i feel jumbled now, for one thing, i answer his message ,and break my promise, and even obey him to  see me  for the last time (i dont really know if that maybe called "the last"). for the other thing is that i finally know the truth that he really loves me and my effort is not in vain. we will meet tomorrow, what will we do? i dont know, really dont. perhaps we’ll just talk and have a dinner, or maybe we will cant help doing it again, who knows? i dont really understand why im now feeling a little excited about it, maybe im itch and thirsty? i dont really think so, but..whatever....  anyway, i dont know if i can resist his love and insist myself to keep distance and ask him to leave me alone, he called this “closure” and what can I do?