Journals
Monday,Jun 20 2005, 01:51:34 AMStrangest Thing by Dom Nuesa
Strangest Thing
Written by Arkane
The strangest thing happened this morning
Strange that it happened, and strange that it
happened this morning
Expecting a sun, strange that it was storming
And it was stranger still that I went out the house
jogging
Rain was pouring, droplets clearing out the nights
cobwebs
I was approached by a woman dressed in thin
garments
A friend of mine, her name is Manila, that's what
they call her
She had the stature of buildings, but she walked
alot taller
I wasn't in the mood for conversations, not lately
So I ran faster, but she was able to overtake me
She was like, "Hey Dominic. Read the newspapers
today?"
I replied, "Yes. Now please, you're blocking my
way."
She said, "Don't you find it funny? Politicians
barking...
..at each other, its your government's kindergarten."
She smiled and whispered, "Silly old geezers"
I said, "Doesn't it bother you that they deceived
us?"
"They robbed the people of the elections", I
continued
"They have the balls to cheat us after all we've
been through..
Our faith is far from renewed, we don't need these
issues..
Leave me alone, Manila. And take your sunshine
with you"
She laughed a little and said, "I'm sorry you're
disappointed..
..If another revolution happened tomorrow, will you
join it?"
I said, "Strange if it happens, but what's stranger
still..
..I don't like being played a fool, so maybe I will"
She said, "I guess you're right, but here's one for
keeps..
..Just because you didn't win, doesnt mean you
didn't cheat"
I said nothing, and she walked away, a bit too
quickly
Defeated, I looked down and saw the legs of the
city
The puddle in a blocked sewage, reflected her
bruises
But though wounded, she happily whistled her own
music
And that's when it hit me, why she had to
contradict me
Braving the strange rain, she left her sunshine with
me
Opposition and Administration blocs?
Different types of liars, same corrupted flock
Why do we let them rape our country with their
ignorance?
These bastards manhandled Manila with their
impotence
No, I do not have time for EDSA number four
But I have strength for one revolution more
Manila taught me it's the one thing worth fighting for
It's the revolution that happens in our spirits inner
core
The individual improvement, for a better tomorrow
If I revolutionize myself, the rest will follow
Hope is there, the heart is your weapon
Smile through the storm, laugh in the face of
Armageddon
So what if you read the newspaper today
You are free, no headline is gonna take that away
And through the storm, through political massacre
I'm grateful for Manila, and I ran after her...
..to say goodbye, her name, I called
I felt proud, and it didn't feel strange at all
The rain didnt stop, strange, she was dry, I
embraced her
She held me and said, "Next time, don't be a
stranger."
Peace
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Dominic AKA Arkane...one talented mofo!! big ups and respect to him...y'all watch out for the growing consciousness to Hip-Hop's better ego...Respect to the peeps giving all their sweat and hard work on giving quality music that educates...AMPON, Turbulence, MISC..and etc.. y'all got my salute. Peace!
Saturday,Jun 18 2005, 12:27:42 AMHangover
Last night was boot camp training, I stayed up 20 hours straight, drank alcohol, smoked some herb, and played ps2 and poker. When the night finished I was so fatigued that I was bed ridden for a couple of hours. I couldn’t move a muscle, not even lift a finger. Luckily I ended up sleeping at Secho’s place and not get hassled to drive all the way home.
Lately I’ve felt that I’ve been straying off from what I’m supposed to be doing. I feel mediocre, not moving forward to reach my goals. I feel as if I’m chasing something that keeps outrunning me, and I feel uneasy about it.
Why do I always feel like a failure!?!
I keep coming back to a conclusion that it’s because my parent’s have given me so much pressure to be somebody and be a successful person in the career and financial aspect that I get so anxious all the time. I get frustrated that I’m still in school with obligations to finish and divided to want to make money and start a career.
I should be satisfied working at a call center for my internship program, wherein I hit 2 birds with 1 stone. I do get to work and make good money, while it’s also something that meets my school’s requirements. Still, inside I know I deserve more. I know I fit in a better career. I guess my problem is I’m rushing myself too much, maybe I just need to relax and enjoy my job as a customer service dude. Certainly it’s not going to be my choice for a career, but as early as now I need to learn how to enjoy what I do. After all, I am making a pretty decent salary while there are fresh grads don’t make it at all.
I’m happy how my girl assures me and shares her opinion on
my frustrations. Jaja is a real blessing. I have been wrong in the past, but
this time its different. I love her for her maturity and her positive outlook
in life. Like me she aims big and has proven it to herself that she is a
remarkable woman. I consider myself lucky for finding Jaja. She has what molds
men to be great. Submissive but strong, she supports and gives sound advices.
It’s nice to have a companion that gives a man respect. She is very
compromising and I too admit that I need to work on some avenues to make our
relationship very two-way. I have said this in the past, but this time I can
confidently assure myself that I’m very in love with my girlfriend.
