Tuesday,Jun 27 2006, 06:23:34 PMboring!!!!!!

bueno! nada mucho aqui. estoy muy abburida. pero oy en la noche mi muchacho es boy aqui en mi casa. yo muy ocupada para la otra semana. yo con mi prima leah. well fuck this spanish shit it is going to take too long. but i am getting better. anyways.... friday me and leah whent to arcadia to visit mustafa. he was being kinda an ass. we were planning to party with him and spend the night and than 2hrs after we got there he told us that we had to leave because he had to go to minnesota to see his family. he was drunker than fuck and he was going to drive all the way to minnesota, i dont think so. so whatever we drove him to the bar and we whent back to eau claire. good thing i whent back anyway because i was soo sick. all last week i was soo sick. at first i was starting to think a lil like i was embarazada. but who knows. i dont think so. well saturday i get off grounded. dee is coming saturday cannot fucking wait man! friday night me and my cousin are going to arcadia this time they better not just stand us up like that. because we were going to go saturday but since dee is coming up here than we will just go friday after she gets finished with work at 8:30. than we prolly wont get there tell atleast fucking 10:00. its ok. than i want to get back here to eau claire on saturday at least by 2 so that i can hangout with dee and alex for awhile at his place. than we might go back to arcadia i dont know yet. if not than we are going to go chill with rocky and roberto and margarito and all of them. soo yah. yesterday i was at the mall and i saw angel.. he didnt even fucking notice me fucking ass hole! haha. i was hoping that he would see me . but he didnt. i gotta admit he was looking sooo good. damn. hmmm..... i am sorta hungry/. and i want to go hangout with some amigos. but obviously my mom wont let me go no where. boring today. just sit around and talk on the phone. yo tengo mi mota pero para luego por que mi mama es aqui y yo no necesitas problemas para ella. pero oy en la manana yo clean out mi mota para oy en la noche o manana. well gotta go. amor siempre adios besos!!! rachel!!!!!

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Sunday,Jun 18 2006, 01:32:41 AMgood things happen and bull shit

well life has been good and bad. let me start with the good shit. well i met this really nice mexicano that is soo nice and sweet. his name is x. i dont know how to pernounce his real name so i am leaving it at x. hm... anyways he is crazee for me and i have been hanging out with him a lot. he is soo muchfunn and i spend the night with him at his house once and at his friends house once. and than at his friends house again but with my friend kayla. i feel completely comfortable with him and i can act myself around him, i like to hangout with him alone. well last night was bull shit. mustafis picked me and my "friend" at kmart. we whent to arcadia. it was all good at first. just chillin. ashely was drinking a lot. and getting really drunk. i was just chillin sippin on a berr, because i dont like beer much. me and mustafis whent on a walk to the bar to get more beer on our way back when we were walking back to police cars past us. i told mustafis that we should just turn the corner and go on a longer walk. he told me that is was allright and the police were just going to the neighbors. soo i trusted him and we whent back up to the apartment and i sat down and opened up a beer. less than fucking 5 min. later 2 police walk in. they came because the neighbors
called because it sounded like people were fighting up there. but dumb ass ashley was just being loud and playing around. when they walked in i put down my beer. and than they knew we were drinking. they took us out side. gave us breathalizers. mine came up .00. so i didnt get a fine those police were being nice. ashley was crying. i told her to relaxe and just cool it . mustafis was telling her the same. i was just trying to relax and not make a big deal. for a long time there i thought that they just would let me go. i let mustafis go because he was getting really peranoid. i didnt want the police to take his name down anyways. than like 30min. later the cop called me over by the car and told me thanks for being cooperative and all. but my probation officer wanted them to take me to the jail. so they arrested me and that is when i kinda flipped out but i was trying my best to relax. i got into the police car and i was crying really really bad. ashlery got into it after. she was all good. she cried all her tears out allready. half way to eau claire i stopped crying. i tried calling mustafis on my cell to tell him that i was in the police car going to jail. well we got to the jail. i got all admitted in and shit and than whent to sleep. this morning the intake worker came up to see me. she said my mom could come get me around 1. so my mom came and got me aorund 1. i talked to mustafis. he told me that after he left the house that night he whent to the bar and had 10 shots of tequilla. and got so drunk he past out in the bar and one of his friends drove him home. and than while i was talking to him today he was in the bar still drinking more. he is soo sweet and i am starting to have feelings for him. he made me this sticker that said "i love u rachel hun". at his work and he stuck it on my purse. i think that is soo sweet just for the fact that he was thinking about me and everything. i am just worried that he is going to use me for sex. i really hope not though. because that would be some bull shit. and i thinking that is what he is doing sort of because right when we got to his house yesterday he wanted to have sex like after 5 min. of being there. and than after that like not even 20 min. later he wanted more and than more and more and more. its cool and all and damn i am not saying es malo o todo porque es muy bien y ello es muy caliente ! pero es mucho mucho mucho. y yo es no caliente siempre. pero ello es caliente y cochondo siempre. y ello es muy grande y muy muy bien coheir. well he is calling me tomo. my mom take away my cell phone for 2wks. and i cant go out with my friends for 2wks. but hopefully if i do really good this week she will let me off. i am just worried about what is going to happen when my social worker finds out. she is prolly going to drop a U.A. on me and for shure it is going to be dirty. well i got to go now. amor siempre rachel!!!!!!

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Tuesday,Jun 13 2006, 11:10:41 PMbull shit no bien chingada!!

well i did end up going with mustafis last friday. it was soo much funn! but i brought emma which now i am thinking was a big mistake. never again am i going to bring her anywhere with me. i cant trust her one bit. mustafis is my boyfriend now, i am soo happy. i dont give a fuck with what nacho thinks. he can fuck off because he is an ass hole. and come to fucking find out he was using me the whole fucking time. he call me yesterday trying to get me back and everything bull shit. than i talked with mustafis just like 3 min. ago and he told me that nacho was just telling him of how much i am a bitch. so next time he calls i am going to say stop fucking calling my cell phone. i dont want to fucking talk to you no more you lil fucking pinche puto. oooh chingada. at first i was thinking that mustafis was using me and only wants sex but i dont think so anymore because i talk to him not too long ago and he told me that he wants to take to the movies . and we dont have to just go back to the house and party and have funn but we can do other things too. soo i think that is really cool and i hope that he is not just seeing me as some sex symbol because that would be some bull shit. i have been played way too much when i was thinking it was true love but it turned out too be bull shit. and nacho gave mustafis my number and told him to go for it. well if he try calling i am going to say you know what you play to much and i dont want to fucking talk to you ever again, dont call my fucking phone never again. i am with mustafis now and i dont want to talk to you. i never thought he was going to be like this. i actually thought he dont cheat and he respects ladies. but now i come to see that he just want me for sex and he just took me to the restaurant and shit it was just part of his fucking stupid ass games. and i cant deal with that shit. he said that i am being a bitch to him. well what the fuck does he expect. does he fucking want me to be all nice and sweet like he didnt do shit to me. because he really fucked me over soo bad. well this saturday we are hanging out an shit. and i prolly going to spend the night at his house. i dont know who i am going to bring to arcadia with me but i know that i want to bring one friend because i will feel very uncomfortable but i am going to makeshure it is not one of my really sexy friends because it really makes me pist off and jeoulos when he try getting with my friends. soo i prolly bring kayla or maybe i will bring amy if she can do anything and she is going to get off this bull shit that she be giving me. hm....... i just want to give up on mother fuckers and guys because it seems like everytime i think that it is going to work out and i have true feelings and i think that it is getting serious he fucks me over and says adios. no good. my gurl cassy is picking me up at 10 30 tonight after she is done working and we are going to go hangout with these guys that we met at the mall today named augustin and ricardo. i hope that we are going to be drinking a lil and i hope that it isnt laim. damn cassy is a lil hoe. we were sitting outside smoking a cigg and she was allready feeling all up on his leg i am all like oh my fucking gosh cassy you lil slut. but i dont care i really cant talk. last night i spent the night with my other friend augustin they are way too many fucking augustin's. but we whent to action city with kayla and her lil brother. and then we whent to walmart and then we dropped off kayla and we whent back to his house. we had to hide in his fucking car for like 45 minutes to wait tell pinche puta tita goes to sleep and gustavo and antonio and all the others that live there because none of them like me because they all wanted me and i dont want them so it is really funny!! haha. now i really gotta go. rachel!!!

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Tuesday,Jun 6 2006, 06:06:59 PMbored and sick

Hey whats up this weekend was soo much funn with my friend kayla. we whent and hungou with mario and pedro and jeremy friday night and we ended up spending the night over there. . it was all cool. and it was mi primo birthday, well he aint mi primo but we fuck around like that. hmm... anyways than saturday night we whent back over there but it wasnt funn and we needed to leave anyway because juel was being an ass. soo we whent over to gustavo house and they was some fine ass mother fuckers over there. they all wanted to get with me. it was fucking crazy. i was like oh hell no! i only fucked with gustavo. miguel was there and i so wanted to fuck with him a lot but i didnt need kayla to be pist off at me because i know that she likes him or whatever, but not anymore but i am shure that she would still be pist off and i dont blaim her. but damn let me tell you one of these days i am going to fuck with him and he claims that he is soo good and he know how to fuck soo good well he just going to have to prove it to me than!!! prolly over the weekend. but friday night i am hanging out with mustafis. this one africano hombre that wants to hangout and party. so i was like shure why not. shiiiiiiiiiiiiiit. he look good too! ... but i dont know what he want from me. if he wants me as a relationship or he wana get with me. i dont know about that but damn i dont fucking care... anyways cant wait. tomo is my last day at school that it is summer party party party all night every night outside... doing my thang!!!!!!!!!!! haha. i dont even think that kayla will wana hangout with mustafis and me because she say she wont go all the way to arcadia with them... which i dont understand why. she say because she cant trust them. but i am shure that i can trust them. i know that i can protect myself and i have never been scared with anyone that i was with before. when i meet someone i get a vibe from them right away and if they send me a bad vibe than i dont go with them but if i am relaxed than i am like shure why not... she should know that i will protect her too, because whoever fucks with her fucks with me and it wont be good i tell everyone that because i dont like leaving her alone in a room full of mexican guys, who knows what kinda shit they will try to pull. i dont like doing it but i gotta do what i gotta do and i allways tell them right away that they gonna get fucked with and fucked up and there ass beet if they try any bull shit on her. i bring her over there so i feel as if she is my responsibility because she is younger than me and if anything happens when we are together over there i will be held responsible for it, so i watch her. and shit if i was out there when miguel and antonio were trying to do that shit to her than i would fucking woop there mother fucking asses i dont care how fucking big they are or if they can woop some ass good because they cannot fucking hit me nothing well hey i got to go love allways rachel!

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Thursday,Jun 1 2006, 05:21:11 PMcomo estas

ey que pasa. nada mucho aqui pero aayer yo hablar para juel y el habla mi gustavo tengo mas chicas. y el dama es muy linda. es esta bien por que yo no puedo esta enojado por que el es no mi novio es solamente mi amigo para vida!!! pero yo mucho gustas no saves por que. o si mi y kayla mi chica en viernes salen con augustin y gustavo. yo no habla gustavo pero hablar para augustin y el habla es esta bien y el habla el primo gustavo. yo escribrar en espenol por que mucho personas aqui en mi clase. lo siento para mi muy malo espenol yo necesitas mas habla para mas mexicanos. una chica en south escuella tengo mucho mexicanos para amigos y ellas mama tom bien. yo habla mi amiga alexis para ella habla la chica llama bailey para mi y mi numero de telefono por que yo tengo mucho preguntas por ella. por que ella conoces mucho mexicanos viva en eau claire es mi amigos yo no saves??? por favor no por que yo no necesitos pinche vagas con mi hombres! haha! ey soy pocito ocupado por que la pinche clase y el mucho personas escucha por mi es no bien... adios rachel

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