Journals
Sunday,Jun 19 2005, 09:25:30 AMtO jOsh er NGAK!!
GOD SENT ME YOU.. JOSH!!
I didn't know I could love
anyone as much as I love you
for the sound of your voice,
makes all my dreams come true.
You walk into a room, and
I know you have arrived;
my heart skips a beat when
you walk up to my side.
You smile and i get weak,
you hug me and
everythings seems okei,
you kiss me and all things dim,
baby, i want to keep u forever!
I hope this kind of magic stays
forever between us two,
and the whole wide world will
know that God sent me you, JOSH.
My love, you know you are my best friend.
You know that I'd do anything for you
And my love, let nothing come between us.
My love for you is strong and true.
~ by Sarah McLachlan ~
Let the world stop turning,
Let the sun stop burning,
Let them tell me love's not worth going through.
If it all falls apart,
I will know deep in my heart,
The only dream that mattered had come true
...In this life I was loved by you.
~ by Bette Midler ~
**theres nothing much going on juss hanging out with ochob brell eltuk aloys and jay ma mars..watching the film from the GRAD PARTEE and laughing..hehe i like it cos wen i go to sleep it kills me cos i miss mah bebe so much.. i talked to him today... hehe he was like half asleep when i called but my GOD i felt good talking to him.. i didnt go to work cos after i talked to him i cried mah self to sleep again i was so weak to get up.. i miss him so much and i cant stop thinking bout him.. JOSH you make me so HAPPY and the fact that im finally with you and not hiding from whoever i juss want you to know that this is a dream come true..ke di medengei a mle eldechedechak remember when i told you that u were always to late... im juss so happy that i waited for you dis time.. i really dont care what people seem to say bout me and taking advantages cos u know how i was always running to you for help when i had problems with mah boyfriends and u to me.. we both know the inside of the story and for now i dont care wat they say cos i love you and you love me and dats all there is to it... they can talk away but i juss want em to know that i LOVE YOU and have never LOVED anyone as much as i love you... if i survived all the mondai and the errirs den having to be happy is more then enough to keep me with you forever I LOVE YOU and I WANT THE WORLD TO KNOW...that im all yours!! LOVE YOU BABE!
Saturday,Jun 18 2005, 11:38:50 AMmOtOL n jOsh
im in love!!! for the first time in so long i can actually remember being so happy.. im with someone now and i am so happy!! mah gosh its weird but i have always liked dis person its juss that i was involved with some one and yes i was hooked on.. but me and dis good frend of mine were still tight we did things that everyone knows about and though i denied every single one of em i juss want to clarify taht they were mostly true... im sorry if i hurt anyone in the process of being true coming out clean and start all over... JOSH NGIRASWEI and I have connected in LOVE,LAUGHTERS,TEARS (di kid e babe), SMILES and mah GOD lets hope FOREVER.. dis guy makes me crazy... ive always enjoyed mah time with him cos he lifts me off mah feet, bring a smile to mah lips and oh send shivers down mah spine... I LOVE HIM always HAD! from any degree i swear I DO! but im doing long distance again and some part of me dont want to but i dont think i can let him go... i cant live without him... i was always running to him for answers for help and most of all for the friendship but now im there for love a deeper love den ive ever imagined... babe our plans are great and they will be fullfilled like u said ONE PATH ONE HEART ONE VISION....if we do like it taht much den u know it will come true im already working on it and oh mah GOD i love you i love you and i love you.... dis is a message to whomever i hurt in the process of finding happiness... to this person... i care! im sorry if i hurt you in anyway... i know u hate me and i dont blame you... and i know for a fact that you wont forgive me but juss know that i am sorry.. if u think this is a game den its not,., girl... i do respect you and im sorry if i made ur life a living hell... i did not mean too... its jsus that i fight for wat i want... and i want him... but if u and him belong together den i dont have saying juss knwo that i apologize and i hope u can find it in ur heart to forgive me~ to all mah friends its finally true... MOTOL KODEP and JOSH NGIRASWEI... i love you josh and i will always will..diak kobekikl eak di motirakl aikel telbiled... ill see u babe in a month~ tekker and BETIK A RENGUK ER KAU....
--NGALK RA J-SWEI