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Monday,Feb 28 2005, 11:11:10 AM模仿是我的專長。 為什麼我什麼都懂
模仿是我的專長。 為什麼我什麼都懂﹐都做得似模似樣﹖ 但其實什麼都只是半桶水。 imitation is my strength. people wonder why do i seem like i know/know how to do everything, but not good at anything? i realize that there are many things that i thought were easy tasks but many people cant really get ahold of it or do a bad job of it. but i am able to do a much better job and even look like im an expert at it. but truth of the matter is that im not even expertise at that field. (the only field i can say i am actually an expert at is programming, EVERYTHING else you think i'm good at were either just some practice, plain luck, or my imitation which fooled you) its because those are things that i see other people (experts) do, and then i just learn from them and imitate them. the outcome is usually that people are surprised i can do [insert something random here... such as singing, rapping, dancing, writing (technical or otherwise), etc.] so well, how come, like, damn why are you born with so many natural talents and all. no. it's nothing. the only talent i have is imitation. i imitate what i see/hear/experience/feel others do very well. for example, my coworker said my technical writing is very good. just to let you know, i've never trained in or taken any class of technical writing. i just read enough technical writing that i automatically write that way when i need to do any of it. then it turned out to look professional and others start thinking its good when i have no idea what i'm really doing. another example, i do good web design (at least not as bad as many others, i would say. of course nowhere near pros like Quad). that's only because i visit enough web sites of all kinds so that when i'm assigned to design a web site for a certain company/organization/category of content, i automatically know what to design it to look like so that it looks like i know what i'm doing. truth be told, i don't have a clue. (that's probably why i don't do web design anymore. exactly. i do not have a clue.) i guess the other thing that helps is that i'm not afraid to try. some people are always reluctant to try anything new. some people don't want to try something because they think they are not good at it or they can't do it. that's not me. i try everything. really, once you put your courage into doing it, usually how you do will improve by a whole lot. sometimes it's not as much you really suck at it as you just don't have the heart to do it. for example, you think you can't rap? how do you know? for once just try to rap along a song you're listening to, and then next time do it without it playing on your music player. maybe you can rap. you think you freakin suck at basketball? (i know i do) just go on the field to play with your friends anyway, put all your heart into it, you'll do better than you think.
Saturday,Feb 26 2005, 10:58:34 AMi have a lotta weird feelings lately. how...
i have a lotta weird feelings lately.
how come?
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a few of my friends that always seem like they have good relationships (looking from an outsider) are actually pretty messed up at the moment. maybe it's a bless to stay single and stay out of it.
Friday,Feb 25 2005, 10:21:16 AM這裡面存在快樂人物嗎 眾生都有因因
這裡面存在快樂人物嗎
眾生都有因因此也有果嗎
今生接到喜歡角色嗎
天荒地老轉轉角色吧
do you get the meaning in this piece of lyrics?
from eason chan - 萬佛朝宗.
think about it.
Wednesday,Feb 23 2005, 11:41:01 PMa college campus is very much like world of...
a college campus is very much like world of warcraft in many ways.
in WoW, you can tell what profession people do by looking at what they carry around and go around gathering. a skinning knife? leatherworking and skinning. a mining pick and smithing hammer? mining and blacksmithing. a mining pick and some engineering materials laying around in inventory? engineering and mining. a full bag of herbs everywhere they go? alchemy and herbalism.
in college, you can tell what majors people are by looking at what they carry around. big drawing board? art studio. reading novels on the bus? probably english or something related. a shoe box? electrical engineering/CE/CSE (the shoe box holds the circuit board, for the uninformed). and i saw this weird tube thing some girl carries around today on the bus, i think it's some bio/chem thing.
Wednesday,Feb 23 2005, 09:34:06 AMi'm not normally a person to help out others...
i'm not normally a person to help out others a lot. at times when i do, such as helping out my friends with hw and programs, it's only because i think i can benefit from it as well - after all, you learn a lot more of what you teach others.
but there's this friend of mine who i for some reasons want to help a lot. it may be because i feel a lot of pity for him because of his situation in life. i don't know why i don't usually have the feeling to help out others much (even as simple as giving others ride), but for him i always feel that i owe him something and want to help him out to make up for it. it may be because i owe him in our previous lives. he may have been a vet (animal doctor?) in his previous life. he must have saved me from some big illness or something in my previous life. (since i was a dog in my previous life)
(yes, like many traditional chinese, i believe in previous lives and next lives. and i also do have basis on the statement that i was a dog in my previous life. i'll skip the details for now.)
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on an unrelated note.
http://www.reallifecomics.com/20050223_1386.png
is this called sleep deprivation? i didn't even know. i thought it was normal. i feel this way EVERY MONDAY. -_-