Looking over my journals i have really focused on the negitive of things. It is very true that at this time i have had a lot of emotional pain caused by others. To be honest a few from this site, but really i am not holding that against anyone. But the jouranl most read is a dream to never come true. Well i am here to tell you i am not distant to walk alone in this life.

Thinking to my self and trying to clear the fog in my mind. I finally see what i have been missing. A love so true starring at me, but some reason i was so blind to it. I am not going to struggle with why,'s and how's. I am just going to embrace the fact that a man loves me so true and i can not question that. I accept it and i am growing it to try to make it everlasting. Many will not understand and that is fine with me. Many will judge what they do not understand and that is ok because they do not know the truth. I will not require anyone to see things the way i do. All you need to understand is that i am finding the truth in me, the real me that has been lost for so long. Buried under the rubble i called a heart destroyed by broken promises. I see the light as i should, all the trash cleared out of my mind and was like finding the biggest discovery in the world. I may be in ruins like a ancient city but even ruin's have a rebirth by being discovered and be loved by someone very different. For the first time i smile and laugh and they are not fake but right from my heart. It is like atlantis coming back out of the ocean that swollowed it so long ago. I can not be brought down anymore. I am the light and truth.