Here I am again talking bout the same bad shit that was happening to my family and I, we thought we had moved a step further towards renting a house, well now we are back to step one. And I am even more depressed. Because we were suppose to be out of this house that we are in now, by yesterday and our landlord is really wanting us out. I also found that today, well last night, I subtracted wrong, just by a little, and my account bacame overdrawn, so I was charged a service fee. I had no idea how I was going to come up with that kind of money, and being able to cover everything, and each day you are overdrawn, you get charged a small fee. But for that, it adds up fast. But luckly, I was able to borrow money from a family friend, though I hate asking for money, no matter who it is. But this way since he gave me the money, I dont have to worry bout taking out another loan. One I had just paid off. When going to the bank to deposit the money, I asked the woman if she was able to tell if I was going to be charged any other fees, and she said no, and thought it was retarted because they had charged me the fee, for just being overdrafted by just some change. So she decided to go ahead and refund the fee that I was charged. I was so shocked, but at the same time happy lol. But man I keep a better eye on what I am doing. Okay, other than that, we had two houses lined up, that we had already looked at, both were so nice, the first one...she had no problem that we had pets, and was cheaper than we were paying where I am at now. The second one was even nicer, was accross from the park, plenty of room for my sisters basketball hoop, also it is quite cheaper than what we were paying here. Unforunately, the only two fallbacks for that one was, that they wanted so much money upfront, also they werent fond of having pets in the house. And that was the best house of the two. Both not in too terrible neighborhoods. But neither of the women have gotten in touch with us. So I am not sure what we are going to do, we have wrote down a couple of other houses, we are not so sure about them. So being back to step one, has put alot of stress on the family. My sister, hangs out with friends to help her deal, which is okay, Im the kind of person that would rather mope around, do nothing and stay in bed. Although I have found myself eating more and being mroe hungry. I thought, normally, you loose weight, but that doesnt go for me. Its definally a feeling I dislike, but cant control right now. Anyways think I might take a nap. So now you got the hint that life stinks, as usual lol. Okay, more than enough now lol.

Well today I was thinking, some people are afraid of change, therefore don't allow it, well unfortunately, change comes so often for me and my family. Whether we want it or not, it still comes. And sometimes that isn't always a good thing, I believe our family to be cursed, for it seems, we can never be too happy and not have to worry about anything. Ever since I can remember we have been struggling with bills, and not being able to pay things, so therefore being evicted or that bill being shut off. We've had the electric shut off, we've been homeless, I mean, seems like we have almost been through it all. But at the same time we haven't because there are those people who have no choice but to live on the street, as for us, we luckily have been able to find people throughout my life that are caring and willing to help at least half the way. Meaning my mom would have to put in her part as well. I remember also moving alot, I must of went to 4 different high schools, throughout the 4 years I went. I mean, I like moving and coming to a new school, that way nobody knows you, in a way you are kinda popular. Until that wears off, than you might just be another outcast. But anyways to get back on track, we are now once again going to be evicted from our house, it's not at all that we weren't paying, just that as much as we tried, we were still struggling to pay it, last December I lost my job, doing something I was told to do, and so got in to trouble if I didn't do it, well I got fired from it. A judge had found that they had no reason to fire me, as I was doing what I had been told and stressed about to do. But luckily, I was able to find work within about two weeks I would say. Something else about me getting fired was that they had fired me on Christmas Eve. So that made things worse.  So, like I said about two weeks after, I got hired on at Burger King, quite a store that is, there are nice people, but there was a lot of drama and what not. A lot of things happening there, but it was work, so therefore I was happy. Now about one or two months ago, my dad was let go for the work he was doing, he was with a temp agency, and got this job at a printing place, well he was there at least for 4 months, if not longer, and they must've liked him to keep him that long, because temp work doesn't go that long. So he thought perhaps he had a chance of getting hired full time there, well it came to them calling him asking him to come in, they needed to talk to him, there they told him they were letting him go, firing him, the reason that they had said was that he didn't fit in, since he wore the same pants, but changed shirts, where as, the others had to money to wear different clothes and drive nice cars each day. So with me just being at my work not that long, and my mom working not so many hours, we kept trying to make things work. My dad doesn't seem to be looking for a job that bad, and that what hurts my mom and I the worst, things are so above our head, it's so hard to keep happy and keep going, my younger sister who is 21, but doesnt work, will sit there and cut us done because we cant afford too much food, but yet she lives without any problems here, us paying her bills. I don't think she is too much like that anymore, she also keeps mentioning about changing jobs, we have looked to whats out there, there is almost nothing that we are qualified for. That's why I was attending school (college) but took the semester off to get more focused and for now concentrate on work, luckily I did since I lost my job, than my dad lost his. So at this time, I am not sure about going back in the fall, I would say it depends on how bills are. My sister to us was seeming to not look for a job too hard. And I wonder if she got a job, would she help out with things. For me, even if I had a certain amount of money, if it was a choice between buying something I could probably do without or buying something I know will get used or eaten not only by me, I would wait with buying something, I feel most all the time it is good to wait, but thats just how I am. I have pitched in on bills ever since I was 15, when I first started at McDonalds. I almost wish I could be like my sister and not have to work, but stay home, and pretty much do nothing. But from the beginning, I loved earning my own money, being able to buy things. And now is the biggest time for them both to get a job, otherwise we are going to be homeless, my mom and I only bring home about 300 every two weeks, so for our rent that is 675 a month, plus other bills, it is way over our head. So with this eviction notice coming up, we are scared to death and it's just so upsetting, it's like more bills come in more than money does. Anyways, just got myself more depressed lol, so I'll stop writing for now.