melody01's Journals
| why does it have to be, when we leave a certain place, when we have to leave some people, that everything will be so damn perfect for that last time? its hard to leave specially when things are going on so perfectly you know youll be missing alot from it. i remember cruising along the town for the last time seeing a wonderfull view of the sunset. I cant help but to make a memory of it by sniffing whatever scent is present (hehehe thats how i make a memory kasi eh). i remember feeling my friends around me and looking at them carefully so i wont miss a thing about them when i go back home. i remember kissing all of them letting them know how much i will miss them now that ill be going back. i havent unpacked my stuffs yet, i dont want to do it yet. i dont know but for some odd reason im still hoping that i could go and catch a plane back and leave all of these behind and live the life ive always really wanted. i have honestly been crying most of the time because i badly miss the people i have left behind. everything simply reminds me of the fun times i had when i was back there, the music, the photos, a bottle of tequila, the moon, the sunset, the motorbike, everything, just everything reminds me of them. i dont want to just focus on the sad part of the story coz damn i had the time of my life there!!! it was so hilarious having these people around and feeling so much love when we are together. i cant help but to laugh out loud whenever i remember the kilikili salad and the budlis and the panhingaran kita game we always played. it was really fun. and i cant wait to go back there to do it all again. my shout outs to you guys!!! tes, nil, bonai, jels, joel, bob, and the rest of the crew!!! you guys rock!!! luv yah!!! lots of kisses!!! |
| Oo [live] Up Dharma Down 'di mo lang alam Naiiisip kita Baka sakali lang maisip mo ako 'di mo lang alam Hanggang sa aking inaasam makita kang muli Nagtapos ang lahat sa di inaasahang pahanon At ngayon ako ay iyong iniwan Luhaan, sugatan, 'di mapakinabangan Sana nagtanong ka lang Kung 'di mo lang alam Sana'y nagtanong ka lang Kung 'di mo lang alam Ako'y iyong nasaktan Baka sakali lang maisip mo naman Hindi mo lang alam Kay tagal na panahon Ako'y nandirito pa rin hanggang ngayon para sa'yo Lumipas mga araw na ubod ng saya 'di pa rin nagbabago ang aking pagsinta Kung ako'y nagkasala patawad na sana Puso kong pagal ngayon lang nagmahal 'di mo lang alam Ako'y iyong nasaktan Baka sakali lang maisip mo naman Puro s'ya na lang Sana'y ako naman 'di mo lang alam Ika'y minamasdan Sana'y iyong mamalayang hindi mo lang pala alam 'di mo lang alam Kahit tayo'y magkaibigan lang Napapaligaya lang sa tuwing nagkukulitan Baka sakali lang maisip mo naman Ako'y nandito lang Hindi mo lang alam Matalino ka naman Kung ikaw at ako Ay tunay na bigo sa laro na ito Ay dapat bang sumuko Sana hindi ka lang pala aking nakilala Kung alam ko lang ako'y masasaktan ng ganito Sana'y nakinig na lang ako sa nanay ko 'di mo lang alam Ako'y iyong nasaktan Baka sakali lang maisip mo naman Puro s'ya na lang Sana'y ako naman Isang kindat man lang 'di mo lang alam O, ika'y minamasdan Sana iyo'y mamalayang di mo lang pala alam Oooooooo Malas mo Ikaw ang natipuhan ko Di mo lang alam Ako'y iyong nasaktan |
i cant beleive im back here in Manila! whew! I had the most amazing ten days of my life back in the province with my friends and cousins! as in wow talaga! It was a blast!!! I was really planning to go back to borongan before i start working here in manila coz i know ill not have a chance to go back there anytime soon if i started working here, and yah i made it! It was a surprise for most of my friends back there, they never expected to see me and it was fun seing their faces when they saw me. I thank nil and tes alot coz they made my stay there worth while! basta high pa ko ngayon! it was sad though coz im here just reminiscing those times we had together.
I was happy to be closer to some of them now which i was not before. like my good friend Joel. I was so happy spending my stay there with him and im just so glad we have spent those quality times together. well and theres my newly found friend Bonai who turns out to be my cousin pala! it was great talaga!
then my last day came and i never expected i would have much fun with my cousins and friends in Tacloban! Now i have experienced tacloban nightlife, uhm well not as crazy as manila nightlife but it will do for i hade a blast din that time! Joel,Bob, Bonai, Jel, Jikai and me partied like crazy! wish Basta I cant seem to get over the fun times i had back there. Kakadating ko pa lang dio sa Manila, I havent even started working but im now planning when to go back there! Basta if i have a chance talaga, i would definitely go back there! But wait, not all things ended happy. Thats when i realize that my heart was broken pala pag uwi ko dito... |
We went to this paradise called Blue lagoon somewhere down south at Llorente. It was awesome, wait till you see the pictures ( by the way i havent uploaded it yet) wow talaga that place was great! Road trip kami when we went there. we used our motorbikes and it was a first for me, it was fun talaga! then everyday of my stay there was all fun! wala talagang araw dun that i stayed home, its either we were on the road or stayed at the beach doing nothing! wow fun talaga!!!
| Three years ago, our journey began Chasing down this cure, no plan in hand Just your pulse, my racing guide in the dark Just knowing with conviction from the start The moment your eyes made an introduction I felt my second violent breath of life Flawless to the point of being godly Yet I fell hard for your imperfections And now we're slightly weathered, we're slightly worn Our hands grip together, eye to eye through the storm, yet I still believe in ever after with you, yeahhhhh Cuz life is a pleasure with you by my side, And there ain't no current in this river we can't ride I still believe in ever after with you Nothing compares to the good times Feels like we're floating, when the rest have to climb You made me believe in love, and not the perfect kind A real messy beautiful twisted sunshine Emotions, volcanic eruptions We both still care, so we're still alive Tunnel vision, determination I want you, I want to make it right And now we're slightly weathered, we're slightly worn Our hands grip together, eye to eye through the storm, yet I still believe in ever after with you, yeahhhhh Cuz life is a pleasure with you by my side, And there ain't no current in this river we can't ride I still believe in ever after with you You are my twisted sunshine You are my twisted sunshine And now we're slightly weathered, we're slightly worn Our hands grip together, eye to eye through the storm, yet I still believe in ever after with you, yeahhhhh Cuz life is a pleasure with you by my side, And there ain't no current in this river we can't ride I still believe in ever after with you And now we're slightly weathered, we're slightly worn Our hands grip together, eye to eye through the storm, yetI still believe in ever after with you, yeahhhhh Cuz life is a pleasure with you by my side, And there ain't no current in this river we can't ride I still believe in ever after with you |
It was the most horrible yet the most funniest thing that ever happened in my life as a youth so far. I dont know what to say or how to react on things that had just occurrred to me. Im afraid I might not be able to handle the emotional involvement I could possible feel.Im totally scarred by the fact that I wouldnt be able to stand for what I did or what I said last night. Im not saying I have regrets, its just that im not ready to face the consequences of my actions. Im afraid that it wasnt just a joke, im afraid that it would change the relationships we have. Im just afraid of so many things right now. Coke and rhum taste good, its sweet its delectable. but ill tell you, too much of it may cause you a lot of trouble. Like what trouble? Like getting home 4 o'clock in the morning, soaked after taking a dip on the warm waters of the pacific, while your mother opens the door for you to get in, like having a one night relationship with a very young guy hugging and holding hands and saying things that your not suppose to say, receiving a lot of kisses from someone you hardy even know but liking it. Then waking up the next morning, trying to recall all of the things, all of the words you said and freak out because you realized that you were not suppose to do that in the first place! Like yes im really freaking out right now! I really am. I wanna be numb. i want to be insensitive, i wanna forget all of those things that occurred last night. It was a nightmare!!! |