It’s funny we tell our children you can be whatever you want to be, you can do what you want to do, and you can have what desire. Now when I came to this earth and realized what I wanted it wasn’t a career, it wasn’t a house it wasn’t a car or anything material, what I wanted is first my true love, the person that encompassed everything that was inside of me, and more, and all that I was not she would be, and all that she was not I would be, better known as complimenting. Now as I dated from the time I was 16 I thought I found true love in many places but it was all a false alarm, just awakening the thoughts of what I really wanted in a mate. I have dated many, the list well I consider anything over 2months a relationship, Heather, Carmen, Melissa, Michelle, Cassie, Jessica, Eva, maybe Kelli, Nichole, Erika, Libby, Amy, and the very first which didn’t last long in person because she got sent away but Jovita. But I had many loves, many didn’t know I loved them, and some of the ones mentioned didn’t even see I loved them, of the major five, three ran away from my love, not for any reason but of fear in my eyes, scared I was not what I said I was, afraid I was going to hurt them, ect and whatever. But as I look back I see this, what is wrong with love, I have put my neck on the line with all these women I tried my hardest with all these women, and if they say I didn’t they are a lie, Oh sorry, Erika I was stuck on stupid with my one prior, that was my fault.

But the story doesn’t just end; I took what I loved about each and every one of you and placed them into a letter to God, I asked God to bring a woman so perfect that she had all of your best features and characteristics. LOL yes even the smallest of things, the greatest of things, and this letter is an 11 page letter to God, buried in the Arizona, Sedona valley. I could go on about what I loved about each and everyone but you know if you don’t know then you didn’t see, or know what love is… This is what is the major part of my dream woman not just her looks but she will know that I love her, and I will know she loves me, no running no hiding, from start to finish it will be a race to see who loves the most and only ending with who dies first, but then the most beautiful part, I asked God, this, “let this be my last time on earth as a human, let me find that perfect soul encased in the perfect skin, from head to toe, Let me love her to death, till we part, and only when the last dies will we really unite to travel the universe together, only coming back to watch over my kids, or our kids. I have my two I need my wife, I need my family, I see it I feel it I breath and fantasize about it. I dream of dance the tango with my wife, dancing the waltz with my wife, and living life to the fullest with my wife regardless of our finances. But we will be taken care of,

Imagine that I longed for this love writing poems to many but really focusing on one, Yes that sounds harsh but the love I gave and the love I was shown, well it was all just practice, it was all just the review so I can pass the test and make an A+. So you may see words and pictures of women and poems of others and of things in the past but really I was just thinking of you, waiting for you, daydreaming of you, while I sat in class learning my lessons so I can pass with class with you.

I never stopped believing I would find you, and whom every you are, this will be what you read and you will know I am speaking to you. Because I asked that you will know, and I will know you before we even meet, I feel you now I don’t know if that last vision was you but damn all I could see was a mist and you wet head to toe, coming out of the water, just your face, but the mist clouded the clarity of you. I may be crazy but you know what I saw what love can do good and bad, and I said to myself I will never let that happened to me, and it did over and over and over again but I never gave up on the thought of you. Even in relationships I would say, “This can’t be right my life partner would never do that, never in a million years” others mistake my moves as selfish but I would not let them crush my dream, and if you did pass the test it was just that nothing but practice. So when I wrap my arms around you and say, “Where the fuck you been?” don’t hear the word just look at the tear from my eyes, like my children I have been waiting impatiently for you.

To my life partner. And it is meant to be, regardless of what others might thing. It will not be easy because others will admire to split, I know that, and when you awake and see your picture in every room, in every spot in our house, just like my kids I will never, ever, ever forget or lose faith that this love is real.

I have been taught by the best, the best souls came to me to teach me to love you right, so I graciously bow to them, and to my kids for keeping in this world, I almost checked out many times. So to all that have love and never ask for the perfect love, well I read the bible and saw even Solomon had a song and it was to his perfect wife, as he describes her beauty to a tee every part of her, in detail, from her Garden to her Bosom, why not me too.