Journals
Thursday,Mar 29 2007, 03:25:48 PM+.+...
Today is thursday..now the watch stated 11.08pm...
wel...honestly..i duno wad ter say..but i jz noe...bad luck been stalking me...
mb u guys wont believe it or u guys wud think im too supertitious..but i cant help thinkin of it...
i tried to deny it many times...reminding myself its just somewhat a nonsense...
starting tis year the region march...many things start to happen....@@
wel..im lazy to explain here anyway...
Ive change..tis is serious....jus like wad i mention las time...a 180 degree change...
Im nt liking myself right now...da things dat i used to do...i dont do it anymor....
whereas da things i dont do..i started to be like dat...what's wrong wif me anyway????
havin a bad mood...brooding over relationship wif friends...friends....n friends....
mb u wil think it was ludicrous for brooding over such thing...
jus pls sumone tel me wad to do if i don wan to heart a fren...
Arrrgh.so confusing...
Wednesday,Mar 28 2007, 05:08:14 PMThe third day in swinburne...
well...today is ma 3rd day in swinburne...kinda hardly tink abou it...woa..recently im addicted to writin journal n blogging...dunno y gt such spirited mind to post journal tis day...>.<...aduh...i think it muz bcos i stay in d open lab too much...wad ter do?...nt much place ter hang out in swinburne....da hol ground is under construction thou...memang sienz...aih..
plagiarism..plagiarism..plagiarism...duh...tis word kept intruding ma' mind...al da lecturers keep on stressing PLAGIARISM..well...honestly..its quite serious oh..heard sum of da student been expelled bcus of plagiarising..ooo..2day was so embarrasing bcuz i recognise da wrong ppl...=.=..wel..i saw him from far far away...i tot hez da guy i knew b4...den it hapen so naturally dat i walk up to meet him...mos worst i even smile n called out da name...he jz turned n stared blankly at me n anwsr " what?? no...soree...." oopSs....sorry wrong person...ahling hu is bside me reali "impress" of ma' courage...aiyer!..its nt da 1st time anyway...duno y seen many lotsa familiar faces in swinburne....*hmph*....wel...for anthr cases...i saw da fren i reali noe...bt turn outs they ignore me wen i say "hi' ter dem....quite siasoi too....wad a fren..+.+...bumped into jerome evryday wif ma' bro...he exclaimed dat so many st.john ppl cum for swinburne....erm...[thinking]...gt me lar...jerome lar...ahling lar...stella lar..hung ar...oscar lar...n hu else ha?? swt..its nt so many afterall...hoho...^.^ "....
Haih,,today lesson quite boring oso...wow...i muz admit dat da level 3 in swin reali frozen me til death...so COLD!! my lips omos cracked n dry durin da hol lecture in da morning...*phew*....life in uni memang sienz...mb its onli da 1st week..nxt week we gona hav our tutorial classes started...aihz..Today, 2 hours of oral lecture..2 hours of reading lecture...n finally math in d aftern...In oral clas..ma lecturer ,Ms Melinda kong...shez sure veli cute...gt many many expression on her face..probably bcos shez try ter lighten up da clas...wen she toks abt money...me n stela caught sum glimpse of elysia's shadow in her...|olz ^^ wel..melinda owes clarify da meaning btwn confident n arrogant...=.= which we noe abt it ady..shez true abt da border line..too confident wil end up bcumin arrogant...yep..anyway..gt depressed cuz we wil nd to perform public speaking individually n in group in few weeks time..sad lar...hm..secondly..Reading For Academic Purposes...owh...tis is da borin clas eva..da lecturer..Mr chan kok hui..is boring...da lesson is boring...everytin is boring...omos fell asleep in his clas...@@...duh...durin Maths lesson..reali duno hw ter comment...da 1st week we learn basic mx computation...n it gets so easy until quite borin too! haih...bt i learn lotsa new words in basic arithmetic la. .at least tis interest me..erm..example: quotient .etc....
|astly..i hope i can bcum more fairer...sienz..everyday complain by my bro as "blackie"....oh gosh...i stil gt da stupid competition gok ar....sad ar..cant polish or go for nail design...jus bcos of dat stupid comp....aihz...sad la...
*we just need to step out of our life to see the world* quote from a drama series..
Tuesday,Mar 27 2007, 05:21:24 PMToday is ma' 18 burthday...
Today is ma' 18 burThday...wow...im officialy 18 luu..^^
Hehe..jus like ma bro had mention...im nt below akta kanak-kanak luu..
so happie cuz can do many many things liao..heHe o.O
well...reali unexpected...many many of ma frenz..[frm ordinary frenz til bes frenz] wishes me a hapPie 18th burthday!! tis is da 1st yr i receive da most wishes of all...hiakz =)
tanx ya..reali feel happie dat u guys stil remember me...*touchie*...luv u all~ muackzz=p
well...jus now i went for my so-called burthday party...>.< ...n supposed to meet each othr at 7pm , Memories......sad ar..onli met yanxin one person wen im arrived..dun feel like celebratin ady...
Finally, we dcide ter go tuu Casa Davide , sumwher jz ahead da memories...
So..al 2gethr thers stella , yanxin , ahling , hung , huahua & alvin....its a smal bunch of group tho...*hmm*...we settled down n luk into d menu....wow , its nt cheap worx..kinda woree for my dear frenz...tis is wad i felt at dat moment...^.^ " feel so soree too cos celebratin ma' burthday in sum place dats reali cost expensive [ to me lar] ...duno wad dey actually thinkin ...huh...unblivable to saw lionel, ah poon , chua & Xian cum to celebrat wif me...[winks.^]
My present times!! stella 2gethr wif tzeping [cant attend da celebration], hung , & ahling bought me a necklace...=) Yanxin oso bot me a necklace...=.=
wow...mus cost expensive oh...reali tanx!! i reali like ma present owh..huAhua jiu bot me a ring...owh...sad ar da ring abit loose...duh..its oledi da smallest size i heard..[ em, muz eat mor to get a fatter finger] *^ mos funny of al is dat lionel and ah poon dem gav me angpau..wakaka x)..i tot its a prank..bt hu noes! rM20 inside arr..hihi..wif a paper of magnum 4D...yep..dats weird...bt tanx for da angpau hor...|oLz ^^
weL..i ate alot...i ate pasta called penne abbriator..@@..[duno da speling correct o nt]...n ate a slices of pizza...haha..yanxin din ate anytn cos he used up hez money earlier for haircut..wow...he reali known as "trineken"...hiakz.=)..al da leftover food frm hung n ahling he can finish it up in short times...==''
Honestly....i din quite expected much cos im oledi satisfied if gt frenz help me celebrate my burthday...0.O.. hmmph..[thinking]... haihz..jus reali dun understand y...i felt so awkward durin d hol nite...pretending to find sum topic to talk abou...whoa **** stil its nt like the kind of celebration dat i fancy...>.<..i expect sumtin mor siao den tis..hoho XD..am i crazy?
|astly ma burthday cake!! owh...so nice..its tiramisu...coffee flav i think..yum yum...^^
Realli surprised wen i get ter noe dat da cake is specially frm tzesong & his gAng... hAhaz..tanx guys! ur da bes out ofta best!! tis is da 1st yr dey actualy done sumtin for ma'burthday...reali " gan dong"...alto dey were unable to celebrate wif me...=D
Well...its a pity thou cuz nobody brought camera...>.<....aduh...sad lei..cant take many many pics...*sigh*...so we juz use hp to frame al da sweet memories of 2nite...hahahz*^
Kinda go bac early cuz 2mr nd to wake up early...i gues its al for nw...im veli sleepy liao luu..
*hope nxt yrs gona b mor fun den* zzZZzz..
Sunday,Mar 25 2007, 04:56:06 PMhaih..
2mr start clas luu....i stil dun bliv im actually studyin in swinburne nw...wakaka...
life is full of unexpected...thers no lookin bac luu...i mus think mor abt da future..
at da moment...im tryin ter fal in luv wif business aye..hoho..
well...duno how ter rite journal lately...seems so hard to express ma' tots wif wordz...
Aih...suddenly feel so soree to my grandpa...din fulfil any of my promises ter uu...owh..
feel so sad...cos ive change...a 180 degree change..luckily its nt 360...hoho..
wad am i blabbling abt?? ahahahahahaha..................................................
sienz...i jus realize sumtin...in order to gain othr ppl trust...i mus trust myself 1st...
im living for myself..not for other ppl....
my burthday comin soon....haih...burthday oo...
well...an early happie burthday wishes to ma self....happie burthday....haiz...
Tuesday,Mar 20 2007, 06:07:46 AMregret...
ppl kept telin me off.."u wil regret u noe..."
no...i dunno...hw can u tel u wil regret in da future wheras u dun even noe wad wil hapen?
arent "regret" is sumtin dat u feel wen u doin sumtin wrong n u wana change??
den hw do u noe u were wrong??
everyone is putting me into a reali bad position....my mum, my dad...even friends...
wad am i suppose to do to make things better..??
for not upsetting ppl life, shud i sacrifice myself??
wen i try to voice up my opinion..[wel u dun usualy see me doin tis cos i had a veli hard time to express my feelings..]...
they wud say i was trying to b nt understanding...huh?? weird??
noeing tis wud hapen..i prefer bottled up al ma feelings..
wen i try to make things easier...they wud confuse u n make things complicated again...
wen u say out ur principle of doin things...they wil jz say u r unexperienced...dats ridiculous..
no one...ever trusted me b4....since da comotion hapen 4 yrs bac...
i can tel u ...dats da 1st time i regret in ma life...
but in da meantime....i was changing into a selfish person...
"selfish" i called that....
i onli care to gain trust..bt i neglected al da things around me...
i hate people forcing me doing the things i dun like...i cant gv any reason wen they ask "y not??"
all the above story u can choose to believe it or believe it not...
im already used to it wen nobody trusted u...esp ur close ppl...
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