Tuesday,May 18 2004, 05:42:02 PMi used to see me as someone unique, someone...

i used to see me as someone unique,
someone who's unbreakable, independent
i may have flaws; but acceptable

until i fell inlove...
i fell so hard, so deep,
my heart was placed over the edge
i unintentionally allowed the words of the one i love get to me
-little words, small opinions, pettite issues-
they all meant enormous to me
and i didn't even notice
that it was already breaking me...
into millions and millions of pieces i couldn't even see,
or i probably overlooked it

coz now,
i can see the pieces
and im cementing them back together
im building myself again; stronger
unbreakable;
not perfect; but acceptable
and i would not let anybody
break me again

im not yet totally whole,
so im still a bit fragile
but im almost complete
and im completing myself with my own efforts
through my own will

don't get me wrong,
falling inlove was a wondrous feeling
nothing can compare nor replace it
i don't regret it,
coz i followed my heart's pursuit
it may not always be right
but it cleared me of my "what ifs"
and also gave me consolations..
despite the damage it caused on my self confidence

though it was wonderful,
im not looking for it now
nor am i waiting for it to come
nor am i craving to feel it again
for i am feeling an even greater feeling...
-happiness-
happiness that comes from within;
not from someone else

it takes a lot to be happy with the one you love
but it takes even more
to be happy about yourself.

i am happy
coz i choose to be happy :)
its tough, but it's really great! :)

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