As the moon's light is burnin my obscured eyes and i aint bein able to see clearly thru these misty eyes.. My visions seems to be blurry just like my life...Unsure of what emm vieiwin is real or just an illusion ?? .I dont know why i feel everythin to be superficial which lets me think.. Is everythin artificial ??? Even my shadows has gone against me and it seems to be chasing me to chaos... makin me feel empty inside.

I dont know what's happening to me ?& dunt know where my destiny is takin me to ? whether i will ever reach the place i'd always dreamt to be.!!! or not?.i just keep drownin in these ocean of my questions...& make myself busy inventing new thoughts...Then again i ask myself till when I got to live a fake life ? crack an unreal smile and pretend as if everything is allright!!..

  I just dont know anythin except for the fact that is i'm just  turnin cynical..day by day....However hard i try to be optimistic ....at the end of the day the negativity just engulfs me...completely.i m sick of bein like this and sick of how the life's treating me & I wonder when this fire of anxieties,pessimism extinguish..or will it keep on burning till the time i fade away.???

..Every night my eyelids  wrestle to get some  sleep..and escape frm the grip of insomnia that has took hold of me so tightly....and whenever i try to sleep the only phrase that keep lingerin in my mind is that.[i.e the line frm Green day's song]..

   
"Am i demented or am i disturbed ? or maybe i'm stucked in the space thats between insane & insecure..I know nobody's perfect and i stand accused for the lack of better word & thats my best excuse"....................

 I've completely chucked out the words "If only i had..." etc from my vocabulary and have stoopped regreting for my past mistakes in order to prevent frm getting further heartburns....Today the only things that gives me anxieties are.."the fear of the unknown miseries in my path ahead & uncertainties about the future!!! I'm really scared of floating in cloud no.9..i.e "bein blissful" thinkin i might fall down again!!!...& injure myself again!

 All my life, I was constantly chasing dose fake dreams and was dwellin in false hopes & nostalgia...which ultimately proved to be da most disastrous event of my life which made me lose my self-respect,confidence & gained nothin else than....anxiety,melancholy & hollowness inside my heart..

Indeed its been kinda hard to be optimistic...but i m tryin hard to be as positive as i can-- and i m tryin to view all my bitter experiences,problems as my oportunities to grow stronger.....As it is said "Every end is the new begininng.." ..So just by acknowledgin the unpleasant incidents for what they were a learnin process i've learned to move on wid my life and be a Happy, Optimistic gurl again..

Today..i dont regret any single moment of my life....b'cuz if i had never gone through those hard experiences then.....and i would have never become the person that i m today.. Thus today  i can say LOUDLY & PROUDLY that "I got no ReGrets in my life"