Journals
Saturday,Aug 5 2006, 02:19:03 AMoy!
ey que pasa ahora soy en la casa de mi amiga! y luego en la casa de un muy guapo mexicano mis amigos!!! sabada un fiesta grande un motel ! soy muy feliz. sorry for my bad spanish but i just love to speak in it. i hate this bitch christina she is trying to ruine my life and i am starting to get to the point where i dont even want her in the same state as me, because she is trying to get all my amigos to hate me and she is talking a lot ofshit also. i am sitting in the golds gym tright now waiting for mi amigo raymundo to get done working out we have been here for 1hr. now he said only 1hr. and we cannot find him.. dammit well i got to go . rachel!
Sunday,Jul 23 2006, 05:09:56 AMhey
whats up! nothing much here i dont even remeber last time that i wrote in this but i know that it has been a long time... and i know that alot of crazy shit has been happening to me lately. shiit. well i am not with mustafa no more he is an ass hole and we are only friends now because a lot of bull shit. well i know that he was fucking around or something because he be inviting me to arcadia to chill with him and than he would fucking ditch me to go to the fucking bar and keep me at his damn house. so i told him it was over because i was tired of the bull shit. hmm... what else? what else? yeah i got a new boyfriend which he is so sweet and nice. his name is jorge i met him at the mall and cassy originally got his phone number she never called him and i got it from her so i just ended up calling him and he told me he liked me more **surprising**. and so we have been going out for like a month now. and it is working out so great. i like him so much and he likes me too. we dont hangout everyday though because he lives in menomonie, and i live here in eau claire and it takes 1hr. but see eachother atleast once a week, which is not much but i spend the night at his house that once a week. he is coming tomo and i am going back with him to menomonie. and i am going out with "augustin" now too. but now i know his real name which is egulio but everybody calls him x. so yah know. yah yah i dont want to hear it i know that i am a player. but i only have two guys which is good for me, usually it is like 3or4. which i am getting really tired of doing that bull shit. anyways, the other night was not good. damn. was it scary as fuck. hmm... anyways i whent to mondovi to el pinche mexicanos esta con mi nueva amiga molly. and it was not good. i ended up drinking one whole big bottle of bacardi all to myself. except i poared a glass for molly. ended up drinking her glass. i poared a glass for jaime and he drank that. and than a little for antonio. but i drank the rest. and i was really fucked up i will tell you that right now, and that is not a good thing when i am that drunk. i had this one boyfriend names antonio he wasnt satisfying me and giving me what i want soo shiit i was that fucked up that i didnt give a shit and i ended up fucking his friend jaime for the second time in my life. por que el es muy muy guapo y muy bueno coheir conmigo. and after that fucking margarito came over and came in the damn room and gets on top of me and i am all crying and telling him to get the fuck off of me and he wouldnt and everyone was just standing around laughing including my "boyfriend". if it wasnt for my friend molly i wouldve been raped i bet by all of them there was about 6 of them there . they drove us back to eau claire and we crashed at mollys house even though i think that it wouldve been a lot better if we wouldve just whent back to my house because my mom wouldnt of got pist off. but her mom snapped, even though she never found out that i was drunk or else she really wouldve been pist off. but in the morning i ended up leaving because i had a terrible hangover so i just had my mother come get me. she wasnt mad and i told her everything because were close like that. and she understands. but she doesnt support my drinking in any way. so that is a good thing. ever since that i just want to drink drink drink... well i got to go because tiagos just call me and i am going to talk to him.. rachel!
Tuesday,Jun 27 2006, 06:23:34 PMboring!!!!!!
bueno! nada mucho aqui. estoy muy abburida. pero oy en la noche mi muchacho es boy aqui en mi casa. yo muy ocupada para la otra semana. yo con mi prima leah. well fuck this spanish shit it is going to take too long. but i am getting better. anyways.... friday me and leah whent to arcadia to visit mustafa. he was being kinda an ass. we were planning to party with him and spend the night and than 2hrs after we got there he told us that we had to leave because he had to go to minnesota to see his family. he was drunker than fuck and he was going to drive all the way to minnesota, i dont think so. so whatever we drove him to the bar and we whent back to eau claire. good thing i whent back anyway because i was soo sick. all last week i was soo sick. at first i was starting to think a lil like i was embarazada. but who knows. i dont think so. well saturday i get off grounded. dee is coming saturday cannot fucking wait man! friday night me and my cousin are going to arcadia this time they better not just stand us up like that. because we were going to go saturday but since dee is coming up here than we will just go friday after she gets finished with work at 8:30. than we prolly wont get there tell atleast fucking 10:00. its ok. than i want to get back here to eau claire on saturday at least by 2 so that i can hangout with dee and alex for awhile at his place. than we might go back to arcadia i dont know yet. if not than we are going to go chill with rocky and roberto and margarito and all of them. soo yah. yesterday i was at the mall and i saw angel.. he didnt even fucking notice me fucking ass hole! haha. i was hoping that he would see me . but he didnt. i gotta admit he was looking sooo good. damn. hmmm..... i am sorta hungry/. and i want to go hangout with some amigos. but obviously my mom wont let me go no where. boring today. just sit around and talk on the phone. yo tengo mi mota pero para luego por que mi mama es aqui y yo no necesitas problemas para ella. pero oy en la manana yo clean out mi mota para oy en la noche o manana. well gotta go. amor siempre adios besos!!! rachel!!!!!
Sunday,Jun 18 2006, 01:32:41 AMgood things happen and bull shit
well life has been good and bad. let me start with the good shit. well i met this really nice mexicano that is soo nice and sweet. his name is x. i dont know how to pernounce his real name so i am leaving it at x. hm... anyways he is crazee for me and i have been hanging out with him a lot. he is soo muchfunn and i spend the night with him at his house once and at his friends house once. and than at his friends house again but with my friend kayla. i feel completely comfortable with him and i can act myself around him, i like to hangout with him alone. well last night was bull shit. mustafis picked me and my "friend" at kmart. we whent to arcadia. it was all good at first. just chillin. ashely was drinking a lot. and getting really drunk. i was just chillin sippin on a berr, because i dont like beer much. me and mustafis whent on a walk to the bar to get more beer on our way back when we were walking back to police cars past us. i told mustafis that we should just turn the corner and go on a longer walk. he told me that is was allright and the police were just going to the neighbors. soo i trusted him and we whent back up to the apartment and i sat down and opened up a beer. less than fucking 5 min. later 2 police walk in. they came because the neighbors
called because it sounded like people were fighting up there. but dumb ass ashley was just being loud and playing around. when they walked in i put down my beer. and than they knew we were drinking. they took us out side. gave us breathalizers. mine came up .00. so i didnt get a fine those police were being nice. ashley was crying. i told her to relaxe and just cool it . mustafis was telling her the same. i was just trying to relax and not make a big deal. for a long time there i thought that they just would let me go. i let mustafis go because he was getting really peranoid. i didnt want the police to take his name down anyways. than like 30min. later the cop called me over by the car and told me thanks for being cooperative and all. but my probation officer wanted them to take me to the jail. so they arrested me and that is when i kinda flipped out but i was trying my best to relax. i got into the police car and i was crying really really bad. ashlery got into it after. she was all good. she cried all her tears out allready. half way to eau claire i stopped crying. i tried calling mustafis on my cell to tell him that i was in the police car going to jail. well we got to the jail. i got all admitted in and shit and than whent to sleep. this morning the intake worker came up to see me. she said my mom could come get me around 1. so my mom came and got me aorund 1. i talked to mustafis. he told me that after he left the house that night he whent to the bar and had 10 shots of tequilla. and got so drunk he past out in the bar and one of his friends drove him home. and than while i was talking to him today he was in the bar still drinking more. he is soo sweet and i am starting to have feelings for him. he made me this sticker that said "i love u rachel hun". at his work and he stuck it on my purse. i think that is soo sweet just for the fact that he was thinking about me and everything. i am just worried that he is going to use me for sex. i really hope not though. because that would be some bull shit. and i thinking that is what he is doing sort of because right when we got to his house yesterday he wanted to have sex like after 5 min. of being there. and than after that like not even 20 min. later he wanted more and than more and more and more. its cool and all and damn i am not saying es malo o todo porque es muy bien y ello es muy caliente ! pero es mucho mucho mucho. y yo es no caliente siempre. pero ello es caliente y cochondo siempre. y ello es muy grande y muy muy bien coheir. well he is calling me tomo. my mom take away my cell phone for 2wks. and i cant go out with my friends for 2wks. but hopefully if i do really good this week she will let me off. i am just worried about what is going to happen when my social worker finds out. she is prolly going to drop a U.A. on me and for shure it is going to be dirty. well i got to go now. amor siempre rachel!!!!!!
Tuesday,Jun 13 2006, 11:10:41 PMbull shit no bien chingada!!
well i did end up going with mustafis last friday. it was soo much funn! but i brought emma which now i am thinking was a big mistake. never again am i going to bring her anywhere with me. i cant trust her one bit. mustafis is my boyfriend now, i am soo happy. i dont give a fuck with what nacho thinks. he can fuck off because he is an ass hole. and come to fucking find out he was using me the whole fucking time. he call me yesterday trying to get me back and everything bull shit. than i talked with mustafis just like 3 min. ago and he told me that nacho was just telling him of how much i am a bitch. so next time he calls i am going to say stop fucking calling my cell phone. i dont want to fucking talk to you no more you lil fucking pinche puto. oooh chingada. at first i was thinking that mustafis was using me and only wants sex but i dont think so anymore because i talk to him not too long ago and he told me that he wants to take to the movies . and we dont have to just go back to the house and party and have funn but we can do other things too. soo i think that is really cool and i hope that he is not just seeing me as some sex symbol because that would be some bull shit. i have been played way too much when i was thinking it was true love but it turned out too be bull shit. and nacho gave mustafis my number and told him to go for it. well if he try calling i am going to say you know what you play to much and i dont want to fucking talk to you ever again, dont call my fucking phone never again. i am with mustafis now and i dont want to talk to you. i never thought he was going to be like this. i actually thought he dont cheat and he respects ladies. but now i come to see that he just want me for sex and he just took me to the restaurant and shit it was just part of his fucking stupid ass games. and i cant deal with that shit. he said that i am being a bitch to him. well what the fuck does he expect. does he fucking want me to be all nice and sweet like he didnt do shit to me. because he really fucked me over soo bad. well this saturday we are hanging out an shit. and i prolly going to spend the night at his house. i dont know who i am going to bring to arcadia with me but i know that i want to bring one friend because i will feel very uncomfortable but i am going to makeshure it is not one of my really sexy friends because it really makes me pist off and jeoulos when he try getting with my friends. soo i prolly bring kayla or maybe i will bring amy if she can do anything and she is going to get off this bull shit that she be giving me. hm....... i just want to give up on mother fuckers and guys because it seems like everytime i think that it is going to work out and i have true feelings and i think that it is getting serious he fucks me over and says adios. no good. my gurl cassy is picking me up at 10 30 tonight after she is done working and we are going to go hangout with these guys that we met at the mall today named augustin and ricardo. i hope that we are going to be drinking a lil and i hope that it isnt laim. damn cassy is a lil hoe. we were sitting outside smoking a cigg and she was allready feeling all up on his leg i am all like oh my fucking gosh cassy you lil slut. but i dont care i really cant talk. last night i spent the night with my other friend augustin they are way too many fucking augustin's. but we whent to action city with kayla and her lil brother. and then we whent to walmart and then we dropped off kayla and we whent back to his house. we had to hide in his fucking car for like 45 minutes to wait tell pinche puta tita goes to sleep and gustavo and antonio and all the others that live there because none of them like me because they all wanted me and i dont want them so it is really funny!! haha. now i really gotta go. rachel!!!