http://www.zorpia.com/sillydumb Sun, 08 Nov 2009 18:28 EST Sun, 08 Nov 2009 18:28 EST Zorpia.com http://www.zorpia.com/sillydumb/journal/1574323 <div>Hey friends, I’m officially clearing leave and off today until ORD on 30th September, 2006. Do drop me a message somewhere in MSN, Friendster, my website or other places.</div> <div></div> <div>Sorry for all the negligence in the past. Hope everything is going well for you. Look forward to meet up with you guys soon.<br /></div> <div><a href="http://sillydumb.com">http://sillydumb.com</a></div> Personal http://www.zorpia.com/sillydumb/journal/1574323 Thu, 10 Aug 2006 10:34 EST http://www.zorpia.com/sillydumb/journal/1304538 <p><img alt="webcam" src="http://thm.zorpia.com/0/771/4940584.da4c4c.jpg" border="3" /></p><p>haven&#39;t been updating here. don&#39;t really have the time. anyway i&#39;m spending more time at <a href="http://sillydumb.multiply.com/">http://sillydumb.multiply.com</a>. add me if you have an account there. anyway my website is updated with new layout, please give some feedbacks/suggestions. - <a href="http://sillydumb.com/">http://sillydumb.com</a> </p><p>hope to hear from you soon.</p> Personal http://www.zorpia.com/sillydumb/journal/1304538 Thu, 04 Aug 2005 12:56 EST http://www.zorpia.com/sillydumb/journal/1229966 http://sillydumb.com is registered - please use it instead of http://sillydumb.net.tf though both will still work. And also, please change the URL in your blog or wherever to http://sillydumb.com . Personal http://www.zorpia.com/sillydumb/journal/1229966 Fri, 24 Jun 2005 11:38 EST http://www.zorpia.com/sillydumb/journal/1143675 Nothing lasts forever, especially happy moments. It seems so difficult to get back to the past, so hard to get even a slip of the feeling.<br /> <br /> I&#39;ve tried my best, but excitements always turn sour. One mind alone proves no worth at all. None of the rest shows appreciation of the olden days&#39; outings.<br /> <br /> People change as they grow. You might not recognise a person in term of looks a few years later, and the horror is when you see his indifferent attitude.<br /> <br /> Why do kind souls start to show inconsideration? Is it that I&#39;ve misjudged in the past, or all the misfortunate has broken their hearts?<br /> <br /> Human beings get to know one another better over years, but why do I lose tracks of my friends&#39; sight instead?<br /> <br /> Some drift away after they&#39;ve found their love, while some walk away because they think negatively. My capability and efforts to gather them lie in vain, too tiny to accomplish my dream.<br /> <br /> I see little hope for a big gathering again because I&#39;m fighting alone, powerless and exhausted. Nevertheless, one day when loneliness invades, someone or some people will get everything done. Personal http://www.zorpia.com/sillydumb/journal/1143675 Tue, 03 May 2005 10:33 EST http://www.zorpia.com/sillydumb/journal/1113244 Shall we meet again<br /><br />I can&#39;t hear&nbsp; your voice<br />till I play your video clips<br />there you sing to your soul<br />so madly yet enchanting<br /><br />It has been long since we last met<br />at an undesirable place<br />surrounded by large group of people<br />we hardly had chance to talk<br /><br />We get to see each other often still<br />we laugh and kick around like usual<br />and sometimes you presume your silence<br />I wake up with all the tension within my heart<br /><br />You&#39;re the greatest medicine<br />the jinx of sorrow<br />you cure through smile<br />but often you draft souls<br /><br />Shall we meet again?<br />I&#39;ll fold my tiredness for you<br />by then I&#39;ll have no regret<br />because I&#39;ve done my best.<br /><br />Sunday, 03 April, 2005 Personal http://www.zorpia.com/sillydumb/journal/1113244 Sat, 09 Apr 2005 11:20 EST http://www.zorpia.com/sillydumb/journal/1104740 <p>I lay down with excitement<br />couldn&#39;t care much about others<br />The adapter&#39;s wire stretched to the bed<br />I waited with the phone by my side</p><p>Each beam of light shone on my eyes gave me hopes<br />when dreams emerged with my smiles<br />I stared at the ceiling<br />as time passed by</p><p>I shut my lids<br />it was a tiring but sweet waiting<br />I missed the past when we played together<br />and you sarcastically countered my teasing</p><p>The noise stopped in the sunken night<br />giving me the peace for deeper thoughts<br />You were with your towel round your neck<br />taking photo with me under the evening sun</p><p>The light went off as the rest tried to doze<br />when hopes were diminishing<br />I had to accept the fact<br />as I dreamed about you</p><p>Friday, 01 April, 2005<br /></p> Personal http://www.zorpia.com/sillydumb/journal/1104740 Sat, 02 Apr 2005 13:04 EST http://www.zorpia.com/sillydumb/journal/1049009 <p>Often, we can&#39;t differentiate between admiration and love. But the need to possess stretches from day to night, and sometimes in dreams. The setbacks and fears aid the indecisive; it pays a lot to be a low confident man.</p><p>She&#39;s one in a million, not the best but enough to seize souls. She&#39;s superior to most girls in looks and figure; nonetheless she has the purest heart. Her smile and voice bring out the greatest enjoyment of life, so enchanting that it worth one month of lifespan to witness them each time.</p><p>Life&#39;s never fair. The amount of efforts you put in might not get you anywhere and your thoughts might be effortless. She&#39;s too far away. It takes so much courage to date her but it seems so easy for her to reject, which she doesn&#39;t even need to consider. She shows no interest in going out but somehow able to entertain other friends.</p><p>Give it up, because every rejection adds to your shame, and every embarrassment causes a friend. Give up, because she needs someone better.</p><p>Thursday, 17 February, 2005</p> Personal http://www.zorpia.com/sillydumb/journal/1049009 Thu, 17 Feb 2005 06:37 EST http://www.zorpia.com/sillydumb/journal/1004507 <p>Close your eyes, you won&#39;t want to know more.<br />Enjoy your most beautiful sight now.<br />Just relax.<br />Don&#39;t open your eyes<br />because this world isn&#39;t suitable for you.<br />Just pretend you don&#39;t know.<br />You don&#39;t know who&#39;s hurting you.</p><p>Thursday, 20 January, 2005</p> Personal http://www.zorpia.com/sillydumb/journal/1004507 Thu, 20 Jan 2005 07:47 EST http://www.zorpia.com/sillydumb/journal/987353 <p>Last Thursday was one of the happiest days I had in Stagmont so far. After the long day exercise and keeping of stores, it was all leisure time. There were great performance and steamboat buffet which filled my stomach so much. I was impressed with the dancers who could remember the steps which kept us entertained for hours. After which, we had our usual Uno game into midnight like nobody&#39;s business, bringing laughers for each other. If not for the few selfish people, I wouldn&#39;t remain quiet most of the time to reduce interaction.</p><p>Yesterday, the beach was crowded with beauties. I finally regained some skill to put on good games which I could be proud of. The first pain I encountered was when I was inside the pool, where there was a cramp on my left thigh. During the barbecue, the cramp returned and we laughed ridiculously as though it was really funny. It wasn&#39;t long when the left part of my lower ribcage started to cramp as well. The day could be better somehow if there were more topics between me and the rest like in the past.</p><p>I seem to have broadened my thinking after all the bad encounters. There&#39;re too many things to forsake because they aren&#39;t important; things that I can&#39;t help I shouldn&#39;t waste my efforts at all. All the unfairness and biasness are parts of the daily lives and I shall just bear with them. I must be strong...</p><p>Just three more weeks and I&#39;ll be through. Whereby there&#39;s four more weeks to my freedom and I can live my previous volleyball life. Yes, if nothing goes wrong.</p><p>Sunday, 16 January, 2005</p> Personal http://www.zorpia.com/sillydumb/journal/987353 Sun, 16 Jan 2005 04:56 EST http://www.zorpia.com/sillydumb/journal/981032 <p>Someone hadn&#39;t had enough sleep for weeks.<br />Someone scratched his watch during lunch.<br />Someone cracked his phone with a VRC 947.<br />Someone hoped to be accompanied.<br />Someone penned his thoughts on his notebook.<br />Someone prayed to go home.<br />Someone had so many things in mind to accomplish.<br />Someone wanted to draw.<br />Someone wished to walk his dog.<br />Someone was inspired but short of time.<br />Someone pulled through and returned.<br />Someone&#39;s computers went down.<br />Someone&#39;s selfish friend approached him again.<br />Someone was exhausted.<br />Someone lost his spirit again.<br />Someone just wanted to sleep.<br />Not me.</p><p>Friday, 14 January, 2005</p> Personal http://www.zorpia.com/sillydumb/journal/981032 Fri, 14 Jan 2005 08:19 EST http://www.zorpia.com/sillydumb/journal/887858 <p>Now all I can wish is to hear your beautiful voice,<br />so much that I&#39;m drooling,<br />I&#39;m dreaming,<br />I&#39;m walking into the state of unconsciousness.</p><p>Alas I would demand more,<br />so much more as to see your smile,<br />and hold your hands,<br />and maybe a little more.</p><p>If there&#39;s something which I can be granted of,<br />I would hug you forever,<br />and if there&#39;s this moment,<br />I would lay you on my arm and kiss you like a princess.</p><p>All I need is a little warmth,<br />so little yet only you can provide,<br />for there&#39;s so many beauties around,<br />but just one and only you.</p><p>What I wish is too insignificant to be seen,<br />all I need are too far to be heard;<br />but maybe you can feel with<br />just a little more attention.</p><p>Thursday, 16 December, 2004<br /></p> Personal http://www.zorpia.com/sillydumb/journal/887858 Fri, 17 Dec 2004 08:55 EST http://www.zorpia.com/sillydumb/journal/728965 <p>Is this the way that I&#39;m moving, so slow that I can&#39;t catch up? I take the longest path to run, round and round the same old circle. I meet weird people all along, they seem to care for me but sometimes they ignore.</p><p>I seem to forget my destination and I wonder have the falling offs damaged my vessels. I can&#39;t think, I can&#39;t judge, I just can&#39;t.</p><p>I take a little rest down the deserted street. Then I start to recite, the chants of prayers I give to the passers-by, for would they hear me?</p><p>I recall some helping hands approaching me which I fail to grab; hypocritical floods my mind. I&#39;m too dreadful of anything, everything.</p><p>I don&#39;t know how much more I can step on but things don&#39;t seem to look good. I&#39;m losing my sight, staring at the thwarted front.</p><p>Thursday, 11 November, 2005</p> Personal http://www.zorpia.com/sillydumb/journal/728965 Thu, 11 Nov 2004 22:40 EST http://www.zorpia.com/sillydumb/journal/654179 Back from a dream, where nothing seems to change. The feeling is the same throughout, and that&#39;s the terror. I can&#39;t feel anything. Personal http://www.zorpia.com/sillydumb/journal/654179 Sat, 16 Oct 2004 21:31 EST http://www.zorpia.com/sillydumb/journal/615195 I&#39;ll be gone for about 3 weeks from Friday 1st October. Friends staying in Singapore, please enjoy Children&#39;s Day yourself. For more information, please contact Guoxin at http://www.zorpia.com/cgi/member.cgi?AhSky . [ http://sillydumb.com ] Personal http://www.zorpia.com/sillydumb/journal/615195 Thu, 30 Sep 2004 00:00 EST http://www.zorpia.com/sillydumb/journal/583045 <p>Life is bored when you decide to take a break from your daily work but no one’s there for you. You sit back and recall, when your friends were in need of helps and companion, you were always there for them; but now, you’re all alone.</p><p>You’re leaving this world soon. You’ve a week of break from your forced work, so do many friends who are having holidays. They’re busy still, but kind enough to attend to other friends. They treasure their books more than you.</p><p>All your buddies have become weird. Each has their own problems but none is as unfortunate as you. Everything’s changed now that your gang is separated. You get sick of arrogance and selfishness; sometimes you just refuse to find out if you’re being deceived.</p><p>You close your eyes and scan through your brain, but you can hardly think of anyone anymore. Nobody’s really realised your existence until you’re needed. You’ve a full list of contacts in your address book but you hardly can find anyone familiar.</p><p>Everyone’s progressed so far and you’re the only one lagging behind, because of your sentimental and unplanned path. You just wander like a lost child all along and go missing ever since you’re unguided.</p><p>The greatest failure devotes his life to others but none’s shown appreciation. His tiredness has often scared thoughtless people away. Since in this world, people rarely will try to comprehend, the laziness takes them away from you.</p><p>You frown, because you’ve realised your incompetence. But you’re a kid no more and you don’t cry. You just laugh over your past ignorance and misjudgement, and then you continue with your usual work, for yourself.</p><p>It’s a good time to reflect and to reconsider friendship. You sort out who your real friends are and who are only out to make use of you. You cease the hope for faithful romance since you can’t make progress and you’re old enough to work like a man.</p><p>You look ahead for the upcoming change of life; hopefully, you can put everything behind. You want to lose your memory but you can’t, and so you’ve to start afresh with the bandage. It’s a blessing in return since you’ve no worries left behind.</p><p>Sunday, 12 September, 2004</p> Personal http://www.zorpia.com/sillydumb/journal/583045 Sat, 11 Sep 2004 15:21 EST