Journals
Monday,Nov 24 2008, 10:25:54 AMjust some words that i love allot
And no matter how hard i try how long i'll wait how much i'll give how many nights i've cried how hurt i get
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I looked at some old pictures of us
And the tears began to flow, but I
remember when I used to look at
them and just smile. I miss that
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Yesterday i believed in love
because of fairy tales
today i drown in my own tears
even tinker bell cannot make things
right again wit her magic dust
u broke my heart and left me
wit broken pieces
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I can't unhear all the words, unsay all the things, that used to mean so much... I'm finding out that it's impossible to do. I can't unlove you...
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Why is that when you needed me most I was by your side holding your hand until you made through but now that I need you you're no where to be found
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It's carved in me now. What was always written in my heart is now cut into my skin. It's because of you that I am BROKEN
Friday,Nov 21 2008, 04:22:02 AMi want to know you
I used to know you
I used to care for you
Even though you weren’t true
I saw something in you
That made me to wanna stay.
It was a learning curve
B'Coz your mistakes, your heartache
Gave me a breakthrough
To escape the misery you put me through.
What you did
Made me doubt my believes
In something I thought was so great
But even so, I know the hole you dug inside my heart
Is slowly but surely closing up
They say what don’t kill you makes you strong
I say I know what you did was wrong
When I look at my life I realize
Experience is the best teacher
I found strength in my weakness.
I’ve done enough crying caused by your deceit and lying
It took me a while I aint gonna lie
But now that I have accepted and accommodated your untrueness
And learned to take a step forward without feeling any weakness
I have my life ahead of me
Even though sometimes it feels like I can’t go on
I know accepting what you did and forgiving you
Was what I had to do to make my life right
Tuesday,Nov 18 2008, 10:46:23 AMbroken heart
Last time my heart was broken, I thought that I was through.
I swore I would never love you again, and believe that this was true.
But, then you walked into my life, and the moment your eyes met mine,
I knew that you were worth loving', and I fall in love just' one more time.
You mean so much to me. I just wish I could tell you now but I would never be able to find the words without breaking down.
Just another sad love song back in my brain like crazy. I guess I'm all torn up.
Fast or slow, it just doesn't let go or shape me and it's all because of you.
Tuesday,Nov 18 2008, 10:36:06 AMI WROTE YOU ARE NAME
I wrote your name in the sky,
but the wind blew it away.
I wrote your name in the sand,
but the waves washed it away.
I wrote your name in my heart,
and forever it will stay.
I'd like to run away
From you,
But if you didn't come
And find me ...
I would die.
The happiest day of my life
was the day that I met you
Always loving and understanding
with a heart of gold too
You'd always show how much you care
with the loving things you do
From a tender kiss to a warm
embrace and whisper "I LOVE YOU"
We've had a lot of happy times
and also had some tears
but our love for each other
still remained strong,
throughout the years
All goods things have to
come to an end it's sad I know
but true though in my heart
I know that I will always love you
And your heart of gold.
My thoughts, my dreams
I never thought they would come true.
Days went by
And I was still dreaming of you.
The feeling I get it cant be defined
When I look into your eyes, and you look into mine.
I ache at night cause Im not with you
I wish so much that I could kiss you.
Your eyes, your heart, your touch
Kristen you mean so much.
Your on my mind 24/7
When Im with you I feel like Im in heaven.
Ive made mistakes in the past
Things the same, never seem to last.
Im sorry for all that Ive done to you
But no matter what, I will always love you
Monday,Oct 13 2008, 06:46:30 AMBroken Hearts
Where do they go
when they have
no place to call home
Live and be broken
or hope they'll
mend on their own
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Time heals wounds
and enables us to forget
Wait! Time has no value
to aching broken hearts
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I long for your smile
tender touch, and strong arms
Arms I run to, throw myself
between your charm
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You weren't there
when desperation
and emptiness accompanied me
No more tears to wipe
you are not around
and you'll never be
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You ran away
and left me alone
I looked, no one was there
I was alone in this world
looking around
for your care
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Why did you leave
me on my own
I was sad not
for missing you
I realized I've been
always alone
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I cried not because its over
but for the missing
part in my heart
No! I wont say
I am in love
glass doesn't mend
once shattered a part
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I'll keep pain
inside from now on
with my broken
heart I,ll roam
loneliness taught
my heart to sing
yet aches for a place
to call home
