yeah.this kinda ov feeling i been with these days iz called"emptiness".

i been rushing among my bulks ov blogs an'ids an'been fucked out ..

been online with sUp &dude from every  corner ov this world an'enjoy my time being with so much gorgeous an'handsome an'everything an'more

been like an unexhaustible one full of guts ...

the prob iz..i aint that energetic ..so...after soooooooo much msgs an'requests an' talking "bullshit"...

erm now taking a break..i aint on msn,i aint on yahoo,i aint on icq,i aint on aim,i aint on zorpia, i aint on space,i aint on hi5,i aint on qq,i aint on UC..i aint on anywhere else i coulda b...i justa  been recumbent...

i been appearing flirting,i been appearing hot, i been appearing funny,i been appearing sincere,i been appearing humorous,i been appearing cold,i been appearing quick,i been appearing entrancing,i been appearing romantic,i been appearing short-tempered,i been appearing arrogant,i been appearing caring,i been appearing good,i been appearing selfish,i been appearing egg-headed,i been appearing astounding,i been appearing stupid..

i been feeling confused about who i really iz,about wat erm i doing on internet,

iz 8 that i been feeling lonely so i come on here?the answer iz "negtive".coz i been a party animal an'an extroverted,with soooooo many ppl around.where comes this kinda ov fucking"loneliness"??

iz 8 that i been unsatisfied with the style i been with..?the answer iz"negtive"coz i been a super hyper an'diehard in everything erm into.

then wat shoulda be the very reason?let me make 8 clear...

i guess that iz kinda ov pressure from deep inside me..the urge2 be"perfection"an"Miss Ominipotence".....ppl say "nobody iz perfect"..still .the very aim ov"perfection"been kinda ov curse flowing with my blood...an'whenever i feel the likelihood ov losing the point even 4 a little spot or chance....that wil be my suffering....which wil last long an'i justa cant let go....

did some psychoanalytic tests last nite,deduced certain conclusion..

i aint out ov sort.i aint out ov my mind..

"confused"an"exhausted"iz the very mask i got on my face ...

sth more,i got a feeling ov "unrequited affection"..that been the last straw...hey i aint into any afairs now..justa...wel...the crabby sensitive cancerian stuffs...sigh..shrug~