Journals
Wednesday,Aug 31 2005, 08:08:53 PMpunishment on human beings
first there was the tsunami, and then there's hurricane katrina. (well, a while ago there was SARS too, but it seemed like nobody other than HK people considered it a big deal) natural disasters. God doesn't forget to leave out any part of the world. this only reminds me of Edmond Leung's song, from after the SARS, called "Tale of a Dead City" 廢城故事: 人這樣渺小 竟反了天 恐慌裡會望見甚麼的遠見 繁盛炒得太高 人性知得太淺 欠上帝 人太狂妄需要天洗禮 (full lyrics) translation for the non-chinese readers: Humans are such microscopic, but they angered the heavens What kind of long-term plans can you still see under this horror/disaster? Metropolitan is too advanced, but we know too little about humans and the universe We owe God.. Humans are too arrogant and need cleansing from God.. it's God's way of punishment for human beings as a race in general...
Wednesday,Aug 31 2005, 05:18:54 AMa lot of time
today was almost the first day, ever since i started work, where i basically had nowhere to go after work (and i got off work on time at 5:00 sharp). i came back around 6, washed dishes from days ago, cooked dinner, washed dishes again, finished eating and everything and it was only 8. i even showered and still had plenty of time to chill around. i think in the long run i'm going to have a lot of nights like these. it would actually allow me to do something at night...
by having nothing to do, i mean not having anyone to go to dinner with, not eating out, not having to do grocery shopping, not having to clean up the room, not swimming, and etc. i have so much free time in the evening.
Monday,Aug 29 2005, 08:28:31 AMJust thinking
looking at My Pictures folder make me miss my senior year again. here are some more pics from Vegas trip that i never posted before (there were too many, i could only pick): check out my taunt the general consensus seems to be that i look handsome in this pic =/ i always fall asleep at brookstone. you can see my Chapman To hairstyle (from infernal affairs) here. on that little train. that train ride is cool btw. Paris buffet -- my favorite. better than Bellagio! Bellagio - the king of them all - how could i forget to post this pic before? D4 striking a pose eric me brian looking top tier me and denise mixing drinks D4 shooting commercial for the furniture store D4 standing by D4 commercial for Victoria's Secret -- women wear this because D4 likes it. the famous D4 walk something that not many ppl know -- D4 actually did go to Universal Studios together one time. except it was closed. D4 - drunk 4 i miss that trip so much again!
Thursday,Aug 25 2005, 10:38:36 PMis this maturity or being tired of the world?
i remember back when i first entered Davis, i never forget to let new people that i meet what kind of a dedicated/genius programmer that i am. i would let everyone know all about my Agum Network history, self-learned CGI scripting, and how much money i made with agum.com back then, when i was only a little high school kid. i didn't even care if they were non-online kind of folks and don't even care a bit about any of it. (i was reminded of this because as i was talking to Thaya and Artem earlier, as they are my co-workers now, i realized that i never told them about my agum.com business before; even though they should be the ones to know as they too are interested in this kind of stuff.) after 4 years, i'm hardly the same anymore. i really have greater achievements than before, but i shy away from telling people about it. if anything, i *avoided* telling people where i was going to work at once i graduate out of college, besides those close to me. a common conversation between me and somebody i know would go, "what are you going to do after you graduate?" "i'm going to start working." "have you started searching for jobs yet?" "yeah, i've already found one actually." "oh that's great. where?" "oh i'm going to work in folsom. know where that is? it's near sacramento." if they continue to ask more about it such as what company it is, i would tell them. but i definitely don't go out my way telling everyone i know, "hey you know, i'm going to work for Intel after i graduate!" (those of you reading my journal will disagree, because you know what, if you're reading this, you're a close enough friend of mine that i would tell you good news about me myself) but, why? i think it's a lot of reasons. when people are grown-ups, many more variables are involved in the society. some of the simplest things are, for example, you can easily generate hate from others going around doing that. and then, there are people who may get upset because of their luck. i was very lucky to be able to get my job. many are not as lucky in the job-searching field. i understand this well because i have incredibly bad luck in something else (hint: relationships), and i am often very jealous of those who have good lucks in that field. a similar thing definitely happens with jobs. but i was also thinking, was it really because i grew more mature that i'm doing this? or is it REALLY because of something else? just tired of all othat talk and facing people in this topic? just tired of answering all the "what did you do to get your job?" kind of stuff from people who found out?
Wednesday,Aug 24 2005, 03:26:45 AMrandom topics
我間中飲醉酒 很喜歡自由 常犯錯愛說謊 但總會內疚 遇過很多的損友 學到貪新厭舊 亦欠過很多女人 怕結婚只會守 三分鐘諾言 曾話過要戒煙 但講了就算 夢與想丟低很遠 但對返工厭倦 自小不會打算 ＊但是仍 (在地球) 唯獨妳愛我這廢人 出錯妳都肯去忍 然而誰亦早知不會合襯 偏偏妳願意等 為何還喜歡我 我這種無賴 是話妳蠢還是很偉大 在座每位都將我踩 口碑有多壞 但妳亦永遠不見怪 何必跟我 我這種無賴 活大半生還是很失敗 但是妳死都不變心 跟我笑著捱 就算壞 我也不忍心 (偷偷作怪)＊ 沒有根的野草 飄忽的命途 誰像妳當我寶 什麼也做到 舊愛數足一匹布 在這刻寫句號 只想跟妳終老 REPEAT＊ 還喜歡我 我這種無賴 是話妳蠢還是很偉大 在座每位都將我踩 口碑有多壞 但妳亦永遠不見怪 何必跟我 我這種無賴 活大半生還是很失敗 但是妳死都不變心 跟我拼命捱 換轉別個 也不忍心 偷偷作怪 addicted to two songs lately: Ronald Cheng - Mo Lai Yumiko - Arabian Market and of course, as always, eason's entire U87 album. my company laptop has the Shamu adventure picture as my wallpaper (which looks kind of like this one but has an overall view of the whole theater as well). every time i stare at my desktop i'd think about the LA trip. it was so happy! life has been treating me really good. work is going really well. i'm actually doing useful things now, and i'm motivated to work. everything is going so well.