Friday,Mar 2 2007, 07:45:53 PMHeart-robbed

Heart-robbed
by: frustrated-girl
 
 
I'm tired. I'm tired of being taken for granted. You get mad at me for reasons I can't understand and would probably never be able to fathom. You have the right to be mad, I don't. You have the right to go out with other friends even without my permission, I don't. You can go all day without texting me and I won't get mad about it but when I don't text you, you go berserk.

You've been telling me about the girls who come up to you and give you stupid love letters and other stuff. You probably feel like a heartthrob, having them around you. Little do you know that I've been turning down lots of guys who have tried to court me, out of my commitment to you. But I wouldn't tell you about them. Why should I? I'm sure you'd get mad about the fact that I didn't tell you at once. Actually, you get mad about almost everything I do... and I'm beginning to hate you for it.

Talk about being selfish.

And you say I'm the one who's selfish, huh? I've been with you in this relationship for more than 3 years and for the most part of it, I've been feeling like a martyr. I would sometimes tell a few friends that I'm not happy with you anymore. They advise me to break up with you. God, how I want to do that. How I long to do that. But then I can't help but feel pity for you when you declare your so-called "undying love" for me. I can't leave you just like that. I can't. I've been thinking about it for so long but I can't seem to find the right time or the right way to do it.

I thought I'd be happy with you. For the first part of our relationship, I was. I really was. But then you started robbing me of my independence, my freedom, my heart, and eventually, myself. These past few months I've been trying to rebuild myself, my identity. Be known as me and not as your girlfriend. And I think I succeeded. That's why I'm stronger now. I don't crumble every time you get mad at me. I don't cry as much anymore. I can bear to hear you screaming at me and not be affected. And I thank you for that. I thank you for making me want to be a better person, all by myself... and definitely without your help. In fact, these days I feel as if you're the only problem I have left.

You think this is mean? You think what I'm saying is mean? Then you should have probably listened to yourself criticize me loads of times. After that you'd think that what I've written here is relatively sensitive.

Oh, and before I end this, I'd like to thank my friends for being supportive. For being there for me, much more than you have. They listened to me when I needed someone to hear me out.

There's one question I still have to ask you, though...

Can I have my heart back?

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Friday,Mar 2 2007, 07:45:52 PMHeart-robbed

Heart-robbed
by: frustrated-girl


I'm tired. I'm tired of being taken for granted. You get mad at me for reasons I can't understand and would probably never be able to fathom. You have the right to be mad, I don't. You have the right to go out with other friends even without my permission, I don't. You can go all day without texting me and I won't get mad about it but when I don't text you, you go berserk. ...

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Friday,Mar 2 2007, 07:42:39 PMInSaNe

InSaNe

I think i might be insane,
Deranged in my head,
hanging on by a tread, ...

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