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Friday,Oct 22 2004, 09:49:00 AMtoday i am going to type out what i wrote on...
today i am going to type out what i wrote on paper around a year ago...
time sure flies... uhm... oh and, i will be writing in simplified chinese, just
lazy to open njstar to type traditional chinese...
maybe i should put this as private... ah but who cares, i'd prolly forget it
if i put it as private... ~__~ n no one really cares what i say, so =P
the following paragraphs reflects my stupid mind during... or... erm,
iono, when i still liked wayne? heh... ~__~
26th Dec, 2003
...... ...... , ......
...... DzĶȷ, ΪξѰװ׳ճյ?
ȻΪӦ, ʵڲִ
α; ңΪΪ²һʵ, ......
Щ.
Damn, һ˵ʱʲô벻, 벻... >x<
28th Dec, 2003
This is one big big big Big BIG BIG BIG stupidity of MINE!!!! Gosh...
ϲ, ȣףҲңҸͲӦ
ӦӦģߣand he TOTALLY took
advantage of that... oh gosh... Ϊθ˵ϲʵ
Dzͬģϲ˵һ·ѧʱϲң
Ǵһ·ѧʱ֪ҵĴڰɣУ
Ļѻ⣬dzԣƴΪ
ѹ˵İɣֻߣֻDz뱻
suiˣ룮
I don't know, I don't know >_< I do not know him well enough to have an
accurate guess... whatever I assume would be unfair to him... :( but but but...
if he is trying to be "nice" or "kind" to me... ultimately, it would just become
some kind of selfish "nice"-ness (of course it is selfish if I am not REALLY
the one he likes), or short-term concern, ʹһΪΪ likes
me "too" һҳʵû feel ֮ʱֻ
ܡҪû feel Ļֱ˵磡
֮ "mercy" orңor "nice" ĻǷdz֮
õģ˵ҲDzҪģֻΪ a waste of my
time, that also means a waste of his own PRECIOUS Time!!!
Ҫı
Anyways, ˵˵ƫ˺
ţǸʹѾ Jo ˵ϲ
ϲңȻ˵˻᳢ԣֻϲңҲ
ô˵ҲܸлҲĻ᳢ԣ
... ...
Ҳ, ȷʵг......
Ҳ, Ǹĵ......
, һ˵ feelings, ϲһ˵, Dz˵ͱ,
˿Ƶ...... Ҳһ˵ĿԱ˿.....
, I do not deserve it at all. I have done nothing, not a BIT, to deserve
whatever he does for me. , ʲôĻ.
ʵ, Ǹ "sweet" ("ѿ" 
), ֻҲ֪ж
percent ʵǼٵ; Ҳ֪Ϊʱͻ
ҲҪ lie...
Һѹ... ᱻƭ..... 
my friend lied to me about
such a thing... why did he have to loe about that? That's not even offensive
or anything :'(
, ʲô, ¶, , IF we are gonna have a
relationship, һᾡ give him as much as I can... but... ƺDz
......
1st Jan, 2004
ѽѽѽѽ~~ ~!!! ǰҲΪѹȻ
ȴҶѾû feelˣߣ
أһֱڵĵ飮ǣI will lose my
feelings for him easily, shortly...
ҲѾˣ>_< Argh ɶô
Tuesday,Oct 19 2004, 11:07:00 PMahh... rare rare... i actually had dreams...
ahh... rare rare... i actually had dreams last night... i mean this morning...
i missed poli-sci class cus i was too sleepy and slept in... :( too bad... i
like that class a lot actually... :( and then i was lazy to go to the tutorial
too, i just went on sleeping.... so ya that's the background of my sleep +
dreams... =P
so during that time i think i had 2 dreams or so... first i dreamt that i was
with paul (why paul... i dont know O_o) we were in the same flat for
some reason, i dunno why... either we live in the same flat or i went visit
him... n we were hving supper, n he was lecturing me on my laziness n
stuff... -__-;;;; naze! =__= n i pretended to be listening n repenting but
in fact i dint feel anything at all... ~___~ bad even in my dreams =___=
then there was another part to this dream... i dreamt of... sunny places,
trains, dawn, past classmates... i dont remember the sequence, but there
was a moment where i was supposed to be the groupmate of some
classmate, but then something happened so i became the groupmate of
dawn or sth like that... n in the dream she was happy that im her group-
mate... n the other person seemed to want me as her groupmate too but
since im with dawn she's like "ok if my groupmate doesnt appear give
her back to me" =P ah... i was actually normal in my dream... how sad.
in the dream there was also a part where i went onto a train with sandy
yip, i dunno why or where or what i was doing/going, but i remembered
looking for a seat with sunshine... and also when i was with dawn, we
were looking for a study place with sunshine... outdoors... wooden
tables... ah... why? how weird...
then i also remember in another part of a dream i was making scrambled
egg for a kid... n his mom was there... argh... wudda hell was that about??!!
Friday,Oct 8 2004, 10:45:00 AM[IMAGE] whoa~ a pic on the main board,...
whoa~ a pic on the main board, finally!! ^__^
this is a mermaid... named "kekoya" by my roommate~
why blue skin? dunno ~_~ i know the bg doesnt look like
a sea at all... n the fishes are... 2D.. =P the hair is not 3D
enough too... but i tried~~ n kinda like it ^^
ah, the pillows is good... One Life, Last Dinosaur, Carnival,
PATRICIA, Thank you My Twilight, Instant Music, and
Ride On Shooting Star are SUPERB....!!! go get'em! XD
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Monday,Oct 4 2004, 10:00:00 AMThree more uninspiring, non-creative doodles.
Three more uninspiring, non-creative doodles... ~__~
i spent a few hours on this... kinda like how the sweater looks but is
still ecky in general...
my roommate dee helped me a bit with the chin... which looks fine now
but it was a bit too pointy before... =P thx dee!! ^o^
this... is kind of the most satisfying pic of the day altho its not really
that good anyways... the hair n face looks 2D while i used watercolour
for the cloak and bg... they dont go well together ~__~