Journals
Thursday,Jun 30 2005, 05:00:33 AM慢慢地學會
i've learned something important over the past week.
back then, i would look at similarities between her and me, ignore the differences, and try to make it seem like we would match each other.
i've now learned to tolerate and live with the differences. admitting and accepting our differences in personalities, tastes, likes and dislikes is the first step in understanding and accepting each other. trying to ignore the differences is only lying to myself. admitting that we are people of two different worlds but still accepting the fact and continuing to like her is the only right thing to do.
feeling for somebody is not something stemming from her outer appearance. it's not something stemming from realizing how much the two of you are alike and match each other. it is something that simply happens for this particular individual, that is it. you like someone because she is who she is. not because she is cute. not because you two are similar. not because you can see how good of a wife she would be if you get to marry her.
就怪這夜太過藍
藍得想去擁吻她
平日戀得很懶
火花很有限
就怪每日太過煩
煩得不想講說話
就算她在我家
忘記細緻看她一眼
難得 她體恤我吧
忙得 疏忽戀愛嗎
男生 今天不夠當初可愛
她都忍了嗎
難得 她喜歡我吧
傻得 忠於戀愛嗎
男生 很多虧欠 即刻要償還
good song.
Sunday,Jun 19 2005, 10:45:42 AMfrom kinnikuman to starcraft
ive just recently come back to playing starcraft...
even though i've only been back for a while,
i've re-watched some of my old replays, i felt that i am already better than what i was before.
the key point to so many winnings in the past is good team work. teaming with kit and my bro makes us win so much and so easily -- so much that we didn't actually need that much individual skills. i watched replays of both my old games and my recent games, it seems like i've already become a better player now -- all from playing my own games with strangers.
it's like the idea from kinnikuman. teamwork and friendship is a good thing, but when you rely too much on it, you lose individual skills and growth. you have to become independent and on your own to get better. you should maximize your personal potential before combining forces with teammates.
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為何望來望去 仍無下文 明明彼此有同感
難道等一天變做熟人 發現原來相襯
可否冷靜看一陣
都有幾個人靠近
現在還未算 纏綿情節會逐漸降溫
遲來一秒鐘 遲凝一秒鐘 從而接你變做目送
遲來一秒鐘 沿途經過和結局 其實太不同
遲遲未預備 第一句愛你 已經足夠蘊釀暗湧
盼望猶豫未決的情人回信 猶如行刑縣在半空
拖一拖 等一等
怕得到得來已是無用
拖一拖 等一等
這刻的感動變做裂縫
良辰就如白費 明明動情 怎會不敢作聲
提示很充足 但你的態度 永遠不得要領
相戀要是有天命
都要等你來確認
現在還未算 纏綿情節會逐漸結冰
遲來一秒鐘 遲凝一秒鐘 良緣永遠這樣斷送
遲來一秒鐘 仍然等你來告白 何事你都未動容
明明在附近 又不告訴你 太多戀愛這樣告終
怕在離場後接到遲來情信 其時和旁人在抱擁
拖一拖 等一等 怕這點激情最後模糊
拖一拖 等一等
終於知表白刻不容緩
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如果我是項少龍﹐回到了古代
能和兩三個愛人在一起
那就不用揀﹐不用煩了
wahahahah...
(NOTE: I AM SPEAKING FOR KEVIN LAM. NOT MYSELF.)
(but... i agree. :D)
Sunday,Jun 19 2005, 09:13:37 AMmy commencement
graduation ceremony... writing coming later, pics from the day: (so far got pics from father, jenna, kit.. still need others) in no particular order.. ex-"CS 3 swordsmen" (reason being ex is we don't take same classes anymore since junior..) - brian ho, alan mak, me ECS150 team re-union - kit, jason, me, brian all my supporters~ me and business man eric the hair dying gang - gold hair ken, me, sharon me and the flower of EE/engineering melissa my flower putting on my candy wristlet (wristlace?) for me me and the good ol EE folks - manki, philip, me, kenny, andrew - these guys and i go all the way back to dorm ages el cerrito hax0rz - jonathan, me, kit me and my sidekicks - brian, me, eric, ghetto ray, kit me and my angels - jenna, teresa, me, tammy, candy me and my 8-year friend jenna me and CSA president teresa i swear, the ground/gravity is tilted - brian, me, eric my lawyer look - jonathan, me, my bro (back) yup, that's me dinner gathering afterward - eric, brian, me, lulu, kenneth dinner gathering afterward - jenna, kenneth, tammy me sleeping during the dinner - so tired THANK ALL OF YOU WHO CAME TO MY GRADUATION *LOTS* !!!!!!! LOVE ALL YOU GUYS FROM THE HEART !!! <3 <3 <3 :D -- it seems like the fact that i've graduated hasn't really sunk in yet. this feels like a regular summer break right now, actually. commencement was nice. only downside was that i never found a couple of people during the recession to take pictures with. most importantly kevin fat lam, and also others like joshua go, thaya k, etc. quite a lot of people went, also a lot of others who didn't go. what else do i want to write? thanks jenna and teresa and tammy for the nicely picked and dedicated gift for me.. and the card! thanks melissa for all those home made cookies and everything and my wristlet! thanks quad for coming all the way from bay area to davis to attend my graduation ceremony! thanks brian for making time to come to this and only this commencement [even with other stuff to do] out of all the other ones, because of me! thanks kit & candy for coming as promised even though the other housemates didn't go anymore! and everyone else who came... all those who appeared in the pics above... and many who aren't...
Thursday,Jun 16 2005, 07:35:19 AMdifferences
很好﹐很好。 我領會到那些才是真正值得關心/關心我的朋友。 一起經歷過風霜的就是會有那麼的一層與別不同的感情。 和那些外面像是很要好但其實內裡莫不關心的朋友是有分別。 其實﹐人與人之間如果建立了曾一起風吹雨打那種情誼﹐ 即使疏遠了﹐情也是常在。 相反﹐淺搏的朋友只是因常在一起而熟絡起來﹐ 根本都沒有真正關心對方的心﹐ 像俗語說﹐“話之拒死”。 as a note of thanks... thanks to all of you who can make time to come to my commencement. and also sorry to those of you who really wanted to come but i don't have an extra ticket for you. (curse them for requiring tickets for graduation ceremony) -- in another related note, i don't get why people can be such assholes and use such extremely lame excuses to back out of things. to not offend anyone, i'll keep their identities secret and their excuses secret (because revealing them means revealing their identities). but you get the idea. why they accepted to go when they didn't really care to in the first place is beyond me. i don't know if they ever heard of such thing, but there's something in our world called planning. if you were going to have valid reasons to not go, or didn't want to/care to go, just say no in the first place. you don't say yes and pull some lame excuses later on to screw people over. COMMENCEMENT REQUIRES A TICKET, YOU KNOW. when you say you're going, i'm reserving a ticket for you, a ticket that i could've used to ask someone else to go in the first place, if you were to say no. this is a real world and things you do affect other people. in sim city or something you could say you want to keep something but you're not sure if you're going to use it at all. that's fine. greed. it's nothing wrong. we all have that. it's all your own business too, after all. but people need to grow up and realize they're not living in a world centered around themselves. saying "oh, i'm gonna go, you're reserving a ticket for me." and later on saying "oh i'm not going to go, screw you, because i have other better things to do" is not the best way to let a friend know that you care for him. and we're talking about college commencement here, an once-in-a-lifetime thing. it's not like i'm asking you to go to fucking dinner with me. if you are even somewhat uncertain whether you can go or not, let me know. for example, i asked alexis (that's Xero on Quad's Duality weblog) to come to my commencement too. he has other things to do that day and might not be around davis at all. he let me know this and said not to have to reserve a ticket for him. that's the right way one should do it. it just so happens that this is happening with not one but a second thing as well, with another set of individuals. camping. IF YOU SAID YOU WERE GOING TO GO, DON'T BACK OUT LATER ON WITH SOME LAME EXCUSES. stuff needs PLANNING, again. backing out screws up plans. come the fuck on, it's already annoying enough when i ask someone to go to dinner and they back out right before it with some lame excuses. for a dinner, it's fine, i'll just go grab something at KFC or bake a frozen pizza and take care of things, even though it WAS annoying. but we're talking about a travelling trip now. YOUR BACKING OUT FUCKS UP EVERYBODY ELSE'S PLANS. gosh, can't people look ahead?? some of those excuses are so fucking lame you'd just stare at it and go "wtf" because it's so ridiculous. if it's nobody's interest to go, maybe we should just throw off the whole plan altogether.
Wednesday,Jun 15 2005, 11:41:09 AMlast night at the 24?
it's the last finals.
i spent what i think should be the last night i'd spend at the 24 hr study room in the Davis campus library (if i don't come here just 'for fun' in the future..).
i already miss it. =/