x You keep trying to impress all the wrong ones, looking around for that right one, when all along i was sitting there right behind you, watching you make all those mistakes of trying to impress that one girl... when the one girl you never noticed was allready impressed....... was allready falling head over heals-- When you asked that other girl out my heart broke for I KNEW it wouldnt last long.. When I was the one longing to hear those simple words.... When all along i had followed every move you made knowing that one move you'll never make towards... me x

Waiting... as time goes by i think of you,
rain falls, and it reminds me of how you used to love the rain,
im looking out the window which reminds me of my most lost memories, the ones that hurt, the ones that dont... its just a time to recooperate what was lost... and look forward to what may be gained.
 
love was once apart of me... but it has now dissapeared.. i think of the one person who allowed me to love, but there is still tomorrow, and i forget the pain, and believe that one day the past will leave my mind to allow me to love again. To feel the love of the same person.. brings a happy smile yet a sad tear. Tomorrow is another day, to offer a new chance, yet the chance needs to be taken b4 it goes anywhere..
 
There you are walking up the street, 
when i look at you our eyes dont  even meet, 
you walk by as if you dont care,
i long just to see that longing stare, 
the one you once gave me  when i was yours,
 but now all you did was shut all the possible doors, 
 to reach back to you ,
yet you dont have a single clue,
how much you meant to me 
and how little i meant to you,
the snow starts falling,
and i start longing
to be in your arms once again,
to see if you would ever still love me 
yet the only one who will ever know... is above me

GOOD-BYE FOR NOW
 Here i sit, alone once again,
you gave up on me before we even began,
I sit here an try to concentrate, only on the slowly falling snow,
But al I can think about are the feelings you never wanted to show,
How could this have happend yet a second time,
If only I could just stand still one last moment, pause it on a dime,
Once again you threw me away as if my feelings were just like any other day,
I sit here and ponder upon myself,
as i tuck away my feelings for you and stick them on my shelf,
To where they will collect dust
and begin to rust,
as they fade away,
So will this day,
As i slowly walk away from you,
The sky opens up back to its normal shade of blue
Good bye for now,
Of course i do not know how,
but good bye for now

This may sound really like little girl ish.. but i wrote this after me and Tyson broke up..yeah it was a hard one..


I­ wake up and my eyes are all puffy and red,
The only think I thinkof is getting the strength to get out of bed,
Tears stream down my face as i remove the ring and place it in an envelope,
sending it back to him would be my only hope,
me staying strong is going to be the hardest thing ill ever have to do,
after all, i didnt nothing to you,
You say you want to be friends but your really just throwing me away,
But tomorrow will be the start of another new day,
The feelings you had were nothing like mine,
the only hope i have not is the word Time,
I have to start over and gather the pieces you re-shredded,
This pain and hurt are the things that i most regreted,
The very thought of you in my head,
 is now the next thing that i most dread, 
 wait until you see all the tears i cry,
then when you realize the worse thing you did was say " good-bye",
As i cried day in and day out,
there was only one thing i could think about,
how you made me smile by the soudn of your voice,
but you took that away with your own stupid choice,
the way your touch made me feel safe,
but now im left here with out a single trace,
Im lonely and cold with no where to go,
You, without a single feeling to show,
I wont eat and i wont sleep until i find  out why the hell i care so much.

xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx I wrote everything above this line xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
 
 
Promise me. That's all I want.
Just a promise that you will never forget me.
Tell me I changed you somehow.
Let me know that I had an impact on your life.
Promise me that you'll always remember me.
Losing you once was hard enough.
But, I don't want to go on knowing
I meant absolutely nothing  to you
 
 
 

There's gonna be some stuff your gonna see that's gonna make it hard to smile in the future. But through whatever you see, through all the rain and all the pain, you gotta keep your sense of humor. You gotta be able to smile through all this bullshit." 

Hello im home for a while i had an appointment today i wanted to go tanning afterwards but erm yeah.. they were booked and the only day i could get in is the day me and Lynn are going to get our nails done so on my F.H im going to go tanning then go to 2 classes then leave for my moms to get our nails done! woot woot! yeah gonna have a good time :P well im outs for now. laters!

-kay

Hi to all.. well um. this is my 1st entry.. not a whole lot going on here.. went with che-che to her aunts to watch a movie good time.. its called. "" the man"" it was funny because one of the characters in it reminded us of Olivia EXACTLY justl ike her. So me Lynn and Joeseph went to Dickinson it was a kickin ass time... though i should of done something but i didnt... so yeah anyways... well i cant wait until school is up i wanna go to billings really bad this summer...like really bad.. i love montana. Beautiful State. anway im planning on going to minnesota and wyoming but anyways....

laters-
-:+:- kayla marie -:+:-