Journals
Sunday,Jan 30 2005, 08:26:39 AMmost of you didn't watch the movie "Escape...
most of you didn't watch the movie "Escape From Hong Kong Island" that i mentioned in the last entry. it wasn't a very popular one even in HK. i'm going to talk about the movie here and i don't think it'll spoil anything because frankly i really don't think most of you who read this will see the movie.
i was actually going to post about this movie last time, but it turned out to become the entry where i cursed about zorpia losing my entry. that's what it was about. (another thing to curse about zorpia... it loaded some idiot's site design for everybody on zorpia's journals [i mean who in their right mind would use Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles as a background?])
anyway. this movie is about a guy, Mak Dau (Jordan Chan). he is a very talented and smart person who is a high level manager at a stock agent company, at a young age. he does very well at his job and no one matches him or comes even close. however he demands very high salary and has a bad attitude toward other people, and because he IS indeed very bright, others have to look upon him and treat him well.
one morning he goes to work and gets fired by his boss for his high demands and bad attitude. he is to be hired immediately by a competing company in the Kowloon peninsula, which sits across the Victoria harbor from Hong Kong Island. however his new boss requires him to get there by 5pm to be hired.
right when he leaves the company, he is robbed cleanly and not a dollar is left on him.... and he also lost his ID and everything and the bank declines to withdraw him any money. just when he needs help.... nobody's there to help him. he doesn't have any friends. everyone else talked nicely to him before because of his status. he is fired right now and is jobless at the moment. he cheated on his girlfriend and broke up. she was still kind enough to lend him $300 but because of a series of unfortunate event and his own greed it went down the drain. he never treated his family well.. even though he is so rich, he never shared any with his sister and brother and they still live in the poor housing area provided by the government. when he comes back to find them he can't even begin to ask them for money because of their situation. what can he do? there's not much time left until 5pm and he's still stranded on HK Island...
the whole story of the movie, you could say it doesn't make a lot of sense because you would say how can someone have such bad luck in 1 day? but at the same time it does make a lot of sense also. i mean, everything is logical and smooth in the movie, it's very well done.
but the point is.... i can tell that i am very well on my way to becoming the arrogant character that Mak Dau is. when i was watching the movie i could see myself in him for many times. i actually was afraid that i would encounter such things one day if i keep on like this. i think this movie taught me to be a better person. i don't know how well it affected others who watched it, if at all, because i frankly don't think many people can identify with Mak Dau. but i did almost cry, seeing his misfortunes, because i was able to fit myself into that character too well.
Tuesday,Jan 25 2005, 06:58:34 PMsometimes i think about how easy i've had it...
sometimes i think about how easy i've had it throughout all my life. i had a good childhood, went through schools with no troubles, got a job with little to no significant problems. i'm almost sheltered in a sense. my path was set for me by both my parents and the heaven. i had little to worry about throughout my life other than academical things. i'm afraid that because of how everything is balanced in the world and it IS a fair world after all, i may get compensated for all these good things i get in my life by a shorter life time. i mean... look at anita mui, danny chan, wong ka kui (of beyond). they were the greatest stars of all time in HK and they died young. or, if not, i'm also afraid that because of how smooth my life has been and how i'm always looked upon to be the brightest one of the crowd, one day when things don't go my way i'll be like Jordan Chan in Escape From Hong Kong Island... everybody would turn against me. i actually think i would very easily become a person like Mr. Mak Dau if in the next few years my life still goes so smoothly. but then i thought about something too. the above was not entirely true. even though my life has been easy, it doesn't mean i haven't made any efforts. i admit that from the outside, it looks very much like i had gotten to where i am now easily with no pain, no suffering, and had it all laid out to me. but it's not really like that in reality. i bet less than 1% of the people who know me (not even my family) know that in the past few years i worked so hard, had so much pressure that there were a couple of times i cried alone in the shower/in the sleep because i can't handle all the things happening to me at once, including academical and personal relationships. it's easy to say that i've achieved all that stuff academically, but only the person who went through it himself knows how much pain and effort was put into the process -- it's simple to say but definitely no easy task to manage those A's. i've been through tons of times when my friends get to relax and have fun and i have to stay in the lab to work. i admit that, when i look back at my life, even i myself would say i've had an easy life. i understand how others would think of me like that. because even i would. but under that surface others don't know the times when i had so much stress that i broke down in the shower and cried (and kept quiet about it because i didn't want to let my housemates know that i did). others don't know the times when i hold off my hunger for 10 hours because i REALLY AM that busy and don't have time to eat. people (other than my few programming fellows) don't know the times when i get so frustrated at my work i go out of my mind. (gotta say sorry to Brian Ho, Kevin, Jay [in particular, among others] who got randomly yelled at by me all the time just for asking a question when i'm programming and frustrated. you guys are the greatest. not many ppl would've put up with me for all that) when you say "that's nice, it's so good for you that you got a job already" i would say thanks, but i also don't want you to think that i had it easy. i want you to remember that when you were sleeping, when you were playing basketball, badminton at the gym, when you were out at Sac having dinner, i was in the lab working. i did not just have a job offer handed to me. i worked for the grades and skills to put on my resume, and knowledge that allowed me to do well in the interview. it took effort.
Tuesday,Jan 25 2005, 01:31:06 PM無須擔心中傷 無須擔心 掛上死相 人
無須擔心中傷 無須擔心 掛上死相
人無須這樣 時時亦有不安的動向
望習以為常
Sunday,Jan 23 2005, 07:53:48 AM其實我不用不開心。 上天待我真不錯
其實我不用不開心。
上天待我真不錯﹐
由出生起﹐都順順利利﹐
要什麼有什麼。
以往一些比較重要的不如意的事﹐
往往到頭來都會發現﹐
其實那些事發生了比沒發生更好。
有些東西有時真的不能強求。
那個她既然還沒出現﹐
就等一下吧。
緣份其實已編好了劇情和時與地﹐
隨著直覺去碰去試可見著姻緣發生﹔
若要發生又那需要看地圖﹐
就這麼立志前行﹐便見到你。
Sunday,Jan 23 2005, 02:08:18 AMtoday the CSA BBQ event was the most fun i've
today the CSA BBQ event was the most fun i've had in a long while! much thanks go to CSA officers for planning this event =) i know you guys do work hard.
yeah i've been in a generally not too happy mood lately, but today was a good change. it was really nice to see so many people showed up, we had loads of fun playing games.