Journals
Monday,May 22 2006, 01:31:05 PMsad..disapointed..
once again i m here >.< kinda long never write blog ler >.< sigh..always when i am here i oso wrote about my sad feeling =/ aihz.. tis time oso the same =.=..u guys muz b wondering y i always will sad n u guys oso will surprise y i always sad bcoz of almost the same reason ~ my gf went redang few days ago.. she said she wan go wif ji mui =.= n those frens tat go i duno de.. plus i got not much money.. so she suggest me dun go.. aihz..i heard tat she plan like tat.. or she never ask me wan go or not.. oledi sad ler =/ aihz... nvm la..i juz let her go.. she oso hv her own privacy.. mayb sumtimes i m 2 much d @.@ she reach there send me a sms.. um? normal ba... nth much 2 talk.. she oso dun wan sms much.. den da nz day i try 2 call her i cant call in =.= den i sms her.. there was no report.. tats means da hp is off dy.. so i tot wat happen... want 2 call her fren n ask.. try look at my phone book.. yeee... i dun hv her fren number =.= deen suen le ba.. pray 4 her lo.. hope there wont b any accident happen ~ den at nite she got send me a sms.. n i oso recieve a report about da msg i send in da morning .. i tot tat time her phone no battery or wat lo.. kinda happy recieve her msg.. at least i know she is safe ~ =p but den.. i try 2 reply her sms.. once again da sms cant send =.= no report ~ sigh ~ i wondering wat happen.. aihz.. dun wan think many so i go out dota wif frens ~ DOTA !! ..lalala... so long no dota..my dota skill still got la.. but den i veli fast get bored liao.. not like last time so addicted liao... tats a good things... aihz.. da nz day.. morning she send me sms n tell me tat she is coming back.. so i ask her whether straight come back my hse or wan stay at her fren hse... she reply me n say tat will come my hse... i m kinda happy.. n try 2 plan wat 2 do later ... i tot bring her go movie .. aihz.. how i know.. at nite.. she send me sms n say wan stay at frens hse... aihz.. acctually i m veli disapointed n a bit angry.. but den i tot it will happen d la.. so i juz reply her oklo..stay there 2molo onli go back.. .bside tat i m thinkking y she suddenly wan stay at there.. den i tell myself.. mayb 2molo we r going tarc ma.. so she wan save my petrol money.. .so sekaligus fecth her n go tarc.. i think i onli can accept tis reason...but.. she is not gving me tis reason.. her reason is say her fren ask me stay 1 more nite =/ aihz..i got nth 2 say... but den i cant keep quiet oso.. coz i veli beh song.. so i try 2 find some1 2 chat so tat he/she can comfort me.. so i go find her close fren.. umm.. i chat wif her n tell her wat happen... den she try 2 help me call.. i think she call quite few times gua? den finaly can get..and then my gf sms me n tell me tat her phone gila gila..swicth off anytime.. tats y no on the phone.. den i juz answer her "oh" .. she reply me back n say untill like i not trust her =/ aihz..i told her fren about tis.. she say " u dun feel she liek chok chap sam hui" .. um..tat time i was thinkking she chop chap sam hui bout wat? so i juz dun wan bother wat she say... den i say i feel tat she got problem... her fren oso agree wif me.. den i juz dunno wat happen... n den her fren told me tat she got chat sumthing wif her but kenot tell me.. deen i juz ask her fren hints 2 me.. her fren said kenot.. sigh.. curious me at there think think about wat they talk lar... but i still dunno.. den suddenly her fren ask me wheter she still got contact wif TAT GUY or not =.= i was ?.? y she ask me like dat.. .den i asnwer i dunno n i think dun hv gua.. den she got ask me IF TAT GUY got go redang wat will i do =.= i so shock about tis question n i ask her back izzit TAT GUY got go.. she say she say IF lar... deen i oh.. n i answer i oso dunno wat will i do.. den i guess TAT GUY got go redang lo.. but den i trust her.. n trust her tat if he got go she will tell me.. so i juz forget about wat i guess... aihz.. da nz day i feccth her back my home...at nite..she cry n tell me... TAT GUY got go redang oso =.= aihz...i really dunno wat 2 say.. n i really dunno wat 2 do... once again... once again... aihz.. i tot i make myself veli clear infront of her about tat guy thing =/ but AGAIN.. aihz.. i oso dunno wat 2 say... veli "paiseh" i cried.. yeah i cried.. its really hurt me...i m so sad bcoz.. i really dun understand...mayb i m 2 much i wan her stop contact wif TAT GUY .. but den.. since i so hate TAT GUY y cant she juz forget tis fren so tat can make me feel better ? i oso dunno myself got 2 much or not.. i onli know i seriously veli hurt n sad n disapointed now...tat day i slap her...i slap twice..quite hard... once i slap her.. she cry.. i sam tong...i quickly sayang her back.. n den my anger is gone... but 2day... while i taking my dinner...suddenly i think back tis case.. once agian i m sad ..disapointed... n i dunno wat can i do... really dunno...if u can teach me wat can i do.. send me some comment ? sigh ~
-khim siong-
Monday,Mar 27 2006, 09:20:04 AMeverytime oso like dat...
y everytime oso happen da same thing ? wat can i do ? wat i need 2 do ? endure and pretent nth ? sound her ? seriously got no idea... i oso dunno wat myself thinkking now.. oso dunno wat myself wan 2 do... 2 many times.. i repeat 2 many times...damn bored.. yea.. she may think tat i m so sux.. tis small lil things oso wan get angry or i dun trust her...~~ she wan 2 think like dat.. i oso dunno how... i dun wan make tis things more serious.. i dun wan force her.. but i kenot hide my own feeling oso... my feeling always show on my face.. cant cheat any1.. whenever i diam diam.. tats means something wrong wif me.. aihz.. i really damn disapointed n sad when da same thing happen again.. everytime i oso unhappy.. everytime she oso will say i show her my beh song face.. acctually i damn unhappy lo.. dunno la.. she can do watever she like.. but when comes 2 da thing i hate.. i seriously will unhappy =/ cioz ~ -khim siong-
Wednesday,Mar 22 2006, 12:49:15 PMwho right who wrong ?
Monday,Mar 28 2005, 03:13:38 PMwalao... 2day i went out wif1 of my DOTa...
walao... 2day i went out wif1 of my DOTa team member ~ he say go out yam cha wif a gurl wo.. i tot is a leng lui ler.. so i said oki ler.. btw i duno how 2 push him oso >.< so i juz follow lo.. den when i sit his car.. he told me tat gal onli 14 years old =.=" i was like... yam cha wif a siu mui mui ?! sigh.. den i think nvm lo.. i tot it will b oki gua.. but end up =.=" wasting my time lar ! so i said i go home early lo.. acctually they got next plan de.. walao.. i like so.. "sou heng" coz i said i wan 2 go home.. damn pai seh >.< i dun think i wan yam cha wif him anymore.. lolx
-khim siong-
Saturday,Mar 26 2005, 01:49:37 PMwaaaa...so so long never sit at my room n...
waaaa...so so long never sit at my room n on9 lar !! so never post any new journal >.<... sigh ~ so busy huh ? acctually i not busy de lar.. juz dun hv de mood 2 go home ler >.< somemore nowadays dunno y .. i always go cc ta kei jor ~ haihz... mayb coz i join a new group of fren play DOTA gua.. >.< always oso at cc.. play n play n play... play 4 wat i oso duno.. waste money summore >.< sigh ~ btw.. joinning dota competition oso >.< haihz.. ! hope faster finish da competition n i dun wan 2 play jor ~if not everytime my fren call me go play.. i dunno use wat reason 2 tolak them...coz they say train 4 competition !! >.< waste all my $$ n time lar... !! btw my study oso not so good ler >.< 2nd semester fail 2 subject oso.. hiahz.. need 2 resit.. btw.. i 4got 2 pay my resit bill.. haihz.. dunno how ler... monday better go college settle everything >.< now my life is so messy... college.. work.. ta kei.. sleep.. yam cha... 24 hours per day !? where enough ar ?! my eyes oso bengkak like a panda jor.. duno when da zoo negara ppl come cacth me leh ?! haihzzzzz..... help me !! i dowan a messy life !! i think i need a gf gua ? control me ? lolx.. dunno ler... if wan gf.. i oso wan a simple gf ! not a complex 1 ~ where 2 find a simple 1 ? since all da gal i know oso like so complex geh ? haihz.. wait jodoh bah !
-khim siong-