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Wednesday,Apr 29 2009, 06:05:00 AMA sad Story
At last I felt I had to write about this.
It was the sad music/tune, that Dukefan posted in my forum about saddest Sonngs
It made me think of a "daughter" (Internet kind) who recently said GOODBY! I still have not replied to her message telling me she didn't want to be in contact any more. I felt so hurt. I only partly understood her reasons
It is a long and complicated story! Believe me there is a LOT more, but I can't and dont't want to post everything here.
Basically I have known her since she was 16 and I was 61! She has been through a great number of bad times, and those are not yet over, But in 2000, the first time i "met" her in a Yahoo group our friendship seemed like one of those platonic relationships. Her life as a child was very difficult for her as her mother was violent to her when on the drink, and her father (whom she loved) was away a lot. I have actually spoken to both her Mother & father on the phone, as well as her herself. That was before I knew how bad things were between her and her mum. When she was 12 to 14 two of her teachers had sexually assaulter her (I believe) at school, and that caused her to have depression, Bi Polar, I think. She had a control freek of a b/f for several years, whom she loved, but he was always trying to stop her having friends he was the terribly jealous kind. He threatend suicide if she left him and she tried three times and went back (Because of that) then she finally made the break, and before he could get her back again she met another man who she said made her feel special. The previous b/f never comitted suicide, By the way! She took on the typing up of about a eight of my fathers plays, for me when she was between school & University. She told me she just loved typing, and often typed up her fellow students work for them. She did complete that, well, but it was well over a year before it was done. Her Bipolar depression got the better of her I think. I paid her for her work, even though she insisted I shouldn't, But I know at the time she NEEDED money for something. I did meet her for two hours in Perth (Austrailia) she said the new b/f was not at all happy about that! (I suspect he is another control freak) But at that time she was in TERRIBLE pain, and had to go to USA to see a specialist, and then in November she had a SERIOUS operation on her spine, and I was terribly worried and was praying and sending her cards to let her know I was thinking of her.
It was just after she returned home that the email arrived saying that she didn't want me to contact her again, as she had her life to live, and was going to be in pain the rest of her life, and wanted to concentrate on her friends and university study. But I think her b/F told her to end our relationship as he was jealous (This is only what I guess, I don't know!) I will have to try and make at least one more email to her asking about the book I am writing, which will include my visit when I met her in Perth. I am asking all I met to OK what I am writing about the meeting up. I will also be giving all those I met a copy of the book! I just don't know the best way to put it though. What was so upsertting was that suddeness of her breaking up just as I was still feeling so strongly about her recovering from her operation. It came as quite a shock. I dont want to say anything to upset her.
But I want to know how she is. But she said NOT to conact her. OR HER PARENTS!
In Her last email she said some lovely things, but she wanted me to respect her wishes.
I have been thinking about this since begining of December. And Dukefans sad song reminded me of this, and I felt I had to write about it.
*smiles, sad ones*