why does it have to be, when we leave a certain place, when we have to leave some people, that everything will be so damn perfect for that last time? its hard to leave specially when things are going on so perfectly you know youll be missing alot from it. i remember cruising along the town for the last time seeing a wonderfull view of the sunset. I cant help but to make a memory of it by sniffing whatever scent is present (hehehe thats how i make a memory kasi eh). i remember feeling my friends around me and looking at them carefully so i wont miss a thing about them when i go back home. i remember kissing all of them letting them know how much i will miss them now that ill be going back. i havent unpacked my stuffs yet, i dont want to do it yet. i dont know but for some odd reason im still hoping that i could go and catch a plane back and leave all of these behind and live the life ive always really wanted. i have honestly been crying most of the time because i badly miss the people i have left behind. everything simply reminds me of the fun times i had when i was back there, the music, the photos, a bottle of tequila, the moon, the sunset, the motorbike, everything, just everything reminds me of them. i dont want to just focus on the sad part of the story coz damn i had the time of my life there!!! it was so hilarious having these people around and feeling so much love when we are together. i cant help but to laugh out loud whenever i remember the kilikili salad and the budlis and the panhingaran kita game we always played. it was really fun. and i cant wait to go back there to do it all again. my shout outs to you guys!!! tes, nil, bonai, jels, joel, bob, and the rest of the crew!!! you guys rock!!! luv yah!!! lots of kisses!!!

Oo [live]
Up Dharma Down

'di mo lang alam
Naiiisip kita
Baka sakali lang maisip mo ako
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Hanggang sa aking inaasam makita kang muli
Nagtapos ang lahat sa di inaasahang pahanon
At ngayon ako ay iyong iniwan
Luhaan, sugatan, 'di mapakinabangan
Sana nagtanong ka lang
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Kay tagal na panahon
Ako'y nandirito pa rin hanggang ngayon para sa'yo
Lumipas mga araw na ubod ng saya
'di pa rin nagbabago ang aking pagsinta
Kung ako'y nagkasala patawad na sana
Puso kong pagal ngayon lang nagmahal
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Ay tunay na bigo sa laro na ito
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Sana'y nakinig na lang ako sa nanay ko
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O, ika'y minamasdan
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Oooooooo
Malas mo
Ikaw ang natipuhan ko
Di mo lang alam
Ako'y iyong nasaktan

i cant beleive im back here in Manila! whew! I had the most amazing ten days of my life back in the province with my friends and cousins! as in  wow talaga! It was a blast!!!

I was really planning to go back to borongan before i start working here in manila coz i know ill not have a chance to go back there anytime soon if i started working here, and yah i made it! It was a surprise for most of my friends back there, they never expected to see me and it was fun seing their faces when they saw me. I thank nil and tes alot coz they made my stay there worth while! basta high pa ko ngayon! it was sad though coz im here just reminiscing those times we had together.

I was happy to be closer to some of them now which i was not before. like my good friend Joel. I was so happy spending my stay there with him and im just so glad we have spent those quality times together. well and theres my newly found friend Bonai who turns out to be my cousin pala! it was great talaga!

We went to this paradise called Blue lagoon somewhere down south at Llorente. It was awesome, wait till you see the pictures ( by the way i havent uploaded it yet) wow talaga that place was great! Road trip kami when we went there. we used our motorbikes and it was a first for me, it was fun talaga! then everyday of my stay there was all fun! wala talagang araw dun that i stayed home, its either we were on the road or stayed at the beach doing nothing! wow fun talaga!!!

then my last day came and i never expected i would have much fun with my cousins and friends in Tacloban! Now i have experienced tacloban nightlife, uhm well not as crazy as manila nightlife but it will do for i hade a blast din that time! Joel,Bob, Bonai, Jel, Jikai and me partied like crazy! wish

Basta I cant seem to get over the fun times i had back there. Kakadating ko pa lang dio sa Manila, I havent even started working but im now planning when to go back there! Basta if i have a chance talaga, i would definitely go back there!

But wait, not all things ended happy. Thats when i realize that my heart was broken pala pag uwi ko dito...