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justagurl23's Homepage http://www.zorpia.com/justagurl23 Wed, 06 Jan 2010 13:50 EST Wed, 06 Jan 2010 13:50 EST Zorpia.com AWOL http://www.zorpia.com/justagurl23/journal/1854557 you  just went AWOLwithout any words so is that it?we didnt even started and it ended with just silencestop and think is he even worth it? if he isnt..then why does it hurt so much?so long final flinggoodbye sweet summer.. Personal http://www.zorpia.com/justagurl23/journal/1854557 Wed, 12 Nov 2008 17:34 EST you are my vitamin http://www.zorpia.com/justagurl23/journal/1850764 well it was just a joke.you are my vitamin until i overdosedsleepless nights and troubled mindi m trying to bridge a connectionbut you seem so hard to open upyou have been wounded and now you just dont want to get into a relationshipi knowi guess everyone of us is looking for something that is good for usbut most of us dont get what we wantof all the good times togetherand you asked me to stay longerwhat does that suppose to mean? did i not get a clue? or u just dont want me as a part of your life?well i guess thats just it..lets just let it be..washed away..fading memories..i will miss you..definitely..   Personal http://www.zorpia.com/justagurl23/journal/1850764 Fri, 31 Oct 2008 11:35 EST delayed devotion http://www.zorpia.com/justagurl23/journal/1836422 It seems you wanna give me Oh, a life time of security Down on your dying knees I watch you, babe, I watch you plead But your words come much too late My love for you has turned to hate 'Cause you've taken too much time To show me that you're mine When I drop you boy You'll need another toy One that won't stand up for herself When I knock you down You'll need another town Where somebody's gonna talk to you You just let me wait Now it's too late For your delayed, delayed devotion You try to convince me Oh, about the possibilities But I know that all your poetry Just comes from insecurity 'Cause your actions speak nothing no more When it's what I've been waiting for 'Cause you've taken too much time To show me that you're mine When I drop you boy You'll need another toy One that won't stand up for herself When I knock you down You'll need another town Where somebody's gonna talk to you 'Cause you just let me wait Now it's too late For your delayed devotion You played me for a fool for too long Blinded by your lies I never saw your all I'm no longer under your spell Hear it in a song You can go to Hell When I drop you boy You'll need another toy One that won't stand up for herself When I knock you down You'll need another town Where somebody's gonna talk to you You just let me wait And now its too late For your delayed, delayed emotion  duffy-delayed devotion Personal http://www.zorpia.com/justagurl23/journal/1836422 Sat, 13 Sep 2008 22:49 EST this is a wtf confession http://www.zorpia.com/justagurl23/journal/1834610 time has passed bythings hasnt change muchonly the time and spacethe characters are still the sameoh how do single sided love survive after so long a time?i see it everydaywe call them foolshypocritically but i m one myselfundeniably foolishand hurt insideits a repeated cyclethe story is the sameonly repeated over and over againwith different character, space and timeits a fugging hateful feelinganxious and filled with angeri wanna break free from this Personal http://www.zorpia.com/justagurl23/journal/1834610 Sun, 07 Sep 2008 01:45 EST wait..and please stay by Elisa http://www.zorpia.com/justagurl23/journal/1830315 You did not dare say a single word I did not dare ask for something more Iâ€™ve kept my questions secret deep inside But I wish I could have let you know about A time when I would have said Wait, and please stay Did you mean to push me away? Please wait and just stay Did you want it to be this way? Would you want to know what I've been through? (Through all this time... all this time) Would you want to know I have missed you too (And I have you on my mind) And you've been and you will be a part of me (That I can't find) And you've been forgiven for your silence All this time when I would have said Wait, and please stay Did you mean to push me away? Please wait and just say Is there a way that could replace The times you never said How've you been? Do you need anything? Want you to know I'm here? Want you to feel me near? Yeah...and I hope I hope that you will find your way Yeah...and I hope I hope there will be better days Please wait, and just stay (Please stay) Did you mean to push me away? Please wait, and just stay (Wait, just stay) Did you want it to be this way? Wait, please say (Yeah, and I hope) I hope that you will find your way Please wait, and just stay (Wait, and I hope) I hope there will be better days Hey hey... Wait Please stay Just stay Please wait wait and please stay by Elisataken from http://www.sing365.com Personal http://www.zorpia.com/justagurl23/journal/1830315 Thu, 21 Aug 2008 05:56 EST Save You by Matthew Perryman http://www.zorpia.com/justagurl23/journal/1827094 I wanna rock-n-roll I wanna give my soul I'm wanting to belielve I'm not too old Don't want to make it up Don't want to let you down I want to fly away But i'm stuck on the ground So, help me decide Help me to make up Make up my mind Wouldn't that save you Wouldn't that save you Wouldn't that save you Watched it all go by Was it really true Is that what it was? Was that really you? I'm looking back again Tracing back the threads You said i was a mess Or was it just in my head So, help me decide Help me to make up Make up my mind Wouldn't that save you Wouldn't that save you Wouldn't that save you (2x) Something's gotta break You gotta swing the bat Too many years of dying Why is that? So, help me decide Help me to make up Make up my mind Wouldn't that save you Wouldn't that save you Wouldn't that save you (3x)taken from http://www.lyricstime.com Personal http://www.zorpia.com/justagurl23/journal/1827094 Sat, 09 Aug 2008 10:38 EST not gonna write u a love song http://www.zorpia.com/justagurl23/journal/1823227 "Love Song" Head under water And you tell me to breathe easy for a while The breathing gets harder, even I know that Made room for me but it's too soon to see If I'm happy in your hands I'm unusually hard to hold on to Blank stares at blank pages No easy way to say this You mean well, but you make this hard on me I'm not gonna write you a love song 'cause you asked for it 'cause you need one, you see I'm not gonna write you a love song 'cause you tell me it's Make or break in this If you're on your way I'm not gonna write you to stay If all you have is leaving I'm gonna need a better Reason to write you a love song today I learned the hard way That they all say things you want to hear And my heavy heart sinks deep down under you and Your twisted words, Your help just hurts You are not what I thought you were Hello to high and dry Convinced me to please you Made me think that I need this too I'm trying to let you hear me as I am I'm not gonna write you a love song 'cause you asked for it 'cause you need one, you see I'm not gonna write you a love song 'cause you tell me it's Make or break in this If you're on your way I'm not gonna write you to stay If all you have is leaving I'm gonna need a better Reason to write you a love song today Promise me that you'll leave the light on To help me see with daylight, my guide, gone 'cause I believe there's a way you can love me Because I say I won't write you a love song 'cause you asked for it 'cause you need one, you see I'm not gonna write you a love song 'cause you tell me it's make or break in this Is that why you wanted a love song 'cause you asked for it 'cause you need one, you see I'm not gonna write you a love song 'cause you tell me it's make or break in this If you're on your way I'm not gonna write you to stay If your heart is nowhere in it I don't want it for a minute Babe, I'll walk the seven seas when I believe that There's a reason to Write you a love song todayby sara bareilles- love song taken from www.azlyrics.com Personal http://www.zorpia.com/justagurl23/journal/1823227 Fri, 25 Jul 2008 08:16 EST your are my first bad habit http://www.zorpia.com/justagurl23/journal/1818417 Turn It Off, Turn It On Left The Vibrate On Your Phone Call Me Up, Wanna Talk Then You Freeze Me. It's The Same When You're Gone, Keep Me Guessing What You Want, But My Heart Says It's You Who Can Please Me. I Get Pushed To Extremes, And I Should Know What It Means, But I Can't Bear The Game, To Be Over. When You're Moves Never Change, Only Got Myself To Blame, Cause I Fall For It Over And Over. [CHORUS:] You're Like My First Bad Habit I Can't Live Without It, I Can't Give You Up, Give You Up, And Even Though You're Trouble I Come Back For Double, I Can't Say Enough Is Enough. I'm A Part Of You, You're A Part Of Me, And Your Love Is Wrong But I Can't Get Free. You're Like My First Bad Habit How Am I Gonna Give You Up. You're The Worse, You're The Best, Something Different From The Rest, It's A Fact, Seeing You's Never Easy. Like My Style, Hate My Friends, Oh, The Conflict Never Ends, How Much Worse Can It Get When You Tease Me. I Don't Know, I Don't Know, I Don't Know, I Don't Know, The Way We Go Around, Can't Put My First Bad Habit Down. I Don't Know, I Don't Know, I Don't Know, I Don't Know, The Way We Go Around, I Just Can't Give You Up. [CHORUS:] You're Like My First Bad Habit I Can't Live Without It, I Can't Give You Up, Give You Up, And Even Though You're Trouble I Come Back For Double, I Can't Say Enough Is Enough. I'm A Part Of You, You're A Part Of Me, And Your Love Is Wrong But I Can't Get Free. You're Like My First Bad Habit How Am I Gonna Give You Up. Turn It Off, Turn It On, Off Off, On On, Keep Me Guessing What You Want, Guess I'm Guessing What You Want. Turn It Off, Turn It On, Off Off, On On, Keep Me Guessing What You Want, Guess I'm Guessing What You Want. [CHORUS:] You're Like My First Bad Habit I Can't Live Without It, I Can't Give You Up, Give You Up, And Even Though You're Trouble I Come Back For Double, I Can't Say Enough Is Enough. I'm A Part Of You, You're A Part Of Me, And Your Love Is Wrong But I Can't Get Free. You're Like My First Bad Habit How Am I Gonna Give You Up. Artist: Vanessa Hudgens Album: Identified Label: Hollywood Records Copyright: (C) 2008 Hollywood Records, Inc. lolz...this song is good. bitchy a bit. but in a good way. totally talking about bad boys. yea..thats what i felt when i chased a bad guy. well..not exactly bad but he tried to play hard to get. so in the end he became the bad boy.my bad boy. =)    Personal http://www.zorpia.com/justagurl23/journal/1818417 Sun, 06 Jul 2008 05:05 EST addicted to A**holes http://www.zorpia.com/justagurl23/journal/1814224 hmm..can you blame the media? for impersonating characters with personalities that we so admire?bad boys. and yes..i love Chuck Bass in Gossip Girl. and yes. i love what they would call it. assholes. jerks. well..bad boys.i m addicted to assholes. us girls...are most definitely attracted to bad boys...why is that so? they are mean, bad and no good at all. why oh why? for the simple fact. that we love the chase of the game. well..everyone loves it. cant deny it. cant you? and good guys...they are just well..too nice..and always there for us..thats the problem...its just human nature to explore something that is foreign to us. we are so bored with life that we want some excitement in our life. and bad guys..they provide the excitement in life that we can never experience. they convince us that we are important, perfected our flaws, increase our confidence, make us feel like a queen. yea..if they ignore us more, we get even addicted to it. they are like our love drug. its their charm that faint our heart,  make us crave for more.. well..the chase is fun..until..you felt deeper into it..and you lose out in the end. it felt like loosing control of your car...and crashing down the hill..why us girls need men to tell us or define us as who we are? Girls! Stand proud! and be confident about yourself! Personal http://www.zorpia.com/justagurl23/journal/1814224 Thu, 19 Jun 2008 08:48 EST you shudnt have made me wait http://www.zorpia.com/justagurl23/journal/1800430 you shouldn't have made me wait You shouldn't have made me wait at Breakdown Motel You shouldn't have made me wait You shouldn't have left me by myself You managed to knock me out But I promise you, babe, I will come round One day you were near me, but not for long And the strange has sweet become We can't hold on to the things we love So don't hold on So you can fly to the moon above To find something new When you're back in this atmosphere You can't help being blue, you You shouldn't have made me wait You shouldn't have made me wait at Breakdown Motel You shouldn't have made me wait You shouldn't have let me scare myself You managed to knock me out But I promise you, babe, I will come round So you can go anywhere you want But it won't lead nowhere It's always strange when I check out up here And you're not there You shouldn't have made me wait You shouldn't have made me wait at Breakdown Motel You shouldn't have made me wait You shouldn't have left me by myself You shouldn't have made me wait You shouldn't have made me wait at Breakdown Motel You shouldn't have made me wait You shouldn't have let me scare myself You managed to knock me out But I promise you, babe, I will come round breakdown motel by mutya buena   Personal http://www.zorpia.com/justagurl23/journal/1800430 Sun, 04 May 2008 07:55 EST missing out http://www.zorpia.com/justagurl23/journal/1800159 do you know how it feels liketo miss your conversation with your friendsto miss the get togetherstheir stupid jokes..their expression when something excites themthe familiarity of interest that we sharethe same old jokes we will laugh about    do you know that i dreamt of how it used to be?just me and u?and the empty old houseand especially uwe shared a bedroomwe laugh together ...eat together..go shopping together..when i wake up in the morning u r just not..there...i remember our first encounter of embarassment..u got that from me a lot from your expressionwhen i told u how i had a crush on someone in class..and me..blabbing on and on..about stuff u wouldnt want to know...  we missed our time..our chances.. if i could turn back time..i would have made it clear with u..and u wouldnt even need to tell me..coz we has always been..together..u wouldnt need to tell me anythingcoz i already understand..friends cant be lovers i knowbut that daywhen they saw us together..we pretended to be lovers.. i so wished that we are..the feelings right..and u r mine.. but u just cant tell me that u felt something too? cant u?haiz..distances has departed us.. conversation is dead..this is killing me..the distance.. the silences...the sad songs..i m a living dead person.. Personal http://www.zorpia.com/justagurl23/journal/1800159 Sat, 03 May 2008 09:38 EST you gave me a reason to live: http://www.zorpia.com/justagurl23/journal/1794877 hot guys, u rock!you gave me a reason to come to class...XOXOjustagurl  Personal http://www.zorpia.com/justagurl23/journal/1794877 Thu, 17 Apr 2008 08:24 EST first chapter: the balloon flys up in the sky... http://www.zorpia.com/justagurl23/journal/1793457 looked at the clock..it says 5 p.m. , i wonder where is my assistant..bumper i need to rush the report for tomorrow's presentation to the client..oh i really need the report.." hey....have you seen XXX?"  "she has already left the building." he saidQuotation on Cashmere Mafia the Generation Y, described in Cashmere Mafia as a wild, fun, young, and beautiful ,woman in their 20's to be irresponsible, able to get what they want because of their attractiveness to lure the male colleagues and they will give their every attention that she seeks...the Generation Y, feared by all the companies..to hire a new employee.. well..thats New York.. compare your cousins in their 30's and compare with us..the 20's...there is so much of a differences.. My auntie actually compare me with her daughter, she once said, " you know, when SY is at 16, she can cook for the whole family.." her comments disturbed me and shoot me in my ego without any defense and i have no words to reply with a comeback.it strike me to perhaps try to change myself to become like them. organized, independent, and has a steady job.. bleh.....do we really have to change to adapt to the society?when i came over here, i learned to cook for myself, then i realise, only in a forced surrounding without any help, that a person can adapt to the surroundings to survive or just giving up. Its either do or die. Many has failed to survive, and those that made it ...will realise that what they said is true, " nobody said it was easy, but they promised, that in the end, all the hard work will be all worth it" I saw my seniors put their hard work in, and in the end they soar high up in the sky like an eagle, how i wish i could be like them...and with this..i think it serves to me as a motivation, of all the distractions surrounding me to spoil my plans. it has been two months now, its either learn to live with it..or ...die without any sympathy given..been trying to fit in the Australian context...hopefully everything goes well..the holidays has ended and class starting by tomorrow... oh gosh....i am still trying to finish the report..sigh..i m so sleepy...cant wake up so early..at 9 a.m...... blame it all on the long holidays..and waking up late in the late afternoons...   Personal http://www.zorpia.com/justagurl23/journal/1793457 Sun, 13 Apr 2008 06:35 EST emo/self resurrection day http://www.zorpia.com/justagurl23/journal/1792230 Stay for a moment like this, You donâ€™t see what it had done to me That I canâ€™t stand if you nail your sight That freezes my body It happened before and I canâ€™t speak Maybe you think that Iâ€™m crazy and And it is a bit true, I have to accept But if I donâ€™t explain to you What I feel inside You wonâ€™t understand When you see me crying Iâ€™ve never felt so alone like yesterday So fast, I understood while I was quiet Life shouted and told me that I never had you and I never lost you And it explained to me that love is a thing That comes very fast Naturally Full of smoke If you force it, it will go without having its beginning, it arrives to its final Now maybe you can understand that If you touch me, my skin will burn Now maybe you can understand And you wonâ€™t return if you donâ€™t want to see I cry for you I cry without you, and that now I understood That youâ€™re not for me And I cryEnglish translation of Que Lloro song by Sin Banderas which i asked my friend to translate it for me...its a really nice spanish song..and i cry...but no tears come down.. " u still like him?" Y " yea..i think so.." "you shud totally forget about that guy!" Y" you think? i was so tempted to msg him the other day he was online.." J" do you think i shud msg him? it says he is busy.." J" yea..just say hi as a friend la.." Y" dont wan la..later he think i m desperate.." J" oh ok...." Y few days later... " hey Y...i think i finally can let him go...." J " oh ..thats good.." Y "thank goodness...i thought u will never forget about him" Y "yea..i thought i couldnt..until one day...i thought how meaningless it was waiting for a guy that dont even know that i existed " J " ....and i took his pic down my board..." J" lolz..u have his pic pinned on a board?...lolz.." Y  Yep...thats the end of another love/crush/thingy going on...it felt a bit of relief and a little bit of loneliness feeling the empty space..but overall..it felt good to lift this heavy rock up.... note to self : try to live life again...lick your wounds, lift yourself up coz the wounds will heal up eventually.. Personal http://www.zorpia.com/justagurl23/journal/1792230 Wed, 09 Apr 2008 10:37 EST this is me now http://www.zorpia.com/justagurl23/journal/1780999 arrived at sydney, it totally change my perception at how we look at things, at first it was an blurry state of emotions, then..it becomes clearer..and much clearer..we finally went to bathurst..and it opens up a whole different perception of uni..its the first time i have seen such a huge amount of ppl fitting inside a lecture hall...shocked at the size of the people.culture shock?? i think they are more shocked looking then us..they are like...what the fuck is this asians doing here? as i said..we are the aliens among the aliens..in their world...we are the foreigners..not the other way round..one word to describe on the feeling i m feeling now..loneliness...i miss my friends.still living life..cheers. Personal http://www.zorpia.com/justagurl23/journal/1780999 Fri, 07 Mar 2008 10:12 EST