Sunday,Feb 27 2005, 12:14:00 AMyeah, i know i've disappeared for a while....

yeah, i know i've disappeared for a while. it's been a few crazy weeks, and i thought that no one would want to hear about the shit that goes on. so yeah.

why am i still up again in the "wee small hours of the night"? i told val, before she went to bed, that i wouldn't be staying up late, but here i am, typing away... it was, once again, a rather unproductive evening (except for the fact that i finished the physics homework, which, in fact, i got answers mostly from a friend). so what's the point? maybe i should just go to bed early like val does and get some sleep, instead of turning off my alarm clock when it goes off the next morning without knowing it because i am so blacked out. hmm. yeah more than once i've sat up, picked up my ringing phone, turned it off, put it next to me, and gone back to sleep - without even knowing it. i would wake up with a start several hours after the class was over, thinking that maybe val was kind (and perhaps annoyed) enough to switch off that darn phone for me. but apparently i just don't remember doing it myself.

am i falling into this insoniac phase? and i get so tired that i forget what i do during the day? am i jack's confused brain? is project mayhem already initiated? no wonder i see these guys digging graves outside my building..... no j/k. (btw if you have no effing idea what i'm talking about, you have to watch "fight club.") i guess i just like the silence at night. i like the fact that i can concentrate on whatever i'm doing (even if i'm just typing some bullshit xanga entry), without thinking of distractions. my desk lamp is like a spotlight that only illuminates what i'm working on, so i won't think of things like, "oh! what a nice day! i should be outside tanning..." or "hmm there's this concert going on.." or my friends... or my fridge. (okay maybe not my fridge, because it's literally a foot away from where i am.) it's a great time to think... and sometimes to have an intense arguement on aim (and to be super sarcastic, for once)... i feel that i can be someone i can't be during the day, because now i can just hide in the dark when i feel like it. but then, i guess reality still has to hit me. i have to wake up early for 8am class afterall. time for bed.

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Monday,Apr 19 2004, 06:28:00 PMafter almost an entire night of walking from...

after almost an entire night of walking from relay for life (btw this has nothing to do what the free-bee version of relay, for those who are wondering), i slept from 1:30pm to 6:30pm on saturday, then from 11:30pm to almost 1pm on sunday!

so yea, obviously it's been an uneventful weekend. but sleeping's good,

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Wednesday,Apr 7 2004, 07:07:00 AMbonnie's coming tomorrow! yay! but dammit. i...

bonnie's coming tomorrow!
yay!

but dammit. i was stupid enough to agree to participate in "shadow day" - i'll have a high school kid "shadow" me for a day to class on thursday... when bonnie's here.
and the best part is, i'll have to pick the girl up @ 8:30am on thursday, but my first class is @ 12:30. ...

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