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mervdanerv's Homepage http://www.zorpia.com/mervdanerv Sat, 26 Jul 2008 11:41 EDT Sat, 26 Jul 2008 11:41 EDT Zorpia.com The Heavenly Realm http://www.zorpia.com/mervdanerv/journal/1522944             As the sun sank into the depths of the ocean, darkness overwhelmed the sky and transformed its original bright blue into a dark golden grey. Clouds began to appear as my hair was swaying in the cool summer breeze. I was overcome with a sense of serenity which inflamed my heart with the desire to question the true meaning of my being.   While listening to the remarkable sound of stillness, I wondered if there is more to life than habitual beliefs and common sense. Logical reasoning insisted that what Iâ€™m saying made no sense, while on the other hand, a feeling of peace and companionship made me feel unique, special and wanted. A feeling of uncertainty and ambiguity flowed into my doubtful mind trying to find a resting place with answers for my qualms. Before I got a lucid reply, I fell into a deep trance where I introspectively examined myself as a physical being and as an emotional, intellectual, and spiritual being. As I swam deeper into the ocean of philosophy, I found that, all through the past stages of my life, I was imprisoned in the prejudices derived from common sense, from habitual beliefs of this age, and from convictions which have grown up in my mind without the co-operation of my deliberate reason. The world tended to be definite, finite, and obvious. I woke up from my deep trance and attempted to seek the true meaning of my being, neglecting the claims of logic and common sense.  After a while of gazing and wondering I realized that I am living in a small, limited world in the midst of a great and powerful world and that all through my life, my mind was a garrison in a beleaguered fortress and the enemy, being common sense and logic, was preventing escape. I stood up from the swing on my balcony and slowly walked towards the rail while looking deeper in absolute darkness. The indescribable sensation of what seemed to be love, care and emotion had finally settled in my blazing heart satisfying it with warmth of companionship. The chilly breeze in the wind made me feel as if someone was watching and talking to me. I looked at the numerous stars in the shadowy sky for a while; Then at the brilliant shapes in the clouds. After that my eyes descended to the endless calm sea and back up to the astonishing masterpiece in the sky and I said: â€œGod, thank you for showing me the true significance of life and my being. Thank you for exposing my eyes to the heavenly realm thus setting me free from the boundaries of logic, common sense and habitual beliefs. I truly was blind but now I see. â€   As I walked back towards my room, I felt an inexplicable sensation of love, compassion, adoration, devotion, care, peace, and true joy. I felt as if I finally met my father for the first time in my existence. I smiled and for a split second, I truly sensed He smiled back at me and wished me a good night. I felt I was loved and wanted and indeed I had a good, peaceful night that night.      Personal http://www.zorpia.com/mervdanerv/journal/1522944 Sat, 06 May 2006 18:21 EDT This is what the tickle test described me as: http://www.zorpia.com/mervdanerv/journal/1521524 <div align="justify">Im blue â€” the most soothing shade of the spectrum. The color of a clear summer sky or a deep, reflective ocean, blue has traditionally symbolized trust, solitude, and loyalty. Most likely a thoughtful person who values spending some time on my own, I'd rather connect deeply with a few people than have a bunch of slight acquaintances. Luckily, making close friends isn't that hard, since people are naturally attracted to me â€” they're soothed by your calming presence. Cool and collected, you rarely overreact. Instead, I think things through before coming to a decision. That level-headed, thoughtful approach to life is patently blue â€” and patently me!</div> Personal http://www.zorpia.com/mervdanerv/journal/1521524 Thu, 04 May 2006 09:58 EDT