. 美軍對伊拉克人好嗎?
55%答不好, 20%答好. 如何形容襲擊美軍的人? 49%稱他們為抵抗份子,
只有29%指為復興党死硬派.
美國主流傳媒不求甚解, 牙牙學語協助宣傳切尼和AEI的廢話,
但改變不了大多數伊拉克人不滿被佔領的事實.
醒一醒:「若果美國當政者繼續扭曲事實為自己的政策開脫,
他們只會進一步泥足深陷.」(阿拉伯美國學院總裁James Zogby博士指出)
Saturday,Oct 25 2003, 01:04:00 AMwhat? what?? what is happening??? he doesnt...
what? what?? what is happening??? he doesnt seem to want to talk to me anymore these few days... why? why?? is it because my atitude was bad? because i seem to have no interest in talking to him? because i went to watch TV (Johnny Depp in Chocolat and Ninth Gate) and not talk to him?? is it??? oh damn why...
damn if its me then sorry... but if its not... then iono...
if its me then i deserve it... but no matter it is me or not... i feel so bad! i just went online and he went off! i mean he talked to me for like 2 mins and then went off! what does that mean?? i wanna cry... >.< i dun wanna cry, my senses told me that there is NO REASON at all to cry for whatever... but emotionally its just depressing...... damn it... i should have turned all my feelings off but... damn stupid me!! GUH!!!
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ah, just visited jc's xanga... he got an interesting test up there, so i tried for mahself ^^
| Conscious self | Overall self |
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| Enneagram Test Results
Your Unconscious-Overall type is 6w5 |
Intuitive (N) 54.29% Sensing (S) 45.71%
Thinking (T) 52.78% Feeling (F) 47.22%
Perceiving (P) 58.14% Judging (J) 41.86%
| INTP - "Architect". Greatest precision in thought and language. Can readily discern contradictions and inconsistencies. The world exists primarily to be understood. 3.3% of total population. |
The Big Five is currently the most accepted personality model in the scientific community. The Big Five emerged from the work of multiple independent scientists/researchers starting in the 1950s who using different techniques obtained similar results. Those results were that there are five distinct personality traits/dimensions. Here are your results on each dimension:
Extroversion results were moderately low which suggests you are quiet, unassertive, and aloof.
Friendliness results were moderately high which suggests you are good natured, trusting, and helpful but possibly too much of a follower
Orderliness results were very low which suggests you tend to be very unreliable, lazy, careless, and unmotivated.
Emotional Stability results were medium which suggests you are moderately worrying, insecure, emotional, and nervous.
Intellectualness results were very high which suggests you are very creative, original, curious, imaginative but possibly not very practical.
Overall, you scored highest on Intellectualness and lowest on Orderliness.
| The Big Five Personality Test |
| Extroverted | |||||||||| | 40% |
| Introverted | |||||||||||||| | 60% |
| Friendly | |||||||||||||||| | 66% |
| Aggressive | |||||||||| | 34% |
| Orderly | |||||| | 30% |
| Disorderly | |||||||||||||||| | 70% |
| Relaxed | |||||||||||||| | 54% |
| Emotional | |||||||||||| | 46% |
| Intellectual | |||||||||||||||| | 70% |
| Practical | |||||| | 30% |