Journals
Sunday,Aug 28 2005, 05:38:14 AMmah trip to belau n love to JOSH!!
jOsh B. ngiRaswei
You are the love of my life.
A dream that stepped right out of my sleep.
You are my bitter and my sweet.
You are my weakness, my pain, my tear, my
Laughter, my joy and my strength.
You are more than a week, a month, or a year.
You are my blessing forever,
My friend, my life and my sweet lover.
May this love we've started continue on..
because babe.. I LOVE YOU
always did and always will!!!!
**i was in belau juss this summer..okei again cos i had to drop somethings off for mah family and i had to see mah honee!! well okei so i did go and though it took me forever i got there.. and we got to spend a nite at mah house and at his.. i met his whole family.. and he met mine.. oh mah gosh and his dad made us BELOCHEL.. i had such a time.. meral mle ungil a asi er ngii anest to God never did have em with any guy i went out with so when his dad was all saying, "eleoch el buchelsechal" i was like kekeke... im juss 20 """COME ON NOW""" lols e babe i love you.. well yeah josh been so good to mah family and i swear i love his family every single one of em... i am so happy with mah life rite now.. all im doing now is trying to fullfill our PROMISE.. his parents has agreed and mine cant be happier to see us together so yeah.. well almost everyone in mah family likes josh so i think imma be happy with this one..
well okei so yeah i came to hayward juss yesterday i got stuck in hawaii, i had fun though id miss mah babey juss happy to be there for Kieth and Lyolas wedding and their barbecue... also had fun withObzy and Casmir ma Bich and all dat they did all da money they spent and for making every single one of em minute memorable.. yeah so i was stranded in Hawaii and we slowly split so i was stuck alone..and it took me 4 days to get on the flight to LA, TEXAS den back to SFO.. so yeah at the airport i met some Army studs... hehe di fake dimle Mcraylee Omelau..Tracy Nobuo, Jesita Pedro, and more.. plus Jason Riungel i think well he was pretty nice gave us buuch.. e meral imis el mle nice.. so yeah we were on a plane to Los Angeles and all split... Jason went to Missouri.. McRaylee and em went to Cincinnati and me Houston Texas.. den back to SFO.. well i got home and ate den straight to sleep. oh yeah EMAILED JOSH.. so yea das bout the story of mah trip wanna know more and da fun @ Hawaii email me.. hehe..
well now things are back to da same routine work and bunch of bullshit.. but one thing that i enjoy in mah whole life is JOSH BELTAU NGIRASWEI.. yeah babe i love you and i miss you.. thanks for taking me to Melekeok and being ur self oh by da way YOU AND MAH MOMS anest u both do ur thing ak mla dead ra mondai,.. hehe love you so much baby.. well i will keep mah promise and u and i will live happily forever and ever.. betik a renguk er kau.. well babe i miss you and ill keep on emailing you!!
TO JOSH: babe i know uve heard it enough but thanks for all youve done and thank your mom and dad for da belochel.. betik a renguk er kau el imis ra ulis e diak a mo tomelii a delongeld.. like u said... we are stuck together and im happy with it anest to GOD meral imis el soak kau e soak el melemolm ra klengar er ngak lobengkem.. love you!!
Sunday,Aug 7 2005, 05:18:19 AMgivin mah shoutouts/mah love
Hey here i am juss sitting feeling like shit i swear..
. i was suppose to leave to belau tonyte den things came up so i reschedule for tommorow.. well its official supposedly so i should be in belau by tuesday nite.. cant wait man.. its crazy.. but yeah ill be there..ive been having a funny feeling about all dis but o well.. things do happen for a reason.. [so i believe] well so yeah no worries no matter wat... im always going to be alrite.. ngak a motol kodep [di daits] lol but yeah! ive talked to rush ngiramengior well weve been talking cos he's about to be deported to iraq.
[sux i know..im hatin] but he seems to be happy so as long as i know that he would be fine its okei. well yall know pretty much all da details in mah life so i dont need to be braggin all da time..
**juss a quicky for mah friends..esp. PHS class of 2003..[where ever you all are..dont forget to wish upon dat star...i know deep in mah heart dat everythings going to be fyne.. i miss yall... and holla back its been awhile] rush ngiramengior..ill be praying for u bro,, u know ill miss you..all da souljah.. im proud of yall...
**to mah fambam da K O D E P.. esp mi madre..mi padre..mi hermana mi hermano.. te amo... mucho mucho.. lol.. love yall too much.. and to mah sis obzy whose bout to be goin to training.. ill miss u and i love u... bilang in da navy.. holla chicah.. miss tu.. kirvie..sis palau wont be da same without u..miss u millions.. to mah sis..TELM NGIRACHITEI, girl cant thank you enough.. u been there through thick n thin.. love you millions chicah! im always here for u! Dilu, ayayayaiiiii miss u millions... ill see u in about two days,, hehe but yeah girl imma be here for you endlessly.
**to everyone whose been there for me every step of da way. da strangers dat made mah days..teachers esp. merline for leading me da rite path.. for teaching me da essential knowledge of life.. hehe and every single person who gives a smile.. may GOD BLESS!
**to 
JOSH BELTAU NGIRASWEI..babe i will love you always.. always did always will.. no matter wat happens between u and me.. ngidi modengei el kmo YOU AND I WILL BE FRIENDS FOREVER!! 
tOech
jOsh
LOVES
kk yall.. tekker thanks for stopping by and HOLLA atcha GIRL... aite den PEACE!!
..::miSs mOtOL sHerrie kOdep::..
Tuesday,Aug 2 2005, 09:45:52 AMaint nothing interesting,,same ol'
Aite yall dats been me da past month yadda dai mean? hehe donno how to spell dat but o well kk tekker GOD bless and hope to hear from yall soon.. Enjoy da remanding of ur summer!! Peace.. MiSskOdep ra jSwei is OUTTA HEA! Hey its been awhile since I stopped by..well mah summer has been great so far,, and mah gosh im inlove with dis perfect gentlemen whom I juss got off da phone with.. I miss him..da love of mah life MR JOSH B. NGIRASWEI. Well things have been alrite lately.. Emails phonecalls.. People tryin to mess us up and all dat shit but weve pulled through and dats the beauty of us.. We have always been able to accomplish things together and we are accomplishing now so im very happy. Nothing much have been going on except that im taking a trip to see mah boo in less than a week so im so happy bout dat. Funny how dis may sound but I juss found out dat someone still likes me. See it may be good news if I was not with anyone and still like da guy.. But I have someone who is willing to be there for me and understand wat im going through and all dat crap in mah life and vice versa so I really don’t see a reason to leave all dis. I care bout da dude I really do, but im in love with JOSH and dats dat. Its been a journey dis past months and I can honestly say it was rough.. Fighting all da rumors..da jealousy da dumping and all da crying. But I made it and GOD had a plan for me. So im juss so freakin thankful that I made it and I want to thank mah family especialy mah boyfriend Josh for sticking by me through it all. I would also like to say, 
IM SORRY IF I EVER DID HURT ANYBODY I SWEAR ON MAH LIFE I AM. TO SOMEONE EL DI NGII EL MEDENGELII.. THANK YOU FOR FORGIVING ME. YOU ARE SUCH A SWEET PERSON AND I THANK YOU FOR THAT. Well things been pretty much da same me loving missing and wishing to be with JOSH
… mah family and most of all mah friends, also work and mah management training is in progress finally. Another thing is that IM HAPPY AGAIN. AND I THANK EVERYONE WHO HAD A SAY IN IT,, YALL HELP ME AND ILL BE FOREVER THANK FUL..To mah baby.. I LOVE YOU AND I MISS YOU.. SEE U IN A WEEK BABY! 