Monday,May 25 2009, 05:02:54 PMRIP

This journal i donated to my lovely cousin who was pass away since March 2006.

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"Hello Fai." It's my lovely cousin's voice. She was surprised me at home with smile but her voice wasn't good as normal.

"Hey Mang, how are you doing? I didn't see you for age." I said that because I know she is always busy with her work.

"I just missed you and your family. So I invite my friends to visit you but don't know why my friend can't come in to your house"

"Oh.. really? That's weird. Where do they wait for you? Just call them to come sit and rest here a bit"

"Thanks Fai, but I'm late now. I have to go. They are waiting for me"

"OK, see you soon. Next time try to stay longer. My parents miss you lots. Have a safe trip"

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"Hey Fai!!! Wake up now." That's my mom. That time I didn't know why she woke me up so early like this. It was just 10 am of Sunday.

"Mang was pass way last night. She got car accident on the way back to Bangkok. Your uncle drives to bring her body back today. We need to prepare for her funeral." She talked and cried a lot.

"........." I'm still blur with all I heard from mom. Is that true?

I was shocked a lot. I knew her for my whole life. We had been spent a lot of time together when we were young. I still remembered her character. She always acted like a boy but she were always angry if anyone said she is a lady boy.

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"Fai, could you please help me for the last time?" My cousin again. This time her voice was really sad.

"Yes, what do you want me to do?"

"Please tell my parents that I can't come back home anymore. And I love them so much" Her sounds was strange and make me got goose bump with that sentences.

"Why do you say like this? If you have any problem you can tell me. I am your sister." I'm really worried about her

"Thank you sister, but this time you can't help me anymore. I love you and your family too" After finished this, she walked away from me.

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GGGGGRRRRRRRRRRRRR ........ (Alarm ring)

I woke up again and this time I realized that all i heard is the truth. She came in my dream to let me communicate with all people she love.

I got up from bed with a lot of tears. It could show my feeling at that time.

After her funeral, I realized that the human life is so short. At least she did everything that she loved and she was happy with them. There are always many things that she still want to do but she couldn't do it anymore. But at least she had been done many things she loved already.

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Now, I learn to give and share my love with all people around me, my parents, my sister, my boyfriend, and my friends. I always look at the people who are lower then me and think that at least I'm luckier than them. I do the best in everyday of my life and It is my worth life. So when It is my turn to go, I don't leave anything behind me.


RIP, my sister.

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