Journals
Wednesday,Mar 28 2007, 01:14:25 PMkodrat
jalani apa yang benar kuyakini..
kodrat tak terhubung, biar tetap menjadi urusanNya..
aku diberi..maka hanya dapat kujaga..
tak sampai kugali..atau kusandari..
karena bila percayaku runtuh..
saat imanku jatuh..
masihkah kodrat menjadi acu..?
wajib harus menjadi rambu..
jiwa harus sadar,
mataku jangan sampai nanar..
maka bangunlah, raga...
.....eh ah eh......start it again!!
Wednesday,Mar 14 2007, 10:56:38 AMtalking of immoral act
09.30 pm.....march,13,2007.
*berhenti disini.by.syaharani* ( my ringtone for his sms)
sighs in between lurking and overwhelming! he sent me a message!!open it with heart-fully mind..*wish i got the mind*
"mu invest bareng buat caps lagi?! need ya,mit!"
some words i bolded and underlined on the sentence. NEED YA! though for idolsake*knapa mesti idol*hehe..i got a sense of needing me for money.
yet it's fine! overdub this brain..need no right!!!!
I've invested uncountable hours, logical thought of being arrested by you..and some remains of tortured feeling. Now its just about money, why not then..??
"laporan yg kemaren mna..? klo gede" mah aku gk mampu, **. kao apkabr..? ktemuan aja bsok." (status : delivered)
wanna type.."I love you"..(love or lust..? hehe). successfuly induced the immoral act-side
1 hour...2 hours..3 hours.. got no more reply.
meanwhile, a part of mine had been taken..
who is talking to behalf of who now?
who is mumbling of loving now..?
whose side is the pore now..?
whose side is the space now..?
and still the music muses, rhythm grooves, body moves..
for whatsoever times, found me again..
on a bed, sobber accompanied... let bygone be bygone*wishin did it!*
by listening to syaharani's song..
witnessed more loss..
.....mitut loves u..
Tuesday,Mar 13 2007, 03:01:00 PMsleepy poem
conquer thousands seconds these eyes could still open..
shed tears caused by sleepy hours..
aint you, Love but a need of midday-dream
shade of pillow come acrross the mind then..
roll over demand of lust..
why should it be that gentle to put head on..?
imagining is a sin..
unless denying just like a clap of hands..
fall and fall again..
on the teddy-bear-bed like i wish on my desk,
confronting..
not spoiling with dream-scented..
oh, i need no sleep..
.....opossant of sleep..hehe..031207..
Monday,Mar 12 2007, 05:04:42 AMaku...Mitut..prajna..Pramirtha..
siapa ragamu..?
bukankah Pramirtha namamu..?
namun pikir tak selalu..
lantas siapa Mitut..?
Prajna kemudian..
adakah satu sisi bercermin..?
Mitut memberi, Prajna mengintimidasi, Pramirtha menggali...
akur menjalani..
ilusi berganti..
Dia, kamu, aku berdiri..
...before U*..031207...
Saturday,Mar 10 2007, 09:51:43 AMcrash
we are all living behind these glasses..and metals surround..
need a crash to break...determine what the virtue for you is..
see..we're different in a sense of similarity..
reflections gave me two layers that confusing..
why just get it molested all over my body..?
elegi - elegi ini mulai lagi berbicara.. bisakah tanpa mengganti dimensi..?
lelah bila kendali harus terhempas..
siapa yang akan menjawab kemudian..?
mereka kamu laknati..taruh diatas keberadaan yang tak dapat terhengkang..
dimana..
semua hanya akan menjadi dua arah,
aku tidak tunduk kepada kemunafikan..
aku akan menenangkan..tapi tak pandai memenangkan..
jangan mempercayai kebenaran, segala yang terucap dari yang kamu sebut aku..
cukup untuk diri..
ketika lebih darimu mengerti..tidak aku dapat lagi absolut diri..
aku terhimpit..dalam langit kemerahan malam ini..
dalam jarak yang dicaci..rindu tak siap mengganti..
masih mampu aku menilai...?
...and they're just gone....
awakening my loss
soaring the fragance of hell into my senses..
*mitut..go back! p.s.031007*