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y everytime oso happen da same thing ? wat can i do ? wat i need 2 do ? endure and pretent nth ? sound her ? seriously got no idea... i oso dunno wat myself thinkking now.. oso dunno wat myself wan 2 do... 2 many times.. i repeat 2 many times...damn bored.. yea.. she may think tat i m so sux.. tis small lil things oso wan get angry or i dun trust her...~~ she wan 2 think like dat.. i oso dunno how... i dun wan make tis things more serious.. i dun wan force her.. but i kenot hide my own feeling oso... my feeling always show on my face.. cant cheat any1.. whenever i diam diam.. tats means something wrong wif me.. aihz.. i really damn disapointed n sad when da same thing happen again.. everytime i oso unhappy.. everytime she oso will say i show her my beh song face.. acctually i damn unhappy lo.. dunno la.. she can do watever she like.. but when comes 2 da thing i hate.. i seriously will unhappy =/ cioz ~ -khim siong-
haihz.. izzit i thinkking 2 much ??izzit i 2 siu hei ?? umm.. i oso dunno wat myself is.... ~ share wif few frens b4 about wat happened.. they oso agree tat is nth wrong wif me =/ they said is a normal reaction... if da situation happen 2 her.. she oso will act like me... is not about trust or dun trust.. it is a normal reaction.. if u dun wan him/her 2 hv tis normal reaction.. v can prevent it from happen... couple argue is veli normal.. but i hope is not argue about another guy or wat.. mayb i veli easy get jealous.. but if u know i veli easy get jealous y dun juz u overcome it ?? i really kenot tahan if argue n da reason is cuz of another guy.. i will b damn mad n i might dunno wat myself doing =/
i had told her about i dun like tis kind of thing happen.. n i dislike her 2 contact wif tat guy .. umm.. mayb is a bit 2 over if i ask her dun contact wif tat guy terus... mayb if i c her contact wif tat guy n i feel tat da convesation is okay.. den i wil b okay gua ?? or mayb i m not ?? u may say tat i m 2 over.. but i onli can think of tis way 2 make me feel better =/
i saw many of my frens oso damn gila or damn stupid on loving 1 person.. no matter how bad the other party treat them...they stil love the other party 1.. haihz.. i oso dunno wan 2 say them stupid or "long love"..tats da reason y i dun wan her 2 contact wif tat guy.. although she said she settle everything wif tat guy n dun hv anything more... i dun think so is so easy loh... in my eyes..is not so easy lo... is about feelings.. need time 1 loh.. not say nth den nth dy.. u experience b4.. u shud know oso...
haihz
i hope she will put me in 1st place loh.. dun like always frens 1st loh... u muz b thinkking i m 2 over ?? or mayb u used 2 put frens in 1st place n me in second place ?? if u r used 2 put me in 2nd place.. i request u 2 put me in 1st place loh... every1 oso hope their bf/gf put them in 1st place 1 lar ?? am i right ?? i think tis request is juz simple as ABC ??
mayb now u saying tat i always correct n u always wrong... ~ bcuz i din found any better reason 2 let u correct.. if u got any reason tat can support tat u r correct den i hv nth 2 say... mayb u got ur own reason n u dunno how 2 express it out ?? but i m sure u know ur reason is not as good as my reason rite (if not y dun u say out?)?? is not about i good in talking tats y i m always correct.. everything tat i say i m correct i got my own reason 2 protect it...u oso got gv me some good reason n i will listen 2 u oso... if not tat i m a guy u muz listen 2 me or i m da 1 who right.. if ur reason is better den me of cuz i will listen 2 u.. =/
u shud know tats my six sense feeling is veli strong.. bcuz i m a "scorpio" ... sometimes i really can sense wat u r doing loh... u trying 2 hide sumthing ?? u trying 2 gv me surprise ?? honestly i can sense it 1 loh.. so i dun hope u doing anything behind of me... dun think tat i dunno loh..=/ i m not stupid =/
sigh... in the early morning got such down feelings =/ hope later in the afternoon i will b alrite lar ~ =/ "dun worry , be happy" tats some few words 2 comfort myself n u guys who r reading it ~ cioz
-khim siong-
