Journals
Monday,Mar 28 2005, 12:18:00 PMdear diary, dammit. i just wiped out my...
dear diary, dammit. i just wiped out my entire diary entry and so i'm gonna write another. a short one.
o2 finally over, and these 3 days like experiencing lovesickness... feel emptiness surround me... cos it was really abt having fun fun fun fun and taking responsibilities.. learnt quite abit... how to communicate effectively, meet new pple and have fun w/o forgetting wad we set out for..
i think the JAE and PAE thingy is total crap. feel so sorry for my frens who couldn't stay. it's so unfair and cruel... it's something like severing you from the womb that nurtured you and cutting off your oxygen supply... mmm, tho u get a chance to start over again, but at this pt of time, i still do not see the point. when u were doing much better b4... o wells
and it's really time to wake and smell the coffee..i don't understand enc, sigma, pi bonds and the only bond i'll prolly understand in my whole life would be the bond btn food and my stomach... i've been eating so much and putting on so much weight, i wonder wad's more behemoth of a human, lydia sum or me. but heck, my frens always assure me i'm slim. but wad the freak, they lie so well and often i dunno wad to believe ;)
sighs, i'm so sad that zhiling transferred out.. haa, she's the only person aside from dezhi who's ever made me cry.. and today i cried for her la.. even though she might be only a few doors away, i'll miss her suaning 24/7, and the stupid things we do together in class.. and all 8 others who left 1so3w... wish you guys all the best, do us proud somewhere, sometime... =)
council interview on thur. not too afraid. ha, quite expectant really. if minzheng would be the interviewer... ha, i'd burst out laffing... turns out he isn't helf-jap.. hearing all the wrong things la, my info is really lousy! someone update me... heh, thank god he isn't half jap.. ruin my impression of japanese... my bestest fren from dunman is half jap la! =)
mm, thinking abt zhaoyu now... wad he said abt me... not popular mm, at first it hurt. but haha, who cares, council isn't just abt fame and power. it's about service. and i think they sure get to do lotsssss of dirty work... oh wells. but here i come!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Wednesday,Mar 23 2005, 01:03:53 PMmmmmmmmmmmm....... dear diary, i'm sorry i...
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dear diary, i'm sorry i din have the time or energy or right mind to write an entry, so here i am, in a reeeally drowsy state, tuning in to power 98 for the avril lavigne contest (yes, i am a cheapo. likes to pick up cheap deals. even free ones. like, erm, who doesn't hahaha) anyways, as i was saying, been really busy nowadays...
mainly cos of OH twO.. haha, orientation no 2.. planning day and night; calling pple day and night; collaborating with new faces, learning new names and imprinting in our life journals new phases of growth and maturity... sigh...
the first day has just passed, and with evry ticking of the clock.. the first unforgettable start may seem much further away, yet, the bitter taste of the lukewarm response, the sweet taste of a little success at station game and the salty taste of -obviously- sweat that trickles down every part of our bodies, as we work those loose muscles during batch dance.. haha, we're ALL VERY ENTHU!!!!!! really.. i meant the o2 team la... and ya, mainly the o2 team. mm, how to really psyche things up?!
the answer came quickly.. during station games.. think many pple liked the quidditch game. for explicit instructions, i've the rules of my game published in a book called harry potter.. pls feel free to peruse it at all great bookstores;) aha.. mm, station games really taught me the importance of flexibility, cos all the time, the ogs just trickled in and we were always short of competitors.. sometimes we merged the groups together, other times we just told them to move on.. mebbe that's the meaning of life too.. to move on.. to go on.. to go further.
and we shall go on. create new surprises. fashion an o2 never before and never after. (haiii, no more pae ma...) and boy m i glad to stay in rj.. but gee, really need to study a lil more! hahha..
mm, i feel genuinely sorry for those who couldn't stay.. that's like the worst thing that can happen to any student.. tearing him/her from where she was once happy.. severing her from the ones she will always remember... and there are DEFINITELY many memories, esp from o2 in rj right here right now.. weh, i wouldn't noe how to deal if i had to leave. or my really close fren had to leave. but thankfully, no one has to.. oh wells, wish everyone else good luck~
see ya arnd! tatas
Tuesday,Mar 1 2005, 12:16:33 PMhey dear:) results are finally out.. dunno...
hey dear:)
results are finally out.. dunno to be happy or sad.. acty can say i expected more of myself.. received 8a1s.. 2 for BOTH amath and physics.. that sucks! =( haha, tho i knew i really really din study for the o's so this result took me by surprise.. thank whoever marked my scripts... sorry for the ugly scrawls and doodling...
and i wanna send my love to those who din do as well, or those who wanted to do better... this is only the o's, not the end of the world (tho ya, true, i don't noe if i'd be this positive if i rcved a whole row of b's or c's.. that's another story..) there's still more mountains to scale, more milestones to erect... be the painter of the portrait of your life... be brave be strong be contented! and work harder =) i noe i will, cos i totally slackened.. which is very very bad..
but thankfully, hopefully, i can stay on at rj.. i've become so attached to it le.. =)
shine, everyone!