Journals
Thursday,Jun 30 2005, 06:31:24 AMUnderstanding People
How do you know what's in others mind??? Most people will tell me when you communicate more wif the person, you wud understand them more and probably chemistry will help you read the person's mind or at least know and understand 'em better...
But how come..?? It'z been so supa long time since u know me le... At least a decade, but you dun seem to know what's in my mind.. What's my interest..??? Your mind is full of urself... Where do I stand..???
My life is kept within myself too... What'z the point of saying too... URGH~* Will onli make me more hurt... Jus leave me wif my space and I'm grateful for everything... I'm happi for what I'm now...
BLESSED??
Changed my background music again... [HEEZ] Kinda bored to hear the same song everyday when I logged on... Heard this from another 絕對 superstar...
祝我生日快乐
歌手:温岚 专辑:温式效应
演唱:温岚
我知道伤心不能改变什么
那么让我诚实一点
诚实难免有不能控制的宣泄
只有关上了门不必理谁
一个人坐在空的包厢里面
手机让它休息一夜
那上千个切掉回忆的画面
眼泪不能流过十二点
生日快乐
我对自己说
蜡烛点了
寂寞亮了
生日快乐
泪也融了
我要谢谢你给的你拿走的一切
还爱你的一点恨
还要时间
才能平衡
热恋伤痕
画面重生
祝我生日快乐
Hope ya will enjoy it.. Thou' it's kinda old song.. [HEEZ]
THURSDAY IS KICKBOXING DAY...
But before that, went to eye specialist wif MIMEE... Cos she's feeling discomfort in her eyes... It'z been a while la.. But this stubborn O-BA-SAN jus wont listen to her daug... HAIX!!! Anywayz, the way they checked her eyes are jus grosse... [HAHA] THose microscopic cameras to show the paitents their conditions.. But it looked so eekie to me... [heez] And the fees are a killer manz... Poor MDM TAN heart hurts sia.. What to do..?? The eyes are more important.... :)
Back to my KICKBOX
Agent R1 on leave again... Erm shd I say for the next 2 and a half weeks.... Whoa~* Sounds FATAL huh... [HAHA] Anywayz, it's wif Agent R2 again.. Things went the same and nothing crop up... [HAHA] Thot of something farnie... Cos everytime when he talks to me.. I feel kinda awkard b'cos I'll say very lil'... And that's not the normal me... I often yak alot.. [HAHA]
And it'z alwayz bye and see ya ard... [HAHA] So farnie... Wanted to siam la... But knocked into each other again... [WHAHAHA]
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Craving to watch INITIAL D and WAR OF THE WORLD manz.... Going for movie marathon wif Mr Maxz on Sat... Think both of us going broke again... haha... I've so much photos waiting for me to develope sia... Searching for the best deal in town... Anyone got any deals that can get me 25cent per pic??? [HAHA] I'll be so grateful...
Narcissist ZENZ is back @ werk wif lots of her h.fone's pics... I like pics from my h.fone... Cos it wont capture the smallest pimples I've unlike the digie cam... Will onli use it if I've done my artistic skills on that face of mine... [haha...] chik out the pics den...
Wednesday,Jun 29 2005, 03:26:10 PM也沒什麼
最近的心情都很差。。。做事時也是有心無力的。。。
我好不想待在啊家﹗﹗﹗
救命啊﹗﹗﹗
我快要崩潰了。。。每天都是毫無意義的被浪費。。。真希望快點兒開學。。。在家發呆的時間也就少了。。 ﹕)
這是我的一次使用中文寫journal... 好不習慣呢﹗﹗手上還握著厚厚的字典。。[heez] 真好笑~*
越 type 越不自在。。而且便得好遲鈍。。。平時只需一回兒工夫就能把 entry 給寫好﹐但今天寫了那麼久感覺寫得也沒什麼。。
可能是太悶了﹐所以用中文吧。。﹖﹖﹗﹗﹖﹖
I've decided wif that cheena thingy... Think english is more easy for me to express myself... [HAHA] Talked to Kaz... And we were toking bout our lifes... Both of us have become the depressing and shittie BIATCHES... URGH~* Goodness....
Suddenly I feel so blardie shittie and good for nothing...
Conversation
Zenz: I feel like trash... Do I fit into the rubbish chute
Kaz: I feel like throwing myself down my block....
O-kay... Think we're both outta our minds... But when people gets depress all kinds of thot jus simply flow into your mind... Hai~* Rmb bout something both of us were dicussing while @ esplanade rotting.. Hmm... We missed the days when we were young and dere nothing to stress about... And no responsibilities...
When we were still young, we use to envy those adults doing things that we cant do and wear clothes tat looks so cool... But as we grow older... Things change... Dere's too much stress for us to handle.. Too much responsibilities that we have to bear....
Everyday life seems like a battle...
Solving school work is a battle...
Relationship problems are a battle...
Conquering stress is a battle....
Thinking how to spend my day is a battle...
I feel so usless.... I cant seem to get things working...
URGH~* Life is such a BORE...
QUESTIONS....
How to make life better??
How ro decrease the amount of stress we are having??
How to handle responsibilities better??
How to get rid of MYSELF??
M I irritating?
How worthy M I??
Am I uttering SHIT now...??
I think I'm... Stop me...!!! Cos I cant do it myself... My mind jus kip running and it wont stop.... I'm so tired but it jus wont stop.... Think it's going to explode anytime soon.... *Take and hammer and jam it into my head..??*
I'm so negative huh...?? I guess so...
I'm problematic...??? On the verge of becoming one...
F*RK IT... I'm another timid and good for nothing brat... I onli know how to say and no action is seen...
My room is in a mess.... It'z messing me up... URGH~* How to stop??? I'm nuts!!! Need to get rid of so much stuffz... No energy to get my tiny winni mind working... My limbs and heart dun listen to my heart.... Staring into the ceiling listening to the slience tat I can onli find during the middle of the night...
Thinking deep about my life...
And the passerbys and loyals that I have... T
hings I have done...
Happiness n Sadness...
Love and Lust...
Reality and Dream...
I'm fading, fadin away...
Tuesday,Jun 28 2005, 02:03:08 PMBORED~*
I dunnoe what to blog... But jus wanna put up a pic...
Looking for more interesting programs to edit my pics....
ANY RECOMMENDATIONS???
xZENZx
Monday,Jun 27 2005, 07:27:16 AM美丽笨女人
当整个世界因为太疲倦而 睡去
我仿佛听到有人为爱欢呼为爱哭泣
早已经听你说过千万次要放弃
从此不再为他而美丽
不要鲜花不想再受委屈
ok
所以你背起行莨
逃逃逃到远方
开始要试着独立
试着重新更爱自己
有一天清晨醒来发觉不能呼吸
于是又乖乖回到他怀里
这次你下决心牺牲自己
ok
这一个美丽的美丽的笨女人oh....
她的故事发生在每个角落里
她让我相信了自己的爱情
不能和她一样软弱无力
不能迷迷糊糊勉强自己
爱不是死心踢地就有结局
哎呀呀呀.....
哎呀呀呀.....
所以你背起行莨
逃逃逃到远方
开始要试着独立
试着重新更爱自己
有一天清晨醒来发觉不能呼吸
于是又乖乖回到他怀里
这次你下决心牺牲自己
ok
这一个美丽的美丽的笨女人oh....
她的故事发生在每个角落里
她让我相信了自己的爱情
不能和她一样软弱无力
不能迷迷糊糊勉强自己
每一个美丽的美丽的笨女人oh.....
都需要向天祈求感情出现奇迹
未来的日子需要多少的谎言
用来欺骗自己麻醉自己
需要多少同情多少勇气
这一个美丽的美丽的笨女人oh....
她的故事发生在每个角落里
她让我相信了自己的爱情
不能和她一样软弱无力
不能迷迷糊糊勉强自己
爱不是死心踢地就有结局
笨女人
I changed my webbie song to COCO'z song... Heard it from '絕對 SUPERSTAR'.. Liked the song lotsa ever since the contestant sang it... I feel that it actualli sings out what some females face in their relationship...
When we, de 美丽笨女人, are being hurt... The first thing that come to our mind is to learnt the lesson and nvr to fall for the same mistakes.. But often we wud end up wif the same situation... So how do we conclude this, that woman are dumb..??!!??
Nah... The world is changing...??!!?? Will it end up one day when more guys being dump rather than gurls being dump... Why run back to the man, when there'z a breakup..?? Since both have came up wif a breakup, what'z the whole purpose of getting back..?? Cos you cant live without each other??? Den why breakup in the first place.. *OUTSIDER CAN SAY AL" THESE SHIT EASILY BAHZ* Hmm... Haven come across such situation, SO I'VE NO IDEA... [HAHA]
I've so much question to ask about LURVE and RELATIONSHIP...!!! How do u know if you're attracted to a person??? B'cos u have to talk or see each other everyday...??? Cos the person can make u smile and think of him/her every now and den??? Hmm... Al' of the above might jus simply be a closer friendship??? Or it might probably a habit, b'cos both of party are to used to talking wif each other?? When commitment are put into the relationship, and one party realise this is not he/she is looking for in what they called "LOVE".. and end up to "FRIENDSHIP"... Den why wud he/she let it start?? It'z so complicated...
My frn use to tell me to go wif the flow and see where it leads you too... But to me, there are so so much you have to consider taking the first... Cos dere are responsibilities and consequences that both parties have to bear... Dere are always ups and downs in al' relationship, be it family, friends or boy/gurl-friend... It'z how problems are being solve... And the often answer I get from people is by "COMMUNICATING', but if that doesn't work...???!!!??? What'z the next step??? The last option... BREAKUP... *I sound so supa dupa NEGATIVE*
Honestly, I dun believe in forever and enternity in love.. People change when facing different situation... It takes onli 1 second to get one to change... You can be together for years, but one day he/she tells you that we are not meant for each other.. It take so long for you to realise...???!!!?? I'm not saying that you onli have a day to judge a person and say tat he'she is the one for you... But I've seen cases when the couple have been together 4 or 5 years, some might be already getting married soon.... But why does a person change their mind, when not long ago, they decided to cont'd the rest of their lives together...??? What are they thinking..?? Is it b'cos they ound someone better??
For electrical appliances that we purchase have guarantees that make us feel stable while using 'em.. And usualli it'z for 3 or 4 years the most... So how long does LOVE guarantees us???
NEGATIVE THOTS...
xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo
Sunday,Jun 26 2005, 03:45:15 PMCOFFEE TREAT.. =)
Met Kaz n Rach for COFFEE this aftnoon.. :) Goodness!! It'z been so so long since we last met manz.... But we had a gr8 time gthering... Tok-ed bout lotsa crap and jokinh around.. N not to forget... Taking pics....
Rach busy wif fonie...
Dun drink take pic 1ST... [heez]
Our mus take [PEE-KA-BOO] pose...
Rach n I doing our CHOPIE...
Rach's cinnamon roll... EH.. Not very nice wor..
Kaz N Moi cheesecake...
Hmm... Dere's a hulk at the other side??!!??
That'z me in RACH'z SPECS...
PLS tell me if I look SHU-NU...??? URGH~*
Kaz in Rach'z spec and for ur information.. I'm not nake.. Jus that I'm in TUBE TOP...
The SOPHISTICATED LADY
Trying to imitated my dear frn here.. HAHA... SORRIE... ME NO FEMININE FEEL... [SOBBIE]
KAZ and CHOCOPUFF frm HK...
The News Reporter.. [MOI JACKET]
Rach look so fierce.. [heez] 
Do de POSE....
Where's ur finger DUDE?? Outkast liao la... Mus do it wif us... [HAHA]
OUR FAKE SMILES...
UPCLOSE wif RACH n SAM
The HIAOzzz~* 
SMILE PLS... The ASSASSINS...
Listen to me.. Or I BASH U UP...
Relaxing on the COMFY SOFA...
@ de esplanade....
BLEAH~**I enjoyed myself lotsa... Hope you guys too... LUBBIES...
Looking forward to our next meetup...
[YEAH~* BBQ AT RACH'Z PLACE]