Well my ex is at it again, trying to hurt me cuz he don't have me, but he is NOTHING to me.  The only opinion that matters is Josh's and his opinion means the world to me and he tells me I'm the most beautiful girl around.  He graduates this Saturday, and I spent more on him than I've ever spent on a guy.  He told me when I give him his present he has an heirloom of his Grandmothers he wants to give to me in front of his entire family, and that he wants me to wear it, so I'm not sure what that is, but I hope he wants me to be his forever, because in my heart, that is my only wish.  I know I'm in a dream, because life has never been this perfect.  I could hold him in my arms forever and never ever let go:)  My friends don't know why he is with me, because he is so damn fine, but he hates bitchy girls, and I'm not like that, so maybe I'm not as beautiful as he could get, but he thinks I'm beautiful to him, and that's what matters.  He isn't even going away to college, he's going to stay here with me so we can see each other, and when I graduate, he's taking me to our new apartment, where I can wake up to him every day while I go to college for med school.  I love him more than any other guy I have ever known, his smile is the brightest and most beautiful I have ever seen, and he can talk me into about anything he wants flashing that smile at me, and saying "Please baby, please?"  I can't help but melt and say "Awww, Josh, ok, just quit looking at me like that!"  When he took me to McDonalds, one of my ex's Nick was working, and he kept looking me up and down and Josh got PISSED OFF!  He wanted to beat the crap out of Nick, and all he did was LOOK at me!  I told him Baby, I'm YOURS!  He didn't care, he don't want no one looking at me like that.  I pity Abel or Blake if they run across Josh, cuz Josh could and WOULD kick their ass, he knows they hurt me bad, and he hates them with a passion.  When we first started dating a girl lied about him to me and made me cry, and he called her every name in front of the entire school, and told her she was a liar, and if she ever tried to break us up again, she'd be sorry.  She apologized to me, and we haven't had any problems since!  He don't put up with CRAP, and neither do I anymore!  I love his family they are SO nice, and his niece is a cute little thing, he is SO good with kids, I wouldn't mind having his baby sometime, hope it gets his dark hair, dark eyes and big bright smile:)  I am SO FRICKING in love with him, I hope he don't break my heart, cuz I would never ever recover.

Josh and my one month anniversary was April 18th, and he gave me his CLASS RING to wear, I love him SO SO MUCH!  I feel like I've known him 4 eva!  He loves horses, motorcycles, being together, fishing, camping, hunting, everything I love, he loves.  We NEVER fight, and he is VERY protective of me.  It feels like we've been together years not just a few short weeks, when our eyes met the first day I moved to that school, it was just WHAM!  Instant chemistry, I told my friend, Man, I like him, who is that?  She was like, Josh, O NO, not JOSH, you can't like him, (she had a crush on him forever) and then 2 days later, he pulled up behind me and asked if he could give me a ride home (2 blocks) and I said HELL YA!  We have been together since, if we can't see each other at least once a day, we are both sad!  He took me on a motorcycle ride Saturday night, and reached back holding my leg, and it just feels RIGHT with him.  I will be true to him and him to me, I have no doubt.  He's even staying around after graduation, so he can be with me, and working, going to school part-time, so he can be near me.  I am going to marry that man some day, he cooks for me, plays with my hair, rubs my back, does dishes and tells me to sit, and treats me like a princess.  He takes my tray up to the front every day at school, opens doors for me, rides my horses with me, helps me fix fence, he's my EVERYTHING!  I love him with my entire heart!  I am his for now and always!