well... i havnt bloggd here in agezz... shoz i dcided 2 do shoz... umz... gum wt 2 sai leh... mmz... jhzu i ghuess hpi burfdai 2 evri1  hu has a bdai in jan la... koz jan ish ku... n i mean d mnth... nt d prsn=P [sowi jan if yu got awl xcitd koz i sed yu were ku=P] mmz... ionoz... i ghuess i jhuz kindo wantd 2 change frm space 4 a bit... i mean... lyk... EVRY1 reads my space... n i dn want a crtain sum1 2... koz ima gna b referrin 2 him a lot... shoz ye... i dcided 2 change 4 a while...

deze few daiz... ive been lookin alot @ d past... n wt wnt on... n weda i regret it or nt... buh ye lor... ionoz... ive been missin sum1 alot l8li... n jhuz tkin abt him n all... i mean... i ghuess wt hpnd, hpnd 4 a reason... n i shudnt regret... buh ionoz... i ghuess i wz upst... koz i thot he xpktd so mch frm mi...[mai udaz didun... i jhuz did wt i wantd... wen i wnatd...] n i ghuess ive been a slfish bch... buh hey... hu am i 2 judge?! i ghuess i jhuz hafta sai... im sowi... n i do miss yu alot... im nt sure if i want anuda chance wid yu @ luv... buh d fing i miss most is b4 we were gpoin out... jhuz us 2... tokin @ nyt... abt anyfn n evrifn... gawd... wat i wudnt gib 2 hab dat wid yu agen...

 n den wid anuda speshcool sum1 ... i ghuess i miss tokin 2 yu 2... i wish dat we were still tokin as mch as we usd 2... i dno if it was bkuz yu were chasin mi n i didun no it... or maybi simpli bkuz fingz haf changed... buh ionoz... i wish i kud haf dose daiz bak..

. if yu askd mi which i wan more... its rli hrd 2 sai... i mean... dey were awl @ dif. stages ov my lyf... 1 wz bak in chatz... n wid evry1 dere... den d uda was when i lft... [sili lil mi... now evry1 noz hu im tokin abt ] buh hey ~! if yu no mi... it rli aint dat hrd 2 ghuess... n yuno wt... ive jhuz realisd sthn... even tho it took mi a longlong tym 2 gt ova sm1... i fink ive finali gtn ova him... no more finkin ov him... im now wishin him d veri bst n datz it... ><"[agen ne1 huz tokd 2 mi n noz mi wud no hu im on abt]

 oh wellz... i ghuess wats hpnd has hpnd./.. n i jhuz need 2 gt on wid it... im tryin... buh it aint werkin... gawd i hope dis yr dusnt bring mroe b/uz n relo probz dan last yr... az if last yr wznt enuf><"

mmz... chinksi nu yr shoon... hopefuli i wud gt a fresh nu strt... ><"

i rli must gt ova him... stop finkin abt evrifn...><" gawd... if onli><" mmz... well... i fink ive rambled on 4 long enuf... if yu red awl ov dat, i mst congratulate yu...n umz ye... 2 mai speshcool sum1... i 1ce sed dat yu wud alwaiz b spesh 2 mi... n i mean it... yu'll alwaiz b in mai s2... ><"

as we were sayin d uda nyt... y is it dat weneva i lyk sm1... n dey return dat feelin i push dem awai... im so sowi if ive hurt yu by doin dat.. i didun mean it... itz jhuz sthn i do nowadaiz... ><" maybii ish bkuz ov umz... him... buh den agen... maybi nt... ionoz... n i dn wna fink abt it @ d momnt... shoz ye... oh wellz... ima outiz nowz... bbz n tcz y'all