shivaninja's Journals
im on vacation now, but ir's not gonna be any
Saturday,Jul 19 2008, 11:30:16 PM (Last updated: Sunday,Jul 20 2008, 07:33:11 AM)
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I suddenly realize that i havent been here for very very long till yesterday,i though i almost give up, as always im not a kind of person that have long perseverance, i know that but havent done anything to stop that. but now im coming again. to write, something happen on my mind, ,root in my soul, probably there is nothing pleasant to read but i will keep on. and i dont know how long.... i have to force myself to study, as everyone says, i'll have to, if i dont work hard,the result of my future will be so cruel that i can not take, though it hard now, i must go straight into it and devote there. it wonr last long, only a year ,maybe i will firsly get used to it and then begin to love it, who knows? so you see, today is my first day of vacation, the very first day begining to study, do waste it! work harder, you will win! Like what wrote on the blackboard in the behind, the one who do not dare hardship, taste bitter for a while, the one who're scared of hardship, suffer long all the life.... |
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today is a big day!! Guess what! my sister is getting married!! Congratulations! a wedding is a start of togetherness,responsibility and blessing. of walks in the rain, basking in the sunshine, shares meals, caring for one another and sensing the love that a marrige carries.Love is not only sweet talks and flowers but also forgiving and compromising. we wish Zhao Na & Svante Jorgensen a wonderful marrige of celestial happiness, perfect harmony and eternal love forevermore!! Bless you your family in China June 2008
Dear Zhao Na and Svante, Congratulations to beautiful bride and glowing groom! You will be surrounded by our love, smile and good wishes notwithstanding we would not be there to participate in your good fortune. May you know nothing but happiness from this day forward. Wish you auspicious wedding, sweet honeymoon and bright future on behalf of all our family members in China.
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wow! it has been really long!i dont even know what to say! what did i said!! of course there's always something to say.Firstly as a Chinese, i'll do everything i can to help the people in the earthquake areas, but there's nothing more i can do except donate my pocket money ,which i have done ,and study harder, which im really tired of....oh my God! but i always believe that there's nothing that can beat a country, no matter what disaster, especially China.Blessed China, United countrymen! Secondly, as a family member of mine., i really want to cry aloud: STOP!! it is really a mess what we are doing! Stop ! please!!! i have to take off now, i know nothing but .im tired.. BYE |
ok.now. let's take off
Saturday,May 10 2008, 01:01:54 AM (Last updated: Sunday,Jul 20 2008, 08:04:23 AM)
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ok now i see it,and we do it ,for the last time. he said that he didnt understand me till the end. of course he wont, im not a common people. and this is the end, the very last end, we will go separately and have our own ways of lives. and this is the end, the very last end,i'll keep holding on and fresh my self to be a brand new person.i'll be in the brilliant group which shows that im not gonna let anyone bring me down, or you'll have to go ahead and try to proof it~! |
well, we connect again
Thursday,May 8 2008, 04:49:27 PM (Last updated: Sunday,Jul 20 2008, 07:49:27 AM)
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i feel jumbled now, for one thing, i answer his message ,and break my promise, and even obey him to see me for the last time (i dont really know if that maybe called "the last"). for the other thing is that i finally know the truth that he really loves me and my effort is not in vain. we will meet tomorrow, what will we do? i dont know, really dont. perhaps we’ll just talk and have a dinner, or maybe we will cant help doing it again, who knows? i dont really understand why im now feeling a little excited about it, maybe im itch and thirsty? i dont really think so, but..whatever.... anyway, i dont know if i can resist his love and insist myself to keep distance and ask him to leave me alone, he called this “closure” and what can I do? what will he be like? Through this days, this long long days and nights, is he getting thiner or…? mom left, we met, what a live I am having!! ok we will see who wins at last..
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