Journals
Friday,Sep 28 2007, 05:56:46 AMMaude comes to Scarborough
Saturday,Sep 22 2007, 12:34:28 PM~#~ Memories of US~#~
Leave a comment on my page, leave one memory that you and I have together. It doesn't matter if you know me a little or a lot, anything you remember! Don't send a message, leave a comment. Next, re-post this bulletin and see how many people leave a memory about you. Funny to see the responses. Repost as "MEMORIES OF US"
*SMILES*
Chris (Thanks to Michelle one of my MySpace & Yahoo friends)
Wednesday,Sep 19 2007, 02:55:29 PMOPEN letter to Cali's friends from Cali
I have just recieved the folowing message from Cali, Dudge Australia, explaining her sudden departure from Zorpia.
I have known of her feelings now for sometime. There are other personal issues as well. If people respond here I will gladly pass them on to her.
Cali is another of my great friends. I totally respect her reasons and judgements.
A great shame she had to leave, I am so glad that I do still have contact with her.
*SMILES*
To my dear friends on zorpia, (19 September)
Well this is all I can do because I wanted to get this to you as soon as possible. I'm sorry that you can't ascertain a psychological profile of how crazy I actually am from my handwriting, or my body language, but if you stay with me, that may change.
One night I had an epiphany and decided that I just needed to leave zorpia. The amount of time that I spent on zorpia was inexcusable. I would have mounds of homework that I would neglect to just waste time checking my responses, and stirring people. For someone who is trying to graduate from college, time management is still an issue that needs urgent attention.
I'm also experiencing some minor health issues. Mm yes I've been popping 4 antibiotics daily for quite some time now (since the 7th of September actually). No alcohol and no excessive exposure to sunlight apparently. My life is over. Aside from that, I've been making numerous changes in my life such as quitting my weak-ass job, getting my hair done, getting a new phone number, moving furniture, etc.
Before leaving zorpia, I was perusing the thread, and came across the one in regards to Samara. Now, I didn't know the girl well, but Ionela asked some very good questions regarding her death, and the circumstances, which I agree, are still quite unclear. Perhaps they've cleared up? I haven't returned to zorpia since I left.
After creating that thread Ionela was grilled by many disgruntled zorpians. Not that I'm saying that it's not ok to be angry over worthy things: I myself still cannot be a tame pussycat when it's that time of the month, or when there's a pervert cracking onto me. Whatever your conception of her death may be, for the first time I'm not trying to be totally insensitive and tactless. If you've read this far, you must have some sort of twisted respect for what I'm saying. Please keep reading.
During my time on zorpia, I was scrutinised several times in respect to my photos and the origins of them. People could just not believe that they were me. Now, I could sound completely hypocritical being one of the most opinionated people, so I'm going to give a little bit of a disclaimer before I proceed. People have a right to their opinions, and if they have a view that is not the general consensus, they still have a right to convey how they feel. I had two choices with people of this nature: one was to give my trademark "f*ck off", or the other was just to try to get them to believe that I was being truthful.
I even had my identity verified. I refuse to have an account, let alone a _paid_ account on a website where I am being belittled, and undermined about my identity, whilst some fake has photos uploaded of several different people (I have screenshots), and then pretends to die. Showing your "friends" or death no respect whatsoever is sick, demented and completely pathetic in my humble opinion. I think that with all the evil in the world, we all need someone to make it all better. Whether it just takes a smile from them to make our troubles melt away... we all need that.
This whole saga made me gladder to be a misanthropist. I have no respect for someone who jostles around with - (nicer phrase for 'fucks with') - beautiful, kind, loving people who care too much. People who deserve better answers than some crappy hand-written letter. As Ionela rightly said, although we're on the computer accessing the internet, we're (well, most of us), are real people behind the screens.
I respect all of you for reading, and not just ignoring my explanation and reasoning. Remember that it's ok to question things every now and again. That's how we can bring about change. I understand that it's very tricky to discuss and question the circumstanes in which someone has died, and if I've caused any distress, I apologise.
The invitation to write me emails, send me letters, abuse, or see me live on camera (ooh baby) is open. dudge_girl@hotmail.com
Love and miss you all,
Alice .D