Journals
Wednesday,Feb 16 2005, 03:38:00 PM
i'm having this personal care job... i thought it would be a great experience for me to be able to take care of a disable person and i thought it would look good on my resume... after the 4th time of training... i really don't know if i should keep it... this disable person is really mean and picky... what i need to do is to move her away from her wheelchair to her bed w/ the mechine...(it sounds easy.. huh?)... she needs like 8 pillows to make her feel comfy... all the pillows have to be placed exactly where she wants them to be at and there should be no wrinkles on any of the pillows... if one of the pillows is not at the right spot or maybe tilted a little bit... , then she will start yelling at me..
.... man.. she is just way too picky... one more thing... she is like ... what... 250-300 pounds?...
.. and she expects me to be able to lift her up and move her... gosh.... i can't even open a soda bottle lid... how can i be able to lift up a 200-lb person?! 
i really thought this job would look good on my resume... should i keep it? or should i quit? ... i really wanna let her know that i'm here to help... i don't wanna be yelled at..
... if u need help from someone... shouldn't u be nice to that person?! on the way back to my apt... i was praying to god and asking if i should keep it... (yeah... i'm 0.01% christian...) ... confused..
.... i talked to one of my housemates.. jenny... she thinks that i should quit.... i know i would be strong enough to stay alive... but.. i'm afraid i'm not strong enough to lift her up...