Monday,May 31 2004, 08:30:00 AMMore oe-doodle~~ >v< [IMAGE] and this... 'tar

More oe-doodle~~ >v<

and this... 'tarted >v<

and then

Saturday,May 29 2004, 05:34:00 AMCRAP i drew at ochiba.net's doodle board......

CRAP i drew at ochiba.net's doodle board... i suck... touch-pad sux too...
yeh, this is how that B_ST_RD Uchiha Itachi is gonna DIE!!!!!

SHI-NE!!!

my msn nick:
ITACHI [you] BASTARD!!! HENTAI!!! I m gonna
CHOP YOUR HEAD OFF and MINCE it with UCHIHA soy sauce
and EAT it as a side dish for SAKE!


then another one


and AND this >v<


GUESS a word LOL

Friday,May 28 2004, 10:43:08 AMAnother Zorpia-only Special!! NEW album is...

Another Zorpia-only Special!!

NEW album is up! But!! Please be warned that this album contains
NUDE male bodies, frontals, backs, and depicts
HOMOSEXUAL activities. Please REFRAIN from looking at this
if you could not accept those kind of stuff, or dont accuse me
of mental pollution =P

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*phew*

it was such a pain looking for those photos...

but i had to do it because i said i would!! and HERE it is!!

CUS THERE ARE JUST TOO MANY FEMALE PORN/NUDE PIX OUT
THERE!! I THINK WE NEED SOME MALE NUDE! MALE PORN!!
COME ON GIMME SOME GAY ACTION!!!!! >v<

yeh going nuts again... ENJOY!!!!! HEH HEH HEH~~~~~~

Thursday,May 27 2004, 12:45:00 PMok.. i m starting to like Gaara more n more...

ok.. i m starting to like Gaara more n more now... =P hehe, esp when he
saved Lee against Kimimaro... =) but... isnt his ultimate shield looking a
bit........ -_-;;;;;;
 <-- his shield...?? O_o

and... Full Metal Alchemist! i m still on chapter 11, so slow.. =P
but in the first few chapters, when i saw ed n al fight, i was like...
wut, this is so like ninjas, hving walls poping up from the ground
out of nowhere or changing this object's shape into another... etc...

but, of course, they are different. =P

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was reading some McDull stuff... modern interpretation of the confucius
teachings? really like it... k lemme TRY translating one with my really
REALLY Crappy translation skills.. lol

http://www.fortunecity.com/millennium/sesame/474/confucius/confucius06.htm

original

子曰：「學而不思則罔，思而不學則殆。」
Confucius said, "Learning without contemplation confuses you;
Thinking without learning puts you in danger."

*學 = learn, generally means acquisition of knowledge;
  思 = think, ponder; conceive, contemplate;
  殆 = has a meaning related to "danger/dangerous"*

explained in simpler words:

孔子說：「學習不思考則迷惘，思考而不學習則危殆。」
Confucius said, "If you learn but do not think you will be confused,
if you think but do not learn you are in danger."

and in the author's words:

如果你只會學習而不問，你最終只會得到一張證書，一些教條，
還有一堆很快便會忘記的死知識。你的腦袋成為了你死記標準答
案的工具，成為了你入小學、入中學、入大學的工具。你也許會
得到一份入息不錯的職業，成為社會大機器的一個零件。出糧那
天你笑口吟吟，到周刊推介的酒店吃自助餐吃餐勁。回家後你飯
氣攻心，於是攤死在沙發上成為一個電視觀眾等眼�埏恅惜S一天。
但電視機壞了，不過一刻的寧靜，你已感到空虛難耐。你忽然甚麼
也不是，你的腦袋和你自己，原來不是屬於你的，它們不過是別人
的工具……還好，你還有一個很飽的肚腩！

If you only learn and ask no questions, all you get in the end is only a
certificate, some meaningless definitions, and a bunch of useless knowledge
that would be forgotten in no time. Your brain would be reduced to a tool for
you to memorize model answers, an instrument to help you do well in school
and graduate university. You'd probably get a nice job with moderate income,
and become a trivial part in the totality of the machine called "society."
You'd be happy on the days you get your salary, and go to the all you can eat
restaurant advertised in a magazine. When you're all full you head home and
lay flat on the sofa watching TV till you're sleepy... and that makes your day.
But when the TV doesn't work, the emptiness in you makes you realize that
you could't even stand that one moment of silence. Suddenly you are nothing;
your mind and yourself, nothing belongs to you; they are all just tools in other
people's hands.... Fortunately, you still have a full stomach!

[yeh, forgive my crappy translations. hope u get the meaning]

Tuesday,May 25 2004, 09:03:00 PMWAHHH finally got my internet connection...

WAHHH finally got my internet connection back.
i was so bored these few days... =_=

the following is what i wrote in these few days:

黃色花花之 ICQ 日 (22^nd May, 2004)

 

唉唉。。。無得上網好悶呀。。。我的互聯網絡由星期五開始唔
WORK﹐現在是星期六晚了。。。 希望這不是學校因為查出我下
載不法媒體而顧意截斷我的網絡吧。。。 (他們沒有這麼神通廣大
吧。。。﹖﹖) 應該不會的吧。。。 全世界又不是只有我一個做這
種事。。。

 

唉。。。 網絡緩助又要星期一才有人。。。
呀呀呀呀呀我快瘋了啦呀呀呀呀呀!!!!!

雙下巴 is developing… 之日 (23/24^th May, 2004) -- 悼死加慶生之日
(仍然是黃色的 ICQ花花)

 

好不容易﹐我終於終於﹐有一種覺得自己是正常人的感覺。覺得跟
大家一樣的感覺﹔覺得……自己並不是異類的感覺……

 

實在是太好了。

 

不知是從哪時開始的﹐也許是小學六年級前後吧﹐也許…是頭髮的
關係﹐也許是同學的關係﹐也許是老師的關係﹐亦也許…是自己的
關係…總之﹐總是覺得自己跟班上的大部分人格格不入…分組時…
也總是剩下的一個而要與另外剩下的那個粗魯又不友善﹐聲大夾
惡﹐“惡死能登”的人一組。(u know who? LOL)

 

是因為我的頭髮難看嗎﹖

是因為我跟全班都討厭的人正常地談話嗎﹖

是因為在班主任發起的投票活動中被選為“最不負責任的人”嗎﹖

(啊啊﹐那些人明白責任是甚麼嗎﹖有證據嗎﹖﹖﹗﹗)

還是﹐因為我是真的不負責任﹗﹗﹗真的是我的問題的話﹐就告訴
我﹗﹗﹗

 

唉唉﹐上了中一的時候﹐終於有人可憐了﹐和我同組了…和我做朋
友了…和我通信了…呀呀不過呀這個時候﹐卻開始有奇怪的心情﹐
奇怪的佔有慾﹐奇怪的不安﹐奇怪的嫉妒之心…還有奇怪的人死纏
爛打﹗﹗﹗﹗

 

然後﹐仍然是頭髮的事吧﹖頭髮﹐人﹐和班裡某些人的不友善﹐和
班類某些友善支持的消逝(不是死了﹐別胡思亂想)……然後就總是
只有自己﹐然後異類就只是自己。即使分組時和我一組﹐也不是因
為和我是朋友。只不過是因為我會畫點畫﹐只不過我不算笨﹐只不
過我是無害的﹐有時要湊夠人數的話﹐我還算不上是最壞的選擇。

這些我知道﹐全部都知道﹐全部都是在那個曾經是我最好的朋友所
在的班裡發生的﹔我知道我不應該期望她會幫我﹐我知道我早已甚
麼都不是﹐我知道自己沒資格要她幫我……但心裡還是禁不住的在
求救﹐在希望著她會再次“和我在一起” ﹐希望一切會再像“以
前”那樣……但那是不可能的……即使她“幫我” ﹐我也……

 

(嗯﹐只不過我還是沒想過自己會被赤裸裸的遺棄的吧﹔那天﹐連
平時沒組的人也和她一組了﹐那天﹐是大部分同學正式上學的最後
一天了﹐但分組時落單的人還是我…幸好﹐是只有我吧﹐平時會落
單的人…平時和我一起落單的人﹐也已經和她們一組﹗呀呀~ 實在
是很實在的一天﹐謝謝妳樣我認清自己的處境﹗到中五了仍然要老
師給我分組﹗到中五最後一天了我還是要被人可憐才會有組﹗那些
組…要不是老師硬是要分﹐要不是學科上的須要…我才不要和那些
人一組…﹗)

 

那時﹐仍然是不喜歡看到鏡中的自己。

 

中六時﹐一切令人開心或不開心的人都不在了……剩下來的人﹐也
已經無關重要了﹔頭髮﹐也不再由母親經手了﹔行動上﹐也自由很
多 ^_^ 也做了 SCHOOL PREFECT﹐有要做的事 ^_^ 我感到自己好
像終於是有點自在地活著的人﹐也好像我終於都正式地是個“有關
係的人”。(嗯﹐不明白嗎﹖算了吧。) 所以……在中途離去也不要
緊了﹐在一切都還算美好時就(逃)離去吧﹐我才不要考那個殺死人
的試呢﹗嘿 ﹕P

 

然後然後﹐在溫哥華時﹐我終--於--都覺得自己是個平常人了。上
的是不是特別優秀的地方中學﹐而且是正常的男女校(呀哈哈哈
哈﹗終於能上男女校了﹗﹗) 有一大班好朋友﹗﹗﹗班上的大家也
很友善﹔也有自己擅長的科目(要是那種水平的中文也不擅長的話
我真的對不起所有中文老師了)﹐又可以和朋友們一起參加喜歡的
課外活動﹐又有去同學家裡做ASSIGNMENT﹐又可和大家一起逛
街﹐看戲﹐打網球﹐開派對﹐慶祝聖誕﹐新年和生日﹗﹗

 

我終於終於﹐都不是異類了﹔我終於……有一個大家都會歡迎我回
去的地方﹔終於都…“正常”了……

 

太好了……

 

我終於都…獲得生命了。

24^th May, 2004

 

after reading full metal alchemist book 2…

-         at least I wouldn’t be called a SHRIMP or a MIDGET when I am
only around 155 cm… hehehe… cus I am a girl… >v< yahahahaha

-         yes Al is funny… hahaha I like him… :P well Ed too!! >v<

-         and the way to live a long life… BE WICKED!!!
HAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!

 

25^th May, 2004

 

my bananas hv been going bad quickly… so quickly…

I bought them maybe less than a week ago? I left them on the table for only 2
to 3 days n they r already turning black… but since yesterday I saw the last
one which was 80% black, its still 80% black now…

 

I wonder… whats a day like for bananas? For the first few days they are like
brand new but turn black in just a day; now that they r already black, they
dun change (externally) anymore no matter how many days they are left
there…

One day, two days, doesn’t really matter… time… does it matter to them?
Do they know that “ah, its time to turn black!” or “oh well doesn’t matter I’ll
just stay black till I rot” like that?

 

How about onions? Milk? Strawberries?……

 

Hmm… weird thoughts.

 

Well I guess the concept of time, of days n hours n minutes… only matter to
humans…?